It was not what I had seen that made me afraid; that I could live with, the sight of Edward ripping to shreds another vampire but what he said; his eyes black, and unnaturally beautiful.

"If he hadn't been in my way I would have killed you Bella-Without a doubt." I stood stiff and the blood in my body seized to flow, my pulse racing. For the first time I was truly afraid of Edward. I shifted my eyes down upon the body of Jewel, a newborn whom wanted to kill me and whom I decided to provide blood for, and then back up at Edward who stood as still as I did. I saw his shoulders relax as well as his expression, now soft and loving-the Edward I knew, instead of frightening and furious. What had I done I thought? I was going to allow a newborn taste the warmth of my blood for the exchange of saving Charlie's life. Then I felt it, everything just weigh down and fall, along with my entire body, my legs falling from under me, to the cold, moist ground. Edward came after me, holding me in his arms, holding his breath I imagine. My hand was clutched, hiding the knives straight wound, warm blood I prevented from escaping for Edwards sake. I began to cry, my head on his perfect marble chest.

"I'm so sorry Edward. Please-p-please for-forgive me." I stuttered my tears streaming on my cold hearted face. He bit his lip trying to hold back his urge to just kill me I knew.

"I smell the blood Bella, and I knew what I was about to do. How could you sacrifice yourself like that?" he whispered. Without a word he pushed me away, Carlisle taking his place. Where had he come from I wondered but I was too weak to speak anymore. Carlisle examined my hand and bandaged it quickly after.

"I'm a monster." I could hear Edward mutter.

"it wasn't your fault-" began Alice.

"I could of killed her!" shouted Edward. I wanted to shout at them both. To correct both of them. Edward couldn't help it, but he's not a monster.

"you two, cut it out." called Carlisle, lifting me then from the ground into his arms. Carrying me to Rosalie's convertible. "lets take Bella home." he said then I spoke. Calling Edwards name.

"Edward….Edward its not your fault." I finally spoke.

"shhh." someone hissed and I closed my eyes to a deep sleep.