A/N: I watched "The Runaway Bride" and "Smith and Jones" last night and... I felt like writing.
Warning, Doc swears a bitsy!
I don't own Doctor Who, but a girl can dream!
I can't help but wonder now that you're gone...
How many hearts did you have to break to be with me?
How many men fall for your charms, your grace, your face, your intelligence?
How many times did your mother cry?
How many men wished you to be theirs, when they knew you cared for only me?
How come Donna was so right?
I do need someone to stop me, and dammit... I found her. Isn't it just like me to fuck it up? She was a sharp one too. One of the first things she said to me, it was brilliant! I said, "We might die." and you know what she said? "We might not." Yeah! She said that! Facing death! Square in the face, on top. Oh god, she was a quick one.
But then... I guess I didn't find her soon enough. If she'd only come before Ro-
No. I can't say that. Things were different then. I was different then. And I am sure as hell different now.
One of the first things I said to her when she stepped on the TARDIS... I told her she wasn't replacing Rose. And she wasn't, I mean it. I kissed her and told her it meant "nothing". And it did... then.I told her to stop flirting with me. I said it and... at the time, I meant it. But if I could go back I...
Oh, and when I took her hand and we ran from the Judoon. What a rush.
I love this. This life? S'brilliant. But... I have to say that I...
I hate it, too.
I have loved them all, every single one. In their own ways, mind you. Not all of them get the attention that Martha and Rose (A/N: You can add anyone you want here, in your own mind. I don't know much about the old series'.) deserve.
And every single one left me.
Why, Martha, why? Why did you have to go, too?
Well, I know why. You needed to take your exams, you needed to move on, your family needed you. Hell Martha... I needed you.
I can't go it alone, Martha! I can't! I've tried, believe me, I've tried but... It just doesn't! And I don't need to find someone else. I don't want to find someone else. For once... I want someone to stay...
Damn it, Martha... Call me... PleaseI don't want to break my own heart... not again. Don't make me add my own hearts to that list...
Please.
A/N: How wonderfully sad, yes? He seems a bit pathetic though... I'll have to work on my Doctor a bit, I think.
I keep churning out these angtsy-ass Doc fics! Wtf?
DocTha FTW!
