Ok, so this story just hit me and it had to be written because it won't let go. Just so you know, it is stream of mind. No beta and just my own lousy editing, so please only point out huge infractions. I promise that this story will end better than it starts, and Castle and Beckett will be together after they get through the messy stuff. There will be lots of angst before the smut. I am hoping to be done with this in two weeks or so. It starts off at the end of Headhunters, but becomes totally AU after that. Hope you come along for the ride…hold on tight.
Disclaimer- after all this time they are still not mine, but heck they maybe acting like mine fairly soon! We can only hope!
You Don't Want Me…..
The pain in her heart only supersedes the ache now assaulting her head, and Kate is just barely been holding everything together. Every time he arrives with the giggly blonde at a crime scene or meets her at the precinct, the knife twists in her gut and her heart breaks just a little more. Then comes Detective Slaughter, and she tires to show him that no matter what she will always be there for him, always has his back. She puts her job on the line for him, but he doesn't seem to even notice, finally she admits to herself, he just doesn't care and it's over.
She's finally ready to jump into this relationship and she's the last person on earth he wants. He wants blonde, exciting and uncomplicated. She's definitely none of the above. His uncomplicated comment cuts her to the core, she knows he meant to hurt her with those words and the memory brings tears to her eyes.
Holing herself up for the last three weeks hasn't made things better. She cries herself to sleep every night, beating herself up for waiting, for not being ready, for being her, and its time to stop. It's time to move forward, and start building that wall that had never come down in the first place.
She calls Madison and asks her if she wants to do girl's night out with dancing and drinks. Madison quickly accepts oblivious to the circumstance behind the invite.
Dressed to the nines, wearing a dress that is far from being considered decent during daylight hours, it hugs every curve of her body and barely covers her ass. She's ready to party and forget everything. The five-inch spiked heals; hair and make-up round out the clubb scene look. She's hoping that any attention will ease the pain around her heart, if not the alcohol will definitely dull the pain. Attracting men has never been her problem; keeping them and committing is. She's learning the hard way that she is damaged and love, real love will never be within her reach.
Five tequila shots and two whiskey sours later she's the center of attention on an extremely crowded dance floor. Surrounded by a rowdy group of men, all vying for her attention, as she dances suggestively against them. All of them getting some of her personal attention as she grinds her body warmly against them.
Things start to get a little out of hand. Hands slide over her body inappropriately as they dance, but she is far to intoxicated to care or notice. Keeping her drinks coming, she wards off the pain she no longer feels. She no longer cares about anything.
Madison tries to pull her away from the group several times, with no success. She manages to take her phone and calls Castle numerous times, but he does not return the calls. Madison starts getting nervous as the group starts to move away from the dance floor, and resorts to calling Esposito when she can no longer spot Kate on the dance floor.
"Hey Beckett, wassup?" He answers expecting to hear her give him information on where to locate the next body drop.
"Hello Detective Esposito? This is Madison, Kate's friend. I'm calling because I am at Club 36 and Kate has had too much to drink, and things seem to be a bit out of control with a group guys, and now I can't find any of them. I'm worried." She practically yells into the cell phone trying to be heard over the music.
"I'll be there as soon as I can." Espo responds and hangs up the phone. He has seen how she has been lately. She has been reckless and he feels the anxiety building in his gut, this is not good.
He calls Ryan and they decide to meet at the club as soon as possible.
At the club Kate has lost any control she thought she had. She tries to move towards the dance floor but her feet won't cooperate and the men are being insistent. Her dress gets lifted over her hips and her thong gets ripped off her body. They grind themselves into her, and lead her towards the back of the club and out into the back alley. She hardly notices what is happening to her. She feels dizzy and very tired when one of the men yanks at her dress ripping the front and exposing her breasts. She tries to scream, to cover herself but she can't move, her body isn't responding the way she wants it to and she starts to panic.
Opening her mouth she tries to tell them she is NYPD but nothing comes out. Her vision gets fuzzy and paralyzing fear starts to rise as she feels the rest of her dress being ripped from her body. Hands grope and grab her breasts and ass painfully. She struggles fruitlessly against them when she feels something hit her face, and then her ribs. She doubles over in pain and gets yanked up by the hair and punched in the stomach.
"Stupid bitch bet she doesn't remember us." she hears, before they take turns hitting her and abusing her. One of them has pulled himself out of his pants, and she wants to fight. Her last thought before she blacks out is she deserves this. He doesn't love her, and now no one will.
When Esposito and Ryan arrive at the club they immediately go into cop mode and search for her. A bartender points them to the back of the club. They spot the back entrance jarred open, the alley is silent and they do not see anything right away. Not far from the back door and behind the dumpster, they find Kate in the fetal position, badly bruised and naked. Blood streaks her face and back, angry bruises are already marring her porcelain skin, and there is an open gash on her hip. She isn't moving and the sight of her like this makes both boys nauseous and seething with anger. Thankfully Ryan finds her pulse.
Ryan drapes his jacket gently over her, as Esposito calls for a bus. Both men are at a loss for words as they tend to their friend and co-worker. Espo finally scoops her up and holds her in his arms as they wait for the ambulance, careful not to disturb any evidence possibly on her body. He's not leaving her on the cold dirty ground like that. Ryan keeps watch for the bus and to minimize the number of people seeing her like this.
"God help them if I ever find out who did this to her! I am going to rip them limb from limb." Esposito growls in anger. Ryan punches the dumpster in frustration. How could this happen to one of their own?
As she is being rolled into the bus both men stare silently at their friend, sister and boss. Kate is more than just their co-worker she is family, and this cuts them deeply.
"We need to call her father, then Lanie and Gates to let them know what has happened." Ryan manages to say as he leans against the brick wall. "Do you think we should let him know?"
"I don't think I can talk to him right now. I'll send a text and we can start calling everyone else." Esposito takes out his phone and prays he is making the right decision, because honestly he wants to kill Castle right now. He knows she will kill him when she finds out he called him later.
"Beckett's, in bad shape, beaten and probably raped, bus taking her NYU Medical Center. Just wanted you to know." He presses send and hopes he has done the right thing, no one has heard from him in two weeks. For all they know he is out of the country.
He calls her father, followed by Lanie and Gates and gives them the information. All three will meet them at the hospital. They will all get there before the two of them.
Today has been a great day for promos and previews. I am home sick in bed and have gotten to watch them as they came out, something that never happens to me. There are another 3600 words of this story already written and will be up this weekend if people are interested. Please leave a review and let me know. I would really appreciate it….so please…it is right there in blue right below this….just click it ;)
