Why don't you love me?

Hey this is my first BSG fic, I hope you like. I don't have a beta, so all mistakes are mine.
Disclaimer: I don't own so don't sue.

Bill Adama entered his quarters after a long and tirying day. All he wanted to do was take a bath and sleep; he also wanted to forget for a while. Forget that the colonies didn't exist anymore, forget that the were on the run, that he was once again fighting against the cylons, but more important he wanted to forget the look on his son's face, when in a moment of anger he had told him that he wished it had been Lee the one to die instead of Zack, what made it worst was the fact that he had yelled that in front of everybody in CIC. He hadn't meant it, gods know he hadn't, but before he could take his words back Lee had scold his features, apologized for being alive, and left CIC, leaving an uncoftrable silence behind him. After that he hadn't seen his son and the few people he had asked if they had seen him had told him "NO".

It was when he went to move from his office to the area were he slept, that he heard the voice.
"Why don't you love me?" came the drunk, broken and confuse voice of his only remaining son, and perhaps that's what hurt the most. There was no accusation on his son's voice, no expectation or demand for that love, just resignation that this was the way things were.

"Lee-"but before he could say more his son continued from were he was sitting.

"Why do you hate me? Why am I not enough? I have try so hard to please you all my life, to do what you wanted me to do. You said take car of your mom and I did, you said take care of Zack and even thought I screw that up I tried so hard. But it's never enough is it? not waiting for a reply Lee continued "Tell me what I have done wrong? Tell me were I failed? and I swear I'll try to do better, I'll try harder to make you proud, if not as a son as an officer, please dad please, give me one more chance, just giv-" but Adama couldn't take it anymore and dropping to his knees in front of his son, he hugged him and after tucking his son's head under his chin he started rocking them and talking;

"Oh, Lee I do love you more than you know. I don't blame you for Zack I know you looked after him, that you tried your best, and it's nothing that you have done Lee, it was never you, it's me. I have never know how to relate to you, to talk to you so I pushed you away, so you see it should be me asking you for another chance, and if you can find in your heart to give it to me, I'll try to be the father that you deserve, the father I should have always been." It was a few minutes before the whispered reply came;

"OK"
"OK" repeated Adama. Neither of them moves, not even when Lee fell asleep in his father's arms for the first time since he was a baby. Adama knew that he would be sore and stiff in the morning, but right now he didn't care, right now there was nothing more important to do and nowhere else he wanted to be. He knew it wouldn't be easy to fix the relationship with his son, but for the first time in many years there was hope for them, and with a gentle smile on his face, he followed his son into Morpheus waiting arms.

THE END