Bella doesn't feel loved cause her mom left her when she was younger and her dad, who's always at work doesn't seem to care about her. She stays strong but inside she's already dying. What happens when she meets someone who's seven years older than her? Will she finally feel what it is to be loved and be cared about?


When I was younger, I always wanted to feel loved and to know that at least someone cared about me. But, of course I didn't feel loved. My mom left me and I can still remember her words.

"You've been a mistake! I never wanted you, and this is the last time you'll ever see me."

It hurts like someone has ripped my heart out.

I had to stay with my dad, of course and I guess I should thank him because he didn't kick me out. But he was never a father to me. He didn't love me, it was obvious. And he didn't care. He paid for my tuition, yes. But I have to pay him every month until I finish paying him.

Yes, I work. At the Newton's and get paid every month. That's life.

I do all the choirs in the house and it's fine with me, I grew up doing all those things anyway and it doesn't matter. I study hard and promised myself, I'd go to college and find my dreams and maybe..someone who will finally love me.

Sometimes, I wish I just didn't live, you know?

Like maybe, Renee and Charlie are still together. They weren't married though and well, yes. Renee was very young when she had me but that doesn't make sense right? If they really loved each other and if they loved me, they should have worked it out but they didn't cause they don't care and I hate them.

With all my broken heart.

But I stay strong cause I don't want them to see that I'm weak.

Although, inside? I'm dying.

My heart feels so empty, like something's missing.

And maybe, just maybe there's someone out there who will be there for me and telling me 'It's gonna be okay'

Though I know for real, it won't.

But it's nice to know that someone's there..

I just feel it.

And I just wish that 'someone' would be the one to fix me.


Hmm? What do you think?

huh?

Poor Bella, right?

I know.

So yeah..

~Sam

xoxo