One-shot

This is a one shot based off of Christina Aguilera – Soar


Soar

I looked out at the sun setting. It was the only comfort I had. It was my only closure. I wiped the blood away from lip, trying to hold the pain that made my body shiver in. I tried to make the tears that would always slip from my eyes back. Did I have a life? Did I need one? Do I want one? I find myself asking that question every day. Every time it happens. The same answer always. I have no idea.

I got up and winced from the stinging that went through my body. I leaned on the wall and closed my eyes tight. Finally I couldn't bare it and just slid back down the wall. I let out a painful cry.

Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own

Love will open every door it's in your hands, the world is yours

Don't hold back and always know, all the answers will unfold

What are you waiting for, spread your wings and soar

What do I do to people? I try… I try to fit in. I dress like all the cool kids. I wear make-up, but they say I'm too ugly. Maybe getting beat up in alleys and behind the school is good. I deserve the punishment. I'm so ugly and fat. I'm….I'm worthless.

Now in life, there's gonna be times you're feeling low

And in your mind insecurity seems to take control

We start to look outside ourselves for acceptance and approval

We keep forgetting that the one thing we should know is

I like him… I love him. But he hates me. Plus he's with her. The sexy non-fat pig girl. The girl I could never be. I want him to be mine. For him to hold me at night. Maybe even my husband. I smiled, but he quickly went away. What am I thinking? I could never get a boyfriend, so why would a guy wanna be my husband anyways.

I lifted myself up, this time not even caring about the pain. I slowly left the cold alley. It was now dark as the sun had finally laid to rest while the moon was doing its nightly duty.

I walked the streets. Not knowing where I was going. And to just be honest not caring. I mean I couldn't go to that house. I mean I knew he was mad, steaming even. I missed my curfew, and he was going to kill me…literally. I hated my stepfather. I hated everything about him. His clothes. His face. But I specially hate when he comes into my room at night. It's such a normal thing now I can't bare it. My mom would of taken me away from here. If she was alive.

I stared down at that golden heart pendant she gave me on my seventh birthday. not even a month later she was gone. Dead. I can't believe he even had the nerve to pull the trigger. A tear slipped from my eyes at the memory. I try so hard every day. And for what so people can hurt me even more.

When they push when they pull, tell me can you hold on

When they say you should change can you lift your head high

And stay strong

Will you give up, give in, when your hearts crying out its wrong

Will you love you for you at the end of it all

I can't take it. I cry. I try. Nothing happens. I was a mistake. For 5 seconds in my parents' life they decided they loved each other and 9 months later out popped me. The girl who everybody hates. The girl who everybody wishes they would die when they see her coming. I pop it and held it to my head. On 5, and everybody will be happen. 1, 2, 3, 4,-

"STOP", he yelled pulling the gun from my hands just in the nick of time.

I stumbled back at the sudden confrontation. It was…it was him…

"Do you have any idea what you could've done!

I didn't respond. I couldn't. I was too shocked. This all was happening to fast. I couldn't think fast enough.

"Hello!" he grabbed me making me look up at him.

I blinked, trying to get out of this trance. This maze I was trapped in. then….. I woke up.

I woke up? Well actually I jump up. From my….sleep?

I blinked trying to focus. I looked around my room. Posters? Pictures of my friends? Everything a normal teenage girl would have in her room. So it was just a dream. I smiled, wiping my already sweaty hair from my… night terror?

I heard my phone beep and knew I had a new text message. I looked and it read:

John: hey babe I know it's early but I love you

I looked at the clock and it read 2:00 A.M

I smiled and texted back:

I love you too.

Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own

Love will open every door it's in your hands, the world is yours

Don't hold back and always know, all the answers will unfold

What are you waiting for, spread your wings and soar