**Disclaimer**

I unfortunately do not own Twilight but the characters Astrid, Demitri, and Aislinn are mine :D

On My Own

by blufeathers

Chapter One

Absence

Sitting on the boardwalk trying to force out tears that I knew wouldn't appear, I pondered what I would do now that Demitri was lost. I sat there sparkling just like the sea before me when I looked up and noticed the beautiful sunset, I hadn't noticed it in the last couple of hundred years because Demitri eclipsed the sun. He was my lunar eclipse since I hadn't a need the sun in over six hundred years.

I had thought I was alone until I heard a shuffling of feet behind me, a mile away of course, and the distant giggling of a drunken couple. "Hey lady, its dangerous for you to be out here this time of night." The man called out for a human to hear, but he thought I was normal(big mistake) my eyes were kohl black and a microscopic ring of ruby surrounding it, I was thirsty. I had just remembered that I hadn't hunted for several weeks and my sudden epiphany had me on the hunt. I slowly (for me that is) sauntered towards him and in an alluring voice and an impish grin said, "I'm a big girl, I think I can handle myself." He chortled annoyingly. In order not to cause a commotion I lured him towards an abandoned fun house that smelled like urine and whiskey and had a little snack.

The high from the dirty human only lasted a second and then I was back to thinking about Demitri, how I would miss his philosophy about humans, how he treated them like our equals. I stupidly had promised that I wouldn't try to off myself like some love-struck teenager that just had her first break up, but that is what I felt like doing at the moment. After all how do you replace a soul-mate? Of course I would obey the only thing he had ever asked of me, try to keep on surviving.

I needed to make a plan, before, when Demitri went to save his sister Aislinn down south; she was involved in the scuffle for territory; I had planned to follow him, but he wouldn't hear of it. So I decided to go north and visit on of my 'friends' who joined a 'permanent settlement' and found this existence easier. She said it was in Denali, of course I hadn't had contact with her in several decades but I'm sure she found it endurable.

I had no idea what really happened to Demitri, luckily Demitri was well liked and had his remains delivered to me by one of his 'brothers', a pile of lavender ashes with his wedding band, a moon that fit in with the star on mine, and a note. It said," Dearest Astrid, I promised I would return no matter the cost and if you're getting this letter that means the cost was, unfortunately, my existence. You have no obligation to save my sister but I would deeply appreciate it if you went after her. Yours always, Demitri."

I know I could always go north and see who would come to save Aislinn with me even though no one wanted to get in the business of the south, it was a deathtrap. I didn't really want to pull Loraine, my friend, into this but if the clan was big enough up in the northern regions maybe we could straighten out the south. But every few years the Voulturi would get involved and I wouldn't want to be there when they were around. They would find my 'gift' useful and keep me as a pet in Europe not allowed to leave or they would think I was either side and destroy me as a threat. I wasn't happy with either but I needed to do something and this was the only plan I had.