Have you ever wanted to be different than everyone around you? Have you ever wanted to look each and every person around you in the eye and tell them just how low, disgusting, and utterly despicable they're being? How much you are disappointed that you are associated with such human beings? Wanting so badly to fit in with them but becoming disappointed in yourself for such foolish longings? When you look at the people you call friends, and know that each and every one of them is probably talking shit about you behind your back, doesn't it make you sick? Confronting them about it wouldn't solve anything because they would sit there and deny it until they're blue in the face. Granted, some of them I wouldn't mind making blue in the face but I guess that just makes me morbid.
I guess to give some credit to my closest friends, Ino, TenTen, Temari, and Hinata, there are some rare people that are really legit. Those are the people that I have considered myself lucky to have found. The one or two, in this case four, people that are actually real, that have hearts and souls and care about human emotion and feeling, these are the people that the world needs more of. And I know that no matter what happens, they have my back. There isn't anything that they wouldn't do for me, and I would gladly lay down my life for them were they in need of it (not gonna lie, if that day never happens, I will NOT complain!).
I met somebody. He is really hot, not taking no for an answer from any of the guys, a general bad boy image going on. I have absolutely no idea why I like him so much. I mean, looking at him, he's the person that I want to erase from planet Earth. Hell, that's pretty much everyone that I want gone from this planet. Which could be both bad and good for me. Bad because I couldn't reproduce EVER, but good because I wouldn't have to put up with their idiocy.
Thinking about this guy is all I can seem to do lately. I really want to stop, honestly I do. But there are just some things that, no matter how often you tell your mind or your heart, they just don't ever seem to listen. And it kind of really sucks. There is no other way of describing it. I want so badly to believe that he's just like me, just as disgusted with human kind, but a huge part of me is afraid of being hurt by the possibility that he could be acting that way just around me for me to be another notch on his belt. Which would suck even more than being alone. Having your heart torn from your body, then crushed mercilessly into a million little broken pieces in front of your very eyes. Not to mention the whole entire student population.
Well, here's crossing my fingers and hoping for the best. I mean, I guess being alone is better than having my heart blown to pieces, right? Or is this that one time where people say that it's ok to take a leap and attempt to do the unthinkable? Falling in love with someone is both horrible and wonderful, and considering that I'm the product of a divorced marriage, I'm not quite sure that the risk is worth it. Looking at both of my parents and seeing how miserable they both have made each other both in the past and present is a very depressing factor…
The life of Me (A.k.a. Sakura Haruna)
P.S. Don't shoot me if you don't like it! It's not my responsibility that you guys chose to read my boring life story. So, as you tread ever-so-carefully thru these very fragile pages of my journal, I hope that you are both sympathetic and condemning as you see what exactly I went through on my journey to answer this question: Is love REALLY worth the risk?
~ Is Love REALLY Worth It ~
Chapter 1
Pairing: SasuSaku
NaruHina
NejiTenTen
ChojIno
ShikaMari
DISCLAIMER! I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS OR THE MANGA/ANIME FROM WHICH THEY ORIGINATE! The only thing that is strictly mine is this story. Hope you enjoy reading it! =]
"Sakura! Hurry up or you will be late for school today!" Sakura's mom threatened from the bottom of the stairs.
"Mom! I said that I'm up and getting ready! I know how long I have before I'm late. I'll be down in a second!" Sakura shouted back, highly agitated.
"Whatever. Don't say 'I told you so' when you're late and get a detention." She paused when she heard the doorbell ring. She went to answer it because Sakura heard the door open and her mom greet the guests. "Hello, girls! Sakura is upstairs getting ready. Why don't you go on up there and encourage her to get her ass moving faster?"
Great. I wonder which of my friends is here cuz they really WILL move me out of the door before I'm ready to leave! Bracing herself for the girls to barge right through the entryway, she waited, but no one came barging in. The door opened, slowly, and there stood Ino and Temari. "Hey, guys, what's up?"
"We were just on our way to school and figured that we'd stop in and see if you were still here since you weren't answering your cell phone." Ino said, hands on her hips.
Temari just stood there, arms crossed, assessing my outfit. "My my, Sakura, what are you doing wearing a mini skirt?"
Shit. How do I explain to them about Sasuke? "I just thought that I would broaden my horizons?" She finished lamely.
"Funny. We know about your little crush, your infatuation with Sasuke Uchiha. We don't understand it because he's a total ass and a douche bag , but hey, that's up to you." Ino said, not pulling any punches.
"Guys, I don't know why I like him. It's just, you see, he makes my heart….I don't know how to explain it. It's not like anything that I've ever felt before for anyone. I see him and it's like everything in my world is right again. It's this weird feeling. My body gets all warm and my heart jumps, skipping a few beats, then it feels like it's soaring like a bird through the sky." Sakura said, getting this far off dreamy look in her eyes.
"Wow. That's kinda amazing that it's happened to you, but I also kinda pitty you for the sole fact of who it is that you've fallen for." Temari said sympathetically.
"I know, trust me, I know. I've my reservations about it as well. I wish that I didn't have such strong feelings for him. If I could take them from my heart and just erase them, I would. It hurts me to know that I have feelings for someone who is cold-hearted and has such a careless attitude. I wish that I could just forget him and for my cheeks to not turn all pink and blush whenever I look at him…" Sakura trailed off, not quite sure why she had gone on so much.
"Girl, what have we taught you? You must let him come to you if anything is gonna work out in the end! You have to make him want YOU, not just put yourself on a platter and say, 'Here I am, Big Boy, enjoy the meal until your finished with me and find the next bit of juicy steak.' That's just not how it works!" Ino said, shaking her head and rolling her eyes.
"Well, in my opinion, it's ok to try to get his attention. If you're gonna get his attention, you have to play it cool. Don't just turn into a puddle at his feet. Be cool, aloof, and make him want you to notice him." Temari said, a gleam in her eyes.
"Girls, please don't start. I'm fine just the way that I am. I don't even know that I want anything out of this. He's too….fake for me." Sakura said, and with that they all fell silent, each going down different trails in their thoughts, all imagining what this interesting situation's outcome will be.
THE END
(To Be Continued, though, of course)
A.N.
As a side note, I'd like to apologize to those who have been reading my other stories. I fully intend to wrap those up within this month, as well as keep this one up to date. I'm aiming for a weekly update. Friday updates are sounding really good right about now! *crossing fingers* Anyways, you know the slogan, PLEASE R&R! You guys will be doing me a huge favor so that I know what to put in my next chapter!
