Animal I Have Become

It all started to come back to Ichigo as the last minutes of his life passed him by he didn't know how he came to this or when but he knew that what he had done was the right thing. He couldn't live not knowing if his memory would come back, if the darker side of him would come out and take over now that it's a part of him just like his inner hollow. Ichigo knew he had done it for her the girl he barely even knew but loved, the same girl by his side now screaming his name telling him he'll get through this but Ichigo knew better, sure he loved her but the only way to overcome his inner animal was to do what he did. Flashbacks of the night he lost everything including himself played over and over in his head he didn't understand why he did it but then again he did yeah the cost were high but the cause was worth it, protecting her was all he cared about no matter what he had to do even betray her and all that he knew, give his life yeah he would give his life any day to protect her just to see her frown one more time to see her alive and well, there was no doubt that Ichigo loved her, look at him now lying there dying on the ground not caring if he survived or not. Seeing her move was enough for Ichigo to pass on and live a happy life knowing he protected her as long as he could yes he could live peacefully in the afterlife as long as he was dead and she was still alive. He knew as he watched his flashbacks of the day that he joined Aizen that it was the beginning of the end of his life he knew he would die when he joined him whether Aizen erased his memory or not he always had this feeling like yeah what he was doing is wrong but not doing that was even worse because eventually Aizen would've gotten the better of him and they would've both ended up dead.

Flashback: The Day He Joined Aizen

Ichigo had decided to go for a walk he needed the fresh air his battle with Aizen was now just one week ago today he almost succeeded in killing Rukia, Ichigo couldn't let that happen again he loved her too much. Damn that Aizen he makes me so sick sometimes, Ichigo couldn't help but scream, since he was at the park and it was around six in the morning no one would be there he could let out his frustrations. He told Rukia he would return back home soon, he just needed some air. Rukia was still injured from that battle with Aizen one week ago so she didn't object to him leaving after all she wanted a moment to be alone too, But now looking back at that she wish she had begged him to stay and not leave her all alone because that would be the last time she would see him in three month but anyway. All of a sudden Ichigo felt a spiritual pressure the same one that nearly ripped him in half one week ago it was Aizen, damn him how could he and why would he show up at a time like this. Rukia woke up barely being able to breath as she felt Aizen's strong spiritual pressure come over her he wasn't near her yet he wasn't far away either. At this time she remembered Ichigo all she could say to herself was "all fuck Ichigo"

"Aizen come out you bastard I know your there"

"Ah so you've gotten better at sensing my rieatsu how wonderful"

"I wont underestimate you this time you can count on it". Ichigo pulled Zangetsu from his back

"I didn't come here to fight"

Ichigo held Zangetsu tighter. "I hardly doubt it"

"So how's Rukia doing'

"That's none of your damn business"

"I heard I nearly succeeded in killing her. What a drag if only if only"

"If only if only what?"

"If only there was a way to protect her"

"Quit with the small talk what do you want?"

"If you join me and my fellow aracnar then I will spare her life"

"Never!"

"You don't honestly think I travel alone do you"

"What"

"I have two of my companions waiting on my command to kill sleeping beauty"

"Sleeping beauty"

"Rukia"

"I swear if you lay one finger on her" Aizen cut him off

"I'm not the one who's gonna kill her"

"I'll kill you if she dies"

"It's your choice Ichigo, her life is in your hands"

Ichigo didn't have to say a word Aizen knew Ichigo's answer the second he dropped Zangetsu.

"So I guess that's a yes"

Ichigo was silent he was about to give up everything for her to live. Ichigo stooped to his knee's waiting for Aizen to take him. Aizen made some type of hand signal a blue light flashed and Ichigo blacked out. Rukia saw a blue light flash across the sky "Ichigo" then she too for some reason blacked out. Rukia woke up the next day remembering what had happened. She tried to sense Ichigo's rieatsu but it was nowhere to be found not even Yourichi could sense it. Uraraha said Ichigo's probably dead Rukia there's no other explanation. She ignored this she spent days and night's searching for him but there was no luck he was gone with out a trace.

3 months later:

Aizen erased Ichigo's memory at least most of it he couldn't erase Rukia from him though he would often dream about, she was the only person he remembered. He was in training with Aizen to make him more powerful those 3 months. Something Aizen shouldn't have done. Rukia returned to the soul society she cried herself to sleep every night for three months until… Ichigo Aizen said here is your first mission go make the soul society aware of our plans show up at their meeting tonight cause some hell, but try not to kill anyone just yet. Yes sir Aizen captain sir. Oh and take Kuraku and Xirata with you. Yes sir Aizen captain sir, Ichigo said as he signaled Kuraku and Xirata to follow him, it would be his first mission and they weren't gonna mess this up for him…

" Hey Beavis and Buthead"

"What Ichigo" Kuraku said

"Don't mess this up for me or it's your head's"

"Don't worry Ichigo we were ordered to watch you on this mission"

"Whatever"

"Just follow are lead, watch and learn"

Ichigo shook just head his friends were a little odd xirata never talked though he is very powerful and kuraku talked too much, although they were odd they were the only real friends Ichigo had. He could put up with them they were like his brothers the family he forgot but knew. They headed for the soul society when they arrived Ichigo had this feeling like he had been here before.

"Kuraku?'

"Yes Ichigo"

"I think I've been here before"

"We all have this is were our memory was stolen from us. That is why Aizen has sworn hate on soul reapers and the soul society, they stole his memory too."

"The bastards"

"Keep your cool Ichigo, You too xirata"

You could see anger on his face but xirata never said a word.

"That is where the meeting will be held that is where we will wait."

"What?"

"Were not only here to warn them but to gather information"

Beside the fact that kuraku was goofy half the time he could be serious at some moments, those were the moments xirata and Ichigo worried about him the most even if they never showed it. They waited for the meeting to begin…Rukia had been living in the soul society since Ichigo disappeared she couldn't stand the human world anymore or she couldn't stand it without Ichigo. She had been spending a lot of time with renji but he couldn't replace Ichigo no one could.

"Come on Rukia were gonna be late"

"Wait rojo"

Renji's face got all red she had nicknamed him that since his hair was blood red she called him rojo the Spanish word for red, he didn't know where she learned it from, maybe Chad he thought he was Spanish. As they arrived at the meeting so did byakuya he didn't mind seeing them together he was happy she was getting over Ichigo he couldn't stand to see her depressed like she would be sometimes and he would know she was thinking about Ichigo. The meeting started shortly after Rukia, byakuya and renji took their seats. The committee that the soul society had began talking about their troubles with Aizen and what little they knew this was uninteresting to renji and Rukia so they began their own conversation…Kuraku, xirata and Ichigo all stood in a window listening to the meeting they knew nothing…

"They know nothing kuraku"

"Good I think now's the time we make our move"

"Ready xirata?"

Xirata shook his head up and down as they jumped down from they window making every soul reaper there wonder who they were and why they were here. They were wearing strange clothes all black with hoods; two of them took their hoods off while one of there's remained on. This caught the eye of Rukia and renji, they moved to the front of the crowd as they watched the hooded one quickly take out the committee without breaking a sweat or using a zangpato. The hood kept from revealing Ichigo's face not that he really cared or anything.

"What a pity you soul reapers know nothing" kuraku said

"Who are you and why are you here" Renji said as he began to grip his zangpato

"Well I guess it would only be fair to know are names after all were not the ones who are doing the asking here right Animaru"

Kuraku only called Ichigo this when training because he has a inner animal who from time to time comes over him just like his hollow he can't stop it or control it, it always gets the best of him.

"Right, I am Animaru, this is kuraku and xirata all though he may not talk he is deadly just like me and kuraku"

"Who are you to brag?" Renji said summoning his sword.

At this time byakuya and Rukia stepped beside renji. Ichigo didn't answer Renji's question he had no need to waist his breath. Byakuya summoned his sword and said…

"Why are you here"

Byakuya's spiritual pressure was blazing.

"Wow what amazing spiritual" kuraku said. "Well we were here to gather information for Aizen but as to see you know nothing I guess are use is without a cause.

"Your not welcome here" Byakuya said as he prepared his self for battle

"Don't tell us where were welcomed" Ichigo said as his spiritual pressure began to storm it was more powerful then Byakuya's it was like lightening.

"Calm down Animaru, Control yourself"

Rukia too had summoned here sword until she felt Animaru's spiritual pressure it was familiar like she had felt it before she had exactly 3 months ago, was it Ichigo's she thought to herself no I couldn't be could it, he would never join Aizen. She screamed his name…

"Ichigo?"

Kuraku and xirata was struck how did she know Animaru, Ichigo was stunned too how did she know his name then he looked at her it was the girl from his dreams, but she's the enemy why would he have dreams of the enemy unless she's the one who took his memory. Ichigo removed his hood everyone gasped at this it was him he took out Zangetsu and pointed it to Rukia.

"You" he said

"Ichigo?"

"Who are you and how do you know my name?