Lily
Evans was the best of the best. She was sweet, kind, beautiful, and
intelligent was an understatement. She could have two girls fighting
over a guy, and moments later they'd be best friends. Sure,
sometimes she got a little angry, a little carried away, but she knew
what she was doing. Some people just need to be yelled at to get the
message through their thick skulls.
As she made her way up to her head dorm, she looked at all the kids she walked by. Some were short and wide, others tall and skinny. Then there were a few who were tall and wide, or short and skinny. It was amazing the diversity of the school.
Then, the farther she went her mind began to drift off. They ended up landing on the thing that drove her outside earlier that morning.
Lily closed her eyes and pictured it:
She woke up in a cold sweat, breathing hard. She just had a dream, well nightmare rather, about her parents being killed by Lord Voldemort. This was the third time that week, about twentieth time that month. So, she quietly made her way down and sat on the couch.
"You alright Evans?" a voice came from the darkness.
Lily automatically jumped up and took out her wand, but then, with the light from the fire, she saw it was Potter. "Oh, it's only you."
"Yes, only me, please don't kill me," James said, his hands raised in surrender.
Lily rolled her eyes and sat back down, "I won't, I'm just not in a good mood."
"Not a morning person, aye?" James laughed as he sat down next to her. However, once he looked at her, he noticed silent tears running down her face. "Oh, Lily what happened?"
"Bad dream," Lily admitted.
"There's no such thing as a bad dream," James pointed out, "Those are nightmares."
Lily smiled and shook her head, somehow he always knew what to say to make her smile. Over the last few months, she realized that she and James had been getting a lot closer. He wasn't the bullying toe rag he was in past years. "Fine, then I had a nightmare. James, how do you always know what to say?"
James reached his hand up and brushed away a tear. He swallowed hard, "I don't." Then, tentatively he leaned in to kiss her. He was surprised when she kissed him back.
Lily immediately came out of her memory. She ignored James ever since then. After he pulled away, she couldn't face him, so she ran. She ran long and hard to be away from him. Who was he to mess with her heart in such a way?
When Lily walked into her room, her emerald eyes quickly found a scarlet red note on her bed. At first she was worried it was a howler, but then she realized her parents didn't know what a howler was, so who else would send one?
As she got closer, she saw her name written in gold on the front in a very elegant cursive. She couldn't figure out who it could be from. Quickly, full of excitement, she dropped her school bag and jumped onto her bed, grabbing the note. She then read aloud. "Dear Lily;
I'm
writing you for the hundredth time cuz ninety nine I threw away
And
in my mind a thousand times I've said everything I wanna say
I've
said everything I wanna say"
Lily
quickly searched the entire page for a signature, but there was no
way of knowing who it was, there was no name anywhere except for her
own. Was this a love confession or something? So she kept reading.
"But
you find a way to keep me hanging on
You find a way to make
everything go wrong
It's the way you lose me
Say you choose
me
Then pass me by like you never knew me
You find a way to
lead me on"
She
now knew who it was. It was James. But what did he mean? How did she
make everything go wrong? Was it all the times he asked her out and
she said no. She let out a sigh, she just didn't get it.
"I
change my mind a thousand times but circumstances stay the same
I
told you no an hour ago
I've said everything I wanna say
I've
said everything I need to say"
Lily swallowed hard. He had tried to talk to her earlier, and she let him. However, when he brought up the kiss, she ignored it. The scene quickly flashed through her head.
"Come on Lily, I just need an answer." James practically begged.
"I can't give you an answer James, I barely know what's going on! I need some time." She replied calmly, taking a deep breath.
"But what about me Lily?" James asked, "I can't stand the time you're taking. It's been two days and you haven't spoken to me once!" He was hurting, and no matter how hard Lily tried, she couldn't stop her self from hurting him. She didn't want to, but she couldn't control it.
Once
again Lily shook herself out of a memory. And then with another deep
breath, she read aloud to herself.
"But
you find a way to keep me hanging on
You find a way to make
everything go wrong
It's the way you lose me
Say you choose
me
Then pass me by like you never knew me
Til I find a way of
moving on"
Even though Lily still wasn't sure if she liked James or not, or at least in a boyfriend type of way, the two words 'moving on' made her blood go cold. He couldn't honestly mean it? He always said he'd pursue her until she fell for him, he promised!
Then, Lily froze. He did it. He had finally managed to win her over. She couldn't stop thinking about him, she didn't want him with someone else. She couldn't believe it, somehow James Potter weaseled his way into her heart and soul.
"And
when I think I've figured out
I've found a way to live without
You
come around and everything's all wrong
I'm waking up alone at
night remembering when the time was right
You're only here a
moment then you're gone"
He was right, Lily mentally cursed herself. She was leading him on, she'd go downstairs in her shorts and a small, tight tank top. She told herself that it was only to show him what he couldn't have, but she was lying to herself. She knew she liked James. She loved the way he looked at her, and she loved the way he said her name. Even if he said her last name, his voice was always filled with affection for her.
"You
find a way to keep me hanging on
You find a way to make everything
go wrong
It's the way you lose me
Say you choose me
Then
pass me by like you never knew me
You find a way to lead me
on"Lily
didn't bother to read the last block of writing, she had to find
James. She had to apologize, say he was right. She just had to find
him, kiss him, hug him.
As fast as she possibly could, she ran to the Heads common room. When she couldn't spot him, she ran up to his room, but he wasn't there either. Without even thinking, her feet began to lead her to the Gryffindor common room.
She quickly said the password and ran into the room. That's when she found him. But he wasn't alone.
On his lap was Lily's best friend, Melinda Heart. It was obvious the two were together. And no, it wasn't the sitting in his lap that gave the new couple away, it was the fact that they were snogging.
The two looked up. Melinda blushed, "Oh, hi Lily."
"Hey Lin," Lily plastered a smile on her face.
"Did you want something?" Melinda questioned, quite flustered.
"I just wanted to tell Potter something." Lily smiled sweetly and then turned her attention to James, "James, you were right. I do make everything go wrong."
And with that said, the redhead ran from the Gryffindor common room back to her own room. She had never been more thankful for the head dorms. She quickly jumped onto her bed and cried herself to sleep. Not caring one bit to finish reading the letter.
Til
I find a way of moving on
You find a way you lead me on
I'll
find a way
I'm movin on
