A/N
I'm admittedly stretching canon here a bit, as it's implied that it didn't take long for Rose and the parallel Torchwood to begin work on the Dimensional Cannon. Still, I assume that there was at least some period in-between of hopelessness on Rose's part, that there was no way back to her own universe. Suffice to say, I expanded on the idea.
Reflections of a Petal
I cried 'till I can cry no more,
Tears falling to the ground.
Thinking of the man I lost,
And then briefly found.
…
Still I feel the course of sadness,
Tearing up my heart.
What began on that night of wonder,
Can never once restart.
…
Sadness, regret, they course through me,
With feelings of hate.
Directed to cruel circumstance,
The winding paths of fate.
…
The gate that once connected worlds,
Has closed for all time.
While my heart is left torn apart,
Reality remains fine.
…
Even now I still look back,
Imagine his ship's light.
I was ready to travel for all time,
On a never ending flight.
…
Cybermen, daleks, the void ship,
They now reside in hell.
I can't take comfort from their fate,
For I'm in it as well.
…
I still have the TARDIS' key,
I cradle it in my hands.
As if to call it through the void,
As if I could make demands.
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Sometimes, when I close my eyes,
I can hear his gentle voice.
Fury coursed through it at times,
But only at his choice.
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The Ninth Doctor, the Tenth Doctor,
To me they weren't the same.
But without any incarnation,
All I feel is pain.
…
I still remember, back in Torchwood,
Losing my faint grip.
Taken away from my greatest friend,
On a dreadful, final trip.
…
Those around me gently state,
That I must move on.
But how can I do that here,
With the Doctor forever gone?
…
Sometimes I feign normalency,
But it's all just a façade.
Time does not heal all your wounds,
It only makes you hard.
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Sometimes I feel I really died,
That this is the next life.
Dreams of memory, harsh reality,
The balance of a knife.
…
Sometimes I listen to the breeze,
To hear his voice once more.
To emulate our last farewell,
On Bad Wolf Bay's long shore.
…
But all things must come to an end,
I live in a new era.
Doing work in this world's Torchwood,
Acting as Earth's defender.
..
But though time's passed and life has flown,
The Doctor I think of still.
I've not forgot him or our travels,
And I never will.
