There Goes My Life
Jessikinz
Oh. My. God. I stared at the little pee stick with wide eyes. Ugh, that little pink plus sign was so unholy. But onto more important matters, how the hell could this have happened? Edward and I had been so careful; we even went the extra mile and added a condom to the mix even though I was on the pill. I sat down on my bed and put my head in my hands, after setting the pregnancy test next to me. My dad was going to kill me and then bring me back to ground me for the rest of forever. That was mild compared to what he was going to do to Edward. I didn't even want to think about what my mom was going to do. Renee thought all teenage pregnancies were an abomination, not like she could talk, she and Charlie had my brother Peter right out of high school, and not even nine months after Peter was born, I came into the world. Peter and I are the same age for like three months, we often got mistaken for twins, sometimes we denied it, and sometimes we didn't.
"We are so dead." I muttered, grabbing my phone and sending a quick text to Edward telling him that he better get over here quick.
I went down to the kitchen and grabbed a glass of water, just something to do to pass the time until my boyfriend got here. Despite my calm demeanor on the outside, I was freaking out that Edward was going to leave me, we're only seventeen, he has absolutely no obligation to stay with me, and if he didn't want to stay, I'd probably let him leave. Sure, it'd break my heart to do so, but, I wouldn't want him to stay with me if he didn't want to. I jumped a little in the air when I heard the front door close.
"Bella?" Edward called from the door. I swallowed and took a deep breath while chanting you can do this, Bella. He won't desert you. Over and over in my head.
"I'm in the kitchen Edward, but, uh, we should probably talk in my room, this is pretty important." I told him walking out of the kitchen and giving him a small smile, while taking his hand and leading him up to my room. I motioned for him to sit on my bed while I tried to figure out how I was going to tell him that he was going to be a father. How did my mom tell my dad that he was going to be a dad at a young age? Ugh, I will never have sex again.
"Uh, Bella, please tell me this isn't what I think it is." Edward said and I turned to look at what he was talking about and I felt my heart speed up as I saw him holding the positive pregnancy test. I bit my lip, and focused my attention on my pillow while nodding. "When did you take it, and are you absolutely sure?" He asked, standing up and walking towards me.
I swallowed thickly and looked up at him, feeling traitorous tears in my eyes. "I took that one about fifteen minutes before I told you to come over, and yes, I'm sure, I've taken like three of those things and I'm for shiz up the spout." I told him, bracing myself for any form of response or reaction.
"So, how what are you going to do with it, abortion or adoption, pick one." He said, and I looked up at him in shock. I couldn't believe what he was saying!
"Edward, you know I don't believe in either of those! Especially abortion, are you out of your damn mind, what the hell are you thinking?" I practically yelled at him and stepped away from him.
"Don't you think we're a little too young to be parents, and I'm thinking about our future, how are we supposed to graduate and go to college while taking care of a baby?" Edward said his voice a lot louder than his inside voice. I felt tears stream out of my eyes.
"You don't have to worry about a thing you asshole! You don't have to have anything to do with MY baby; I'll do it on my own." I shouted at him, putting my head in my hands and sobbing. I didn't like how this was going, Edward and I hardly ever fought. I barely heard him move towards me and wrap his arms around me. I flinched out of his grasp and he looked at me like I had just slapped him.
"Bella, please don't flinch away from me. What do you want me to say? I can't exactly say that I'm happy about this news, it's not exactly great. Maybe, later, I'll feel happier about it, but, I just can't right now." He told me, pinching the bridge of his nose with his thumb and forefinger.
"How do you think I feel, I'm not exactly jumping for joy either, Edward. But I will NOT give up my baby, you cannot ask me to get an abortion and, even if I did believe in them, it would kill me to go through the whole adoption process." I told him, going over to my bed and sitting on it. I put my hands on my stomach, and began running them around it. "I'm keeping her, Edward. With or without you, I won't force you to be in the baby's life if you don't want to, so if you want to leave, then just go and don't come back." I told him, my heart breaking with every word I said. Edward and I have been dating since freshman year, ever since I "saved" him from the clutches of the sluts; Lauren Mallory and Jessica Stanley. But, we've been best friends ever since we were both still in diapers.
EPOV:
I stared at Bella in shock, I knew she was mad at me for suggesting abortion and adoption, I knew all to well her aversion to those two ever since she found out that her mom wanted to do either one when she was conceived. I had no idea what I was going to do, I didn't know if I wanted to be apart of this, well, MORE apart of it. But I knew that I couldn't just abandoned Bella, she was the love of my life and I knew without a doubt that she was the one for me. I needed to talk to my dad.
"Listen to me, Bella. I'm NOT going to leave you, I just have to go figure some things out, is it alright if I go talk to Carlisle, or would you rather no one know just yet?" I asked her, she looked at me, and I could feel the guilt rise within me as I saw her tear streaked face.
"Do what you want, he'll find out sooner or later." She said and I was surprised to hear the indifference in her voice. "I was probably going to tell Peter and Charlie when they got home. Do you want to be here for that, or not?" She asked and I sighed, running my hand through my bronze hair, making it look even more disheveled.
"I'll be here. I won't let you go through it alone." I told her, determined to go through with that promise. She shrugged and I shook my head, walking out of her room and out of the house towards my car. I got in and drove off to the hospital, where I knew my father was working right now.
"Hey, there, Edward." Victoria, the receptionist, purred. I rolled my eyes; she'd been trying to get me to go out with her for the past two years, hinting at what a better girlfriend she'd be than Bella.
"I need to talk to my father." I told her ignoring the lustful look in her eyes. "By the way, how's James doing?" I asked her, smirking when I saw her features turn angry. James was her boyfriend who was currently in jail for Grand theft auto, attempted rape, and attempted murder.
"Your father's in his office." She said coldly. I flashed a smile, and walked in the direction of Carlisle's office. I knocked on his door before entering.
"Edward, what brings you here?" He asked me and I sighed as I sat down and ran my hands over my face. "Are you alright?"
"No, not really, I think I'm going through a state of shock or something. I have a question, how did you tell your parents that you and mom were having a baby?" I asked him, wondering if he would put two and two together.
Carlisle looked at me suspiciously. "Edward, are you trying to tell me something? Is Bella pregnant?" He asked and I nodded. "Well, have you two decided what you're going to do? I know she won't even consider any option except to keep it, and I don't blame her." He said, standing up and going over to one of his bookshelves.
"Well, she's decided that she is going to keep it, and I'm trying to decide what I'm going to do, she said that she wouldn't force me to be in the child's life." I told him, waiting for his reaction; he turned and stared at me, a look of confusion on his face.
"Why wouldn't you want to be in your baby's life, and why would Bella say that she wouldn't force you?"
I shifted uncomfortably in my seat, feeling the guilt of what I had said earlier return full force. "Well, I uh, after she told me, I kinda told her to pick between abortion and adoption. I wasn't really thinking clearly, and I told her I was sorry. I just don't know what I'm going to do, Dad. We're in high school; I don't think I'm ready to be a father." I confessed. Carlisle gave me a look of disbelief.
"Edward, no one is ever truly ready to be a parent but, ready or not, things happen that you can't control and you find yourself and your girlfriend or wife or whatever preparing a nursery and trying to get the courage to tell your family." Carlisle told me, sitting back down in his chair. "I admit that this isn't the greatest news, but I think that the both of you will do fine. You're caring, responsible, and loving people, which is really rare for someone in your age groups. Now, I can't tell you what to do, but, I know that you'll do the right thing and you know that if you won't be in your child's life, Esme and I will be there for Bella and the baby." He added. I nodded already knowing that. Esme's been wanting grandchildren for a really long time.
"I know, I wouldn't have it any other way. I just need to think about this some more." I told him, standing up. He nodded.
"Well, just think long and hard before you come to a decision, and make sure it's the right one." He told me, standing as well, and patting me on the back. I walked out of his office, and to my car, ignoring the looks Victoria gave me on the way out.
Nobody wants to be the last one there
Everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
I grabbed my cell phone and answered it, thinking it was Bella. "Hey, listen I-" I was cut off by a VERY angry voice.
"No, YOU listen Cullen! What the hell did you do to my sister that has her locked in her room, crying her eyes out? Do I need to kick your ass and remind you of the agreement we came to when you started going out with her? Remember what I said, you make her cry, I make you pay!" Peter, Bella's older and very protective brother, practically yelled. I shook my head as I got into the Volvo and drove back to Bella's.
BPOV:
I shook my head, getting the water out of my ears as I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my body. Edward had left about three and a half hours ago, and my dad was going to be home pretty soon. I took a deep breath as I thought about what I was going to have to tell him, maybe on my own. I quickly stepped out of the bathroom and into my bedroom. Although I was still worried about my dads and brothers reaction, that shower helped take out the stress I was feeling.
I jumped about a foot in the air when I felt a pair of arms wrap around my shoulders. "I'm sorry, Bella, so very sorry. You know I love you, I just needed some time to think, and I'm going to be with you through it all." He said, kissing the junction between my neck and shoulder. I leaned my head onto his chest and looked up at him, feeling traitorous tears in my eyes.
"Are you absolutely sure, Edward, I don't want you to do anything that you don't want to do." I told him, the tears sneaking out of my eyes. Edward turned me around so I was now facing him and he wiped my tears away with the pad of his thumbs.
"Yes, Bella, I'm positive. Now, get dressed so we can tell Charlie, I told my dad that he and Esme should probably come over too, he already knows, but he's going to act surprise for Esme's sake, and everyone else's for that matter." I took another deep breath and nodded.
"Okay, well, go down there and just act normal until it's time. I'll be down in five minutes." I told him, giving him a push and after he gave me another kiss, he walked out of my room. I shook my head and pulled out a pair of black pajama pants with white trimming around the waist, they were made of this stretchy type material and they were my favorite. I chose a grey baby tee with the saying 'What other shenanigans can I get into?' It was a line from my favorite teenage chick flick 'Juno' and it just seemed fitting for this situation.
A few minutes later, I was standing in the kitchen with Edward by my side. My father, Peter, Esme, and Carlisle were all seated around the table, looking at me with curious expressions on their faces. Except for Carlisle, he was giving us a look of encouragement.
"Okay, so, I'm not exactly sure how to put this, and I'm not asking for anything, except mercy, you know, it would be friggin' sweet if no one hit me." I said and took another deep breath while Edward squeezed my hand. "I'm pregnant."
And then all hell broke loose.
AN: So, how was that? I think I'm doing something out of my element. Please let me know how it is and just tell me if I should stop right now, OH and I'm sorry I haven't got the next chapter for "Emmett Annoys Lord Voldemort" I'm running out of ideas and I just got over a nasty case of Bronchitis but it should be up soon.
