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One shot on Jak's Time in prison. Every time I hear this song this comes to mind. And since I burned my Evanescence CD onto my computer I hear it a lot. So to destroy the plot bunnies driving me insane I give you…
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I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming
Monsters calling my name
It hurts…
It's hurting everywhere… Make it go away.
Jak curled tighter into a ball in the corner of his cell, willing himself away from this place.
Slipping back into that part of himself that was still safe. They can't get me here.
It was beautifulhere. All sunshine and grass and trees. Never any pain and darkness, those couldn't reach him here.
They couldn't reach him here, couldn't hurt him here.
safe
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As they're falling tell a story
HE was back again dragging him away from his place of safety.
Pushing him down onto THAT chair. Strapping him in, then the pain came. Oh God that pain.
It tore through him, that icy hot darkness saturating into his skin. It wouldn't go away clinging to him like an infectious disease.
It pulled and tugged at his subconscious forcing him to let go of the fantasy world.
Forcing him to scream, to relive the hellish existence his life had become.
And HE laughed.
Laughing at his pain, his suffering
I hate him.
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Where are you guys?
Help me…please?
I can't save myself... I- I'm not strong enough.
"Don't worry buddy, I'll save you before you know it."
Please hurry Dax. I c-can't hold on much longer.
They threw him back in his cell. Leaving him alone to recover before it started all over again.
Jak hugged himself tighter. They were gone now, he could slip away again.
Safe again, they couldn't hurt him.
Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos- your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape
The Day had broken over the prison. Not that he could tell, it was always day here.
Locked inside his mind Jak watched the clouds drift lazily through the forever blue sky.
The wind pushing the trees into a rhythmic dance that soothed him.
It wasn't so bad now.
It can't reach me here. Safe from the darkness, safe from the pain, safe from HIM.
Jak shudder. Fear creeping into his sanctuary.
Hands holding him down
evil leer as his cloths were stripped away
Pain, lots of pain. Evil laughter as he screamed.
NO! He can't hurt me here, can't t-touch me here.
I'm safe
I'm safe
I'm safe
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Footsteps come closer
Door's opening again
Too soon
oh god! please not again.
Don't want to do this
Hands pushed him down
Rough lips on his
No please don't do this
Not again… please…
Cloths falling away
Don't …
Evil leer
no…
pain
Stop!
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light
Sobs tore from his throat.
It hurts
A kiss on his cheek
Go away
I hate you
Door's closing, footsteps fading
Silent except for his sobs
Artificial lights flicker as he starts his descent back to the fantasy. Sobs slowing to a stop. Vacant eyes staring at the wall ahead.
Blood's still flowing, body's still hurting
But he can't feel it
Make them stop
Somebody make them stop…please
Anybody…
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
We will. I won't let them hurt you anymore
Blue sky's darkening. The wind is slowing to a stop. The world around him fading into nothingness
Sharp claws graze his cheek.
Stop, go away. Don't touch me.
I won't hurt you.
Black eyes stare into his
Rigid horns brush against his head as he's pulled into an embrace
So cold
Your mine. I'll kill that man.
Leave me alone
Hands pulled at his clothing. pale lips drawn back in a snarl
No!
I won't hurt you. I'll be gentle
Stop… it hurts. You're hurting me. Not here to.
Unaware of the approaching footsteps that would rip him from one nightmare to another. A single tear ran down a Jak's cheek as the last of the light was swallowed by the invading darkness.
