DISCLAIMER: I do not own Big Time Rush

* JAMES POV *

It's been ten years. Ten long years since the last time I saw her. TEN YEARS...

I can still remember that day. It was the day before our year-long world tour. It was the same day that I decided not to live by my pride anymore. The day I finally admitted to myself that I love her. She's the one for me and I can never live without her.

/ FLASHBACK /

I picked her up at school that afternoon. I can see in her eyes that she was surprised. It's not the first time I picked her up, but it's the first time that I was ot wearing disguise or whatever.

She walked towards me and touched my forehead.

"Are you feeling well?" she asked, still surprice is evident in her eyes. I can feel tension all over her body as I held her close. She's getting concerned cause I had told her before that I don't like people to see us together. It's not that I'm ashamed of her. It's just that I don't want people bombarding her with questions. And honestly, I used to think it will not be good for my career. But that was before, and now I couldn't care less!

"Of course I am" I replied. " C'mon, aren't you gonna give me a kiss?" She gave me a quick peck in my cheek, then she pulled away from my hug.

"Why-"

"Shh" I interrupted as I put a finger across her lips. Then I kiss her. It felt good.

I drove her home and told her I'll be back in an hour for a special date. I went back to Palm Woods and prepared everything in a room I reneted. I couldn't have been done in time if it wasn't for my friends' help.

"You really love her huh?" said Kendall as we set up the table.

"I sure do" I replied.

"Better not make her cry..." Logan said. "She's one of a kind" The way Logan had said his last statement caught me. But I did not say a thing. I know he likes her. But hey, I LOVE her!

Around 5:00, I picked her up and bring her to Palm Woods.

"No peeking!" I told her. She giggled.

"SUPRIIISE!" I said.

"Thank you"

"Anything for the girl I love" I said. She was shocked. It's the first time I mentioned the L-word. "I LOVE YOU"

"I love you, too James!" I can see tears escape from her eyes and I kissed it away.

The night was perfect. Then after dessert, I played a love song and we danced. Then I kissed her, putting all those feelings I kept hidden for a long time in it. Before I knew it, We were by the bed.

"Tell me when to stop while I still have some control left" I said. But she didn't say a word. And that's when one thing started leading to another. WE fell asleep around two in the morning, with her by my side. I could never be happier!

The next day I woke up but she was not there anymore. I tried calling her. NO ANSWER. I went to her apartment, she's not there. As I was Driving around trying to find her, Gustavo called me telling me we have to go. Even during the tour I tried reaching her. But still, NO LUCK!

/ END OF FLASHBACK /

A/N : Please bear with me, this is my first fanfic. Also, I need help for the girl's name. THANK YOU!