Chapter 1

The end at the beginning

The fog surrounds my body and mind; my emotions take over causing my every move. I dropped to my knees and the tears started streaming my face I couldn't control it. I start to trace something but before I can see I awake screaming.

"Lil what's wrong?" my brother Josh came in from the other room "ya I am fine" "you were dreaming again weren't you" I bowed my head "ya" I had, had dreams before but only when something was about to happen. "do u wanna talk about it" his voice sounded sweat and innocent "ya I guess" I was still in shock from the dream. My brother being the jerk that he is pushed me out of bed, "come on sissy I will take you to Starbucks so dad and mom don't hear okay?" how could I refuse I mean coffee and maybe getting this dream off my mind, besides it was Saturday not like I was doing anything important.

I don't know what I would do without my brother he was always there for my through everything. The drive there was quit neither of us talked, it was awkward normally my brother always has something to say. Starbucks was good although I had to start the conversation which wasn't normal for me, but It didn't matter I was out with my brother and I got to get this dream off my chest.

The drive home was even more awkward he had pulled over one block away form our house. He started crying, I was so confused I didn't know what to say, I just raped my arms around him and tucked his head into my chest. After awhile he stopped crying and lifted his head "I am sorry" he whispered over and over "for what" it wouldn't be the first time I had seen him cry. He stuttered like he couldn't find the right words to say to me "I'm dieing" he said at last. My heart dropped and I couldn't breath, "from what" I couldn't believe I got that much out. "Cancer" I didn't believe what he was telling me I got out of his car and ran, he called my name over and over.

I couldn't help it I just kept running and running, the tears streaming down my face. By now my eyes were red and puffy and I could barley sees, I found a park bench and sat down still crying. After I calmed down I checked my phone my brother had called 5 times and text me 10 times. "Seems like he's worried about you" I turned around "ya I guess," he was tall around my age, had brown hair and blue eyes "do you wanna talk about it" "what do you mean?" I asked surprised "well you are obviously upset" "no I'm not" I fought back "please your eyes are red, makeup is all over and you have like a million text from your boyfriend." I looked down at my phone there was anther message from Josh "oh he is not my boyfriend he is my brother" "that's a relief, now I can do this my name is Roman, what's yours?" "Lilly" I replied "Lil for short" "will Lil it is very nice to meet you." I smiled "do you want to go for a walk with me?" "Ya sure" we talk and talked it felt so nice. I told him about Josh and my dream and he just sat there and listened. He told me how he just moved here and was going to the same school as me. Time past "I have to go" I walked away "wait" I turned around he was so close to me we could almost kiss, that's when everything went black.

Next thing I know I was there the fog surrounding my body and mind, my emotions take over causing my every move. I drop to my knees and the tears sta

streaming downs my face I couldn't control it. I put a red rose in front of the grave then start so trace something then I awake screaming in his arms.