"Just like that."

Raphael never meant for this to happen. It started off simple; innocent. He would notice little things like how much Leo's eyes sparkled, especially when talking about stupid Space Heroes, or his ability to always know what Raph was thinking and just what to say to him. Leo just got Raph in so many ways no one else did.

"I'm gonna make you scream."

Then things got worse... Like the day they were training and Raph's eyes connected with Leo's legs: the muscles contracting with every motion, sweat dripping off them. The sight was strangely alluring to Raphael and he couldn't stop staring. His breath began to get deeper, his lids heavy, and his insides were tightening. And he got fucking hard. The only thing he could think about was sticking his penis and Leo's ass.. his brother. Oh God why.

"F-fuck. Ohh yes Leo. Yes."

If only he could say he was imagining it now. He hated this. Hated that he found some sort of lust for his brother. For so long he hid the feelings, masked them with his aggression towards Leonardo, afraid that one day he'd run out of control and- fuck. Today was the day. The day he gave in to the darkness inside him. And of course it had to feel so fucking good.

"Goodnight everyone." Leo smiled as he shut his door and sighed. It had been a long day. Training was getting more intense and Splinter kept seeming to expect so much from his oldest son; a burden Leo knew he had to carry, but sometimes wished he could shove it on to one of the others for a little while.

Reaching his arms up, he stretched and felt the soothing sensation all through is body. A yawn escaped his lips and he ripped his mask off, eager to finally lie down in bed. He sat on the edge of his bed, staring down at the floor and finding himself subconsciously counting all the marks on the ground. An impossible task he found he forced himself to try to complete countless times; which only ended in him becoming physically angry and needing to meditate. Though plenty of things did that to him: his brothers, the lack of justice in the world, not having tea in the house, those urges he tried so hard to stop. The urge to touch, to kiss, to- no. He needed to push those thoughts away. He would never be able to kiss someone, to have someone love him, not when he looked like this. It was a pointless dream that needed to leave his mind before he hurt himself more wishing that she would-

No Leo stop. No matter how hard he tried she'd always enter his thoughts again. What was it about that girl that enticed him so much. That made her show up in his dreams, and enter his thoughts regardless of what he was thinking of before. She always forced her way into his mind. He rubbed his eyes with his hands, hoping he'd be able to stop thinking long enough to actually get some sleep. Another yawn leaving his mouth, he leaned back and laid in his bed, closing his and trying to focus on his breathing. One, two, three. He began to count. But it was no use, she found her way into his mind with ease. Dammit Karai. He couldn't help but smirk at the thought of her.

Leo felt someone nudge his arm and slowly opened his eyes... it was still night. Why are they waking me up in the middle of the night? This better not be some stupid training exercise.

"Leo?" It was Raph. Grrrreat.

"What do you want?" Leo breathed out in a half whisper. The words were laced in more attitude than probably necessary, but Leo was too tired to care. "This better be important."

"I-I just-" Raph's words came out in a softness that was unfamiliar to his voice and Leo was immediately alarmed. He began to sit up, staring at Raph to try to see if he could figure out whatever the hell was wrong with him.

"Raph?" Leo questioned and Raph's finger slowly brushed up and down Leo's arm. His eyes glanced over to Raph's hand, his head staying in the same place. Goosebumps began to paint themselves all over Leo's body. The motion was oddly satisfying, but he couldn't help but wonder why Raph would ever be touching him like this. It was-

His lips connected with Leo's in a split second and he had no time to react. What the fuck? Leo tried to pull away, but Raph wrapped his arm around Leo, pulling him in towards him. His tongue forced his way into Leo's mouth and began to explore every inch of it. The kiss was filled with lust, need, desire. It felt desperate in a sense, but also very longing. As if it had been wanted for a long time. Leo knew in his mind what was going on was wrong and needed to stop, but his body seemed to enjoy the motion, his mouth beginning to kiss back and his penis hardening with every flick of Raph's tongue. Raph. This was Raph he was kissing. The sudden realization was enough to take him out of his trance and let his mind win.

He pulled back quickly, pushing Raph away with all the strength he had. Raphael gazed up at Leo with a hungry look in his eyes.

"Raph. What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"Just shut up Leo. You don't understand." Raph spoke with more anger than Leo realized he must've been feeling. What was wrong with him?

"Why are you so mad right now? What did I do?" Leo asked, the anger building up inside him. How dare Raph come into his room, passionately kiss him, and then get mad at him for making them stop.

"Just-just-" Raph began to walk closer to Leo, his fingertip grazing his skin again. Why did that have to be his weakness?

Slower this time, Raph pulled on Leo's arm so his body pressed against his own. Seeing the protest in Leo's eyes, he pressed his lips against his before he could say anything. Leo felt his length ache in his shell as it pleaded to be released. He knew he shouldn't, but Raph was too quick and pulled it out for him. Before Leo could say no he placed his penis into his mouth and suddenly Leo was filled with electricity. An 'ahh' escaped his lips as his mind, for once in his life, stopped wandering. And all he could do was sit there and think about how wonderful that felt. Grabbing on to Raph's head, he knew his orgasm was coming soon.

"I'm gonna- I'm"

"Oh no you don't. Not yet." Raph's voice was rough and demanding and sent shivers through Leo's body.

This needs to stop.

Raph came behind Leonardo and slowly found his way inside him. Leo immediately tensed up, the feeling unpleasant and he began to shake his head; words not being an option at the moment.

"Don't worry, it won't hurt too much." Raph spoke almost tenderly to Leo, and it was a sound he both loved and hated.

I need to tell him to stop.

Raph started to thrust in to him and Leo felt so many new sensations. It hurt like hell. But yet he also kinda liked it. He felt Raph's thick cock exit and enter his ass and the thought of it was strangely... hot. Leo's hips began to move with Raph, and Leo heard an approving moan leave his brother's lips.

"Just like that." He breathed out and Leo couldn't help but agree. They started to move faster and he could feel Raph's body tremble. Feeling Raph's hot, heavy breaths against his neck made more goosebumps appear and he couldn't think straight anymore.

"I'm gonna make you scream." Raph whispered in his ear and a whimper left Leo's lips. Faster. He moved much faster and thrusted even harder.

"Ahh- ahh" Was all Leo could say and Raph let out a single laugh. Suddenly the room was filled with heavier breaths as they both neared their orgasm. Raph's hand placed itself on Leo's penis and began to move up and down, much like how Leo had done to himself, but this way felt so much better.

"F-fuck. Ohh yes Leo. Yes." Raph shouted and suddenly his cum squirted out and filled Leo. It felt warm.

They both laid there in silence, neither one brave enough to say anything and both unsure exactly what the right thing to say was. Raphael ended up leaving quietly and Leo pulled himself back in to bed. This would become a nightly routine, one that they both never planned but just simply knew would happen. Leo still didn't think it should, and Raph still felt ashamed by his feelings towards his brother, but every night they continued anyway. A terrible, disgusting secret that they hoped would stay a secret forever...