chapter 1 of my story How we Feel

( Sam Puckett&Freddie Benson- after iLoveyou)

chapterone: If they only knew how much it hurts them both

just a girl with a broken heart, that's what she is, sam puckett the once strongest and daring devil turned in an instant into a girl who's lost herself, she doesn't know where she stands in this world, depression it's taking over her, pain becomes a good thing and just the thought of seeing him makes her want to throw up.

so she did what was best, she tried to avoid him , of course she had to go to iCarly but anything else her reply was she was not going, She had to see him last night in the studio, she caught a expression on his face which didn't make sense, she saw pain and sorrow for just a second.. and she figured it out, Freddie benson is an amazing actor and she is an amazing actresss both not knowing they're playing this role..

She moved from her position sitting on the floor to her bed, she wore black ripped jeans and a leather jacket with her black converse which stopped just above her ankle.

In bushwell plaza, he was a mess, he saw her last night and didn't know how to react, he saw her sad side, the one she's hidden all her life, she forgot to rebuild the walls and he could see right through her. He studied her last night, her face showed no emotion but pain. He wanted it to stop , It killed him to think He was causing her this pain, but she looked dead to the world, the only thing that was sam ish was her hair, she was there in person but in spirit she was already gone.

Freddie sits at his door which he slide down and cried last night before getting up, he cursed out loud then slammed his fist into the door"why did it end like this ." he screamed out as if someone could tell him but the room went silent except from his clock with the hands ticking around at each number.

Sam also screamed and cursed out loud, that's one of the unique things about them together, they both think a like and don't even know they do it. she grabbed her pillow and cried into it while he had fresh tears running down his face, if they only knew how much they both were hurting right now.