Author's Note: Basically how Swiftpaw before he died... Summarised into a couple of words. I know this is stupid so just tell me how much. Flames accepted. A short fanfic. Read and review. Thank you.
Disclaimer: Unfortunately...
Last Feelings
Hurt…
It hurts that I wanted everything yet it turns out to be nothing. I had always been determined. I tried my best in every way, but I still remained an apprentice.
Uneasiness…
It was hard to enter the apprentices den every night, knowing that I was already warrior age. I felt like I was an oversized specimen. I felt left out. It wasn't a nice experience. The looks other apprentices flashed at me seemed to be mocking at me.
Confusion…
Why hadn't Bluestar made me a warrior? Is there anything wrong with me? Did she despise me in any way? Everything I tried had been in vain.
Anger…
Cloudtail became a warrior. Far younger than me, with a stubborn attitude and lack of belief in StarClan. The other apprentices were upset, but none were like me. In my heart, Cloudtail would always be Cloudpaw. Fireheart's fault. He sent me back to camp because I was the fastest. Turns out my best quality which even gave me my name was my worst enemy. Why couldn't I just be born with the ability of strength?
Hate…
Cloudtail, Fireheart, Bluestar…
Determination…
If just leading life as a normal apprentice can't give me my warrior name, I must lead a life of an extraordinary apprentice. It was time for me to get the credit of saving the Clan.
Joy…
Brightpaw, the one I feel so strongly about, agreed to come with me. To face the dogs. Together, we will prove ourselves to Bluestar.
Fear…
The scent of the dogs made me hesitate. Was this really a good idea?
Pain…
Agonizing pain. The dogs' teeth tore at my fur, sending sharp thorns of pain inside me.
Regret…
Brightpaw was suffering. She was being torn apart. All because of me. That drove a sharp pang of regret inside my heart, a pain stronger than my physical wounds.
Betrayal…
Where are you, StarClan?
Remorse…
I'm sorry, Longtail… Brightpaw…
Gratefulness…
Thank you Longtail, my fellow friends, my mother…
Affection…
I never get to say this… I love you, Brightpaw. I always will. Thank you for your support.
Loss…
The things I had tried so hard to hold on to… were lost.
Hurt
Uneasiness
Confusion
Anger
Hate
Determination
Joy
Fear
Pain
Regret
Betrayal
Remorse
Gratefulness
Affection
Loss
Goodbye…
Peace.
