This love is forbidden!
What would everyone think? How can this be happening? I can't feel this way...no...for god sake's she a girl. I'm so confused...maybe..it'll pass. How could I feel this way for one of my best friends? My mind must be playing a cruel joke on me.
"Tifa? Wake up...time to get to school."
Well, today is gonna be a punch in the face. Damn you Tifa, control your emotions.
After about 30 minutes of preparing for the hellhole called school, I got on the bus and there I was. Walking through the depths of torture, known as "education".
When I walked into the classroom, all my friends were in there. I stopped when I saw her. Oh...shit...Aeris. How the hell was I gonna tell her my sick and twisted feelings? Telling someone of the same sex that you've been having feelings for them wouldn't exactly be a damn picnic. Aeris had been my friend for a while and she understood me and listened when I needed someone. She was also the prettiest girl I'd ever seen. How could you not fall in love with her?
Wha.??! Ok, ok. Tifa, you are NOT in love,okay? It's simply just a small feeling that will pass. Ok,ok...whew. Just go up casually, sit and talk to your friends like always.
Yuffie was her usual wacky, random self. Cloud looked particularly handsome, his golden hair soft and pale skin glowing. See,Tifa? Guys are hot too. You are so not liking Aeris. Zack sat next to him, his eyes were overflowing with eyeliner.
"Hey, Tifa!" Of course, I recognized her voice. She came up behind me and gave me a hug.
"Hi." I tried to keep my eyes down and hide. But my sight involuntarily focused on her face. Perfect emerald eyes were shining bright, chocolate brown hair surrounding her beautiful face.
Tifa! Stop! You're..you're sick! You cannot feel this...you can't..you can't...
"What's wrong,Tifa? You look...nervous...what's wrong? Can I help?" She put her hand on my shoulder and looked into my eyes in a concerned manner.
"I'm fine. I'm fine, I just...need to get through the day and go home." The bell rang and my friends left for their classes. It was weird...I wanted to hide from her but...I didn't want her to leave. I watched her walk out the doorway until she dissapeared into the crowd of students in the hall. Today...was gonna be hell.
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The name "Aeris" made me think of many things. I know if what I was feeling wasn't real, then I wouldn't be thinking about her all day like I am now. It has to be something...I wonder how she would react. She'd probably hate me forever. This isn't a nomal situation here.
"Excuse me? May I go to the bathroom?"
"Hurry up." The teacher told me.
Going to the bathroom. Yeah right. I was getting out of this hellhole. Once outside, I got in my car and quickly drove home. What a relief.
Tifa...I thought you were strong. You can't just run away. You need to face it. You have to deal with it. What the hell is going on? One side of my conscience was telling me to run and hide but the other was telling me to face my problems. Which one should I listen to? That was totally up to myself. Damn this...
When I got home, I sat on my bed and thought...yes, I thought more. I had to tell her. Today. It seemed too soon but I needed to get this off my chest...I needed to hear her reaction. Only a few more hours until school was over...until then, sleep.
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I was awoken by the phone ringing around 5:00. It was Aeris.
"Hello?"
"Hey, I waited for you at the end of the day but you weren't there.What happened?"
Oh nothing.I just had to get away for a little to think about how I would confess my love for you...
"Um..I wasn't feeling too great so I just came home. I'm sorry for making you wait. I'll make it up to you. Let's go out to eat. I wanna talk to you, in person. It's important."
"Ok,Tif. I'll come pick you up."
Tifa, what're you doing??? You can't do this...you can't...she'll hate you forever. There's no turning it down this time...
Once Aeris pulled up outside, I ran out and got in the car.
"Hey,Tif! You feeling ok?" she hugged me.
"Yeah, I'll be fine. I just need to get a few things out."
"Well you can tell me right now. If it's personal, you shouldn't say it in front of people at the resturant. Go ahead."
"It is personal. And I'm...extremely nervous right now." I folded my hair back behind my ear and turned towards her, slowly bringing myself to look into her eyes. She brought her hand up to my hair and pushed it back. Why'd she have to do that? She's making this harder.
"Go on Tif. I'm listening. Please,just tell me."
"You'll hate me..."
"Tifa...why in the world would I ever hate you? Please tell me..."
I was starting to panic. My heartbeat was getting faster by the second and I was shaking like a rabid badger.
"I..I..."
"Tifa..."
"I...I like you,ok?" I was still looking at her after I said it. She looked a little...shocked but that was understandable. Once again she pushed my hair back and started leaning towards me.
What is she doing?? What is she doing??? Oh god...breathe,Tifa BREATHE!!!
The moment her lips touched mine, I felt a huge spark of shock and relief mixed together. This cannot be happening. She doesn't...hate me? I finally brought myself to kiss her back then we both pulled away. We sat and looked at eachother for what seemed like forever. Did this seriously just happen?
