A/N: I know i shouldnt be writing another story when i havent finished the other one, but i had this idea. Its kinda random, and i have little to no idea of where its going. But oh well. Enjoy!
He'd thought a walk in the park would have been a good idea. It was both of their nights off, a rarity indeed, and he had been desperate for some 'them' time. It had started off wonderfully. He'd taken her hand into his, pulled her close to keep her warm from the cool Las Vegas night air, and reminded her how much he loved her.
She knew Nick was trying to butter her up.
But Sara was smarter than that.
Now he had decided the walk hadn't been such a good idea after all.
Her breath was visible in the cold air, small puffs of white mist fanning around her face as she spoke to him.
More like yelled at him.
"Why can't you just leave it?" She asked angrily, pulling away from him, tucking her hands deep into her coat pocket to keep them warm. "You already know my answer on this!"
"Why can't you understand how important this is to me?" Nick asked desperately. "I let so much stuff go, Sara. I let the marriage thing go. I didn't push you to marry me. You didn't want to, so I left it. I can't leave this!"
He could make out her face in the moonlight. She was upset, he could tell. But so was he. The marriage thing still stung him, even though he had let it go. He knew her views on marriage, so he didn't push her, despite the fact they had been together for over 18 months.
He couldn't let this go though.
"I know that this is important to you, Nicky," Sara finally whispered. "I really do understand. But I just can't."
Nick swallowed. "Why?"
She shivered in the night air, and Nick desperately wanted to pull her into his arms to keep her warm. But he couldn't. Not when he was this upset with her.
She sighed. "I just swore I never would, Nick. I'm not that kind of person."
"But you can be," Nick told her hopefully. "You're such a caring, beautiful person, Sara. I know you have it in you."
But she just shook her head. "I'm sorry, Nick. But my mind is made up."
He stared at her unbelievingly, and with a quick turn of his heels, started to walk back up the street, away from Sara.
"Nick!"
He could hear her calling after him. Oh, he wanted to turn around to her. But he couldn't.
She was a fast runner, and caught up to him easily, grabbing onto his arm and pulling him back to her. Her face was red, her eyes watery.
Why was she upset? She wasn't the one who had her dreams thrown back in her face.
"I'm sorry." She told him. He shook his head, and pushed her away from him.
"I love you," Nick told her, his voice quivering. "You're all I've ever wanted, Sara. I… love you so much."
"I love you too," she said softly, her eyes bright. But he continued to shake his head, his thick Texan drawl coming out thick with emotion.
"But you won't marry me," he continued. "And now you won't have children with me…"
"It's not personal," Sara said annoyed.
"It is," Nick mumbled. "I only ever wanted 4 things in my life, Sara. To get a good job, fall in love, get married, and have a family. If you honestly don't want to get married, I can understand that. But having a family…"
He trailed off, causing Sara to let out a small sob.
"I'm sorry Nick. But…"
"Just don't say anything," he whispered. "I love you, Sara. I really do. But, I want a family. It's in my blood. And if you don't want a family, then… maybe we shouldn't be together."
It broke his heart just to say it. He couldn't imagine his life without the beautiful brunette. But if they didn't have the same wishes, should they be together?
She looked at him in shock, her eyes wide, and then threw herself at him, burying her face in his neck. He pulled her closer, burying his face in her hair.
He didn't want to have to let her go.
"Please Sara," he breathed softly. "Just one baby. I want to be a daddy."
He took a deep breath, trying to keep his emotions in check. "Please?"
He felt her mumble something against his neck.
"Pardon?" he whispered. She shook her head.
"I… just can't."
Nick pushed her away, and continued to walk back up the street. She called out for him again, but this time, Nick didn't hear.
Now he figured, he had two choices. Accept Sara's decision, and not have the family he had always wanted, or leave her, and find someone who had similar aspirations.
His heart was screaming out to stay with Sara, and that he could never find anyone else who he loved more than her.
But, if he ever wanted to be a dad, he would have to leave Sara.
Unfortunately, his head was swaying towards the latter.
Maybe Sara wasn't the one for him after all.
TBC...
