I'm officially obsessed. I saw Angel in a restaurant the other night before he turned around and I realized he was ugly, overweight, and white… I also found THE perfect Angel/Collins last days song. Like, seriously.
Disclaimer: (Insert clever witticsm here), so I don't own anything.
Roger
Someone once asked me how I could be happy knowing that every time I forget to swallow a pill, I could be damning myself to an early grave. I looked out the window at people wandering on the street, cars lazily drifting by, and said,
"I'm not, all the time. But I need to look past the threats. I don't focus on how little time I have; I focus on what I can do with that time. If all I did was sit back and moan about my potential death, then no one would remember my life. That, for me, is the worst nightmare. I've been put on this Earth to do something, and, disease or no disease, I'm going to do it. No one can deny me that."
Collins
Someone once asked me how I could be happy, knowing that every sneeze or cough could morph into a deadly disease. I looked down and sighed, thinking, and looked back at them, and said,
"The way I see it, I'm no more likely to die than the next person. I'm only more aware of my fate. Carpe diem--for me, that's more than just an obscure Latin phrase, it's the only option I have. If I don't live my life normally, then I'm refusing to see all the beauty in the world, and the world is beautiful. I have so much more than some people have. I have friends, and a passion, and someone who cares deeply about me, and never lets me forget the fact that I'm alive and in love. And that, my friend, that is a wonderful thing to be."
Mimi
Someone once asked me how I could be happy, knowing how and why I was going to die when I was so young. I looked at them for a while thoughtfully, and said,
"I try to remind myself that people suffer setbacks every day. There are other people living with my problems who manage to lead wonderful lives, and have families and careers and friends. I might not be at the top of the food chain right now, but that doesn't mean I'm not young and full of promise. I can't let my fears stand in the way of who I want to be. If I die tomorrow huddled up in a hospital… well, at least I tried."
Angel
Someone once asked me how I could be happy knowing that every second I could be just a little more dead than I was the second before. I looked them straight in the eye and said,
"How can I be sad, knowing that every moment I am, I'm wasting a chance to be happy? I have friends who care for me, and people who support me, and a lover so devoted to me that he stands by me and reaches for my hand just to be closer.
"Each new morning is a reminder that I could have died during the night, but I haven't. Every smile or laugh is a tear I haven't shed. I could be in a hospital, unable to do or eat or even say what I want, but I'm not. When I smile at someone or make their day just a little better, that's one more person who will remember me. There are so many people out there who are focused on the negatives. I can't be. I refuse to be miserable in a city alive and devoted to achieving dreams. I am happy because I want to be, and no one can tell me otherwise.
"I'm happy because I'm alive."
A/N2: Hm. This is another really short oneshot. Usually mine are like seriously long and way more fluffy...
