"You will never know when or where I plan to make it public just to humiliate you"

Sue Ellen turned and made her way out of the row of seats, Don was waiting for her at the exit. JR watched her go but something inside of him didn't feel right, she was beginning to walk out of the theatre and out of his life for good, something inside him cracked

"Please don't go" he said aloud before he could get his feelings in check.

She stopped; she felt the sound of her heart pounding in her chest, again he said it but this time she breathed deeply and moved on up the aisle towards Don. JR watched her until he could see her no longer; he turned back to the screen where a few moments before his lifestory had been playing out. He couldn't understand what was happening to him, feeling weak he sat down in one of the theatre seats.

On reaching the exit of the theatre; Sue Ellen stopped, had JR really asked her 'not to go'. This was supposed to be her victory; something she had to hold over him for the rest of his life; a threat that she could make come true any time she wanted. But there was no victory just an overwhelming feeling of sadness. Don stood over by the car, she heard him speak, but it might have well have been in a foreign language because his words did not register with her. In less than twenty four hours she would be in another country on a different continent, millions of miles away from JR….the man who had hurt her so many times. She should be feeling happy, relieved that she had finally broken the chains that had bound her to JR for so long but she didn't. Her heart was breaking.

JR sat in the darkness of the theatre. Never had he experience the feeling of loneliness and emptiness like he did now, no he had felt this feeling before; the night Sue Ellen lay in a coma shortly after the birth of their son. That night he had prayed to a God, that he didn't believe in, to let her live. He felt cold but the feeling he couldn't get over was the feeling that part of him was dying; part of his very being had been ripped from him and there was nothing he could do about it. He looked at the screen; Sue Ellen's movie…JR knew she was right; every scene in that movie was true; but he had never truly realized what his actions had done to her. He didn't know why he behaved the way he did, he had never meant to hurt her, he loved her…then it hit him the only woman he truly loved was walking out of his life forever and it was all his fault.

Sue Ellen felt cold inside although a warm breeze blew in the late afternoon. Don looked at her wondering what was happening inside her head. He knew she had been affected by JR's final words. He stood by the car watching; waiting for her to pull herself together so that they could get back to her house, collect her suitcases and get back to London. America just wasn't for him; he hated it here, he sooner have the UK anytime. Sue Ellen looked at him knowing full well that he was in a hurry to move but she felt as though her feet had been glued to the sidewalk; she couldn't move if she wanted to.

Meanwhile JR thought back to the last words he had said to Sue Ellen. How could he have been so stupid to leave himself vulnerable; she was probably having a good laugh with Don at this moment about those words. However it was something JR had to do…he always thought that Sue Ellen would always be there…maybe not as his wife but as the mother of his child she would always be a part of his life but John Ross was grown up, he didn't need her the same as he did when he was little; now she could free from the ties that bound her to him. JR thought for a moment about his new wife; did he love Cally, he laughed remembering their first dance together as a married couple; even then he had seen Sue Ellen in the crowd and wished it was her he had in his arms. He felt tears in his eyes and for once he didn't hold back but let them flow freely.

Outside Don started to get agitated. He wanted to leave but Sue Ellen made no move towards the car. Finally he walked up to her.

"Sue Ellen"

She looked up and into his eyes; she felt numb

"Sue Ellen…we need to go…please"

She nodded and managed to make her feet walk towards the car, he opened the door for her but as she went to get in something stopped her.

"I can't do this"

"What!"

"Don…I need more time…I can't leave now"

"Sue Ellen this is what we planned…you would get revenge on JR and we'd celebrate in London"

"John Ross…I can't leave him"

"He told you he's okay with you leaving"

"But I'm not okay…I need more time"

"There is no more time…no more games Sue Ellen; I'm leaving for London tonight with or without you"

Sue Ellen looked at him "I'm sorry Don…I can't leave"

"Fine" he said "I'll drive you to your house"

Sue Ellen shook her head "No, I need some time; I'll get a taxi back"

Don got into the driver's seat and slammed the door hard before putting his foot on the accelerator and driving off. Sue Ellen watched him go and when she could no longer see him she turned and looked back at the theatre. She was unsure of what to do but something inside her was hurting, she thought of the man still inside the building; her ex husband…the man she had married twice, without realizing what she was doing she made her way inside.

JR was so lost in his own thoughts he didn't hear the door open. The feeling that he had lost something special was all he could think about. Sue Ellen walked back into the theatre and sat in the row behind her; JR was still unaware that she was there. The minutes felt like hours as they ticked by; both lost in their own thoughts; neither fully understood the feelings they were experiencing. Finally unable to stand the silence Sue Ellen broke it.

"JR!"

His heart jumped at the sound of the voice; a voice that many times had calmed and soothed him. He turned and looked at her; her face no longer held the anger it had when she had walked out minutes before; she looked calm which was the opposite of how JR felt. This time he didn't hold back for the first time ever he cried in front of her. Sue Ellen was taken by surprise, she didn't know what to do; unsure of what was happening between them; could it be that this bond between them was more than John Ross; were they destined to be in each other's lives forever, but he had Cally and John Ross; surely that was all he needed; he didn't want her, he had told her that often enough.

"Why did you come back?"

"I don't know…I couldn't bear the thought of going to England; of leaving John Ross" then very quietly she said "leaving you"

JR looked at her; his eyes now red. She wanted to reach out to him; to take him in her arms and soothe the pain away but she couldn't; she was no longer his wife that was Cally's role.

"That movie…is that how you saw our life"

Sue Ellen nodded "Yes…marriage to you is like a Hitchcock film…it starts out fine but you end up screaming"

"I never wanted it to be like that"

"Neither did I, 1967 was one of the happiest years of my life, not because of the Miss Texas contest but because I met you. From the moment our eyes met I fell in love with you, not because you were the great JR Ewing but because you were you"

JR laughed "I felt the same way"

"Do you remember that first summer?"

"Yes, the first time I brought you back to Southfork; you were so nervous but momma and daddy took to you right away. The walks around the ranch, picnics by the lake, even though I hated them I knew you loved them"

A faint smile crossed her lips "I remember the first horse you brought me; you taught me how to ride. We were so happy and free and full of hope…but look how we ended up"

"Please don't go"

"JR I have to. This has to end. We can't keep doing this. You have Cally and I need to move on"

"I don't love Cally. I thought I did but I don't; I realized that today when you walked out the theatre"

"You can make it work with her; you have to"

"Sue Ellen if you want me to beg I will please don't go; don't leave me like this"

She closed her eyes. Her head was telling her to walk away now but her heart was saying otherwise. JR reached for her hand and gripped it tightly.

"Please stay and talk to me"

Sighing she got up and walk around to the seat next to him and sat down. Both stared straight in front of them, neither daring to look into the other's eyes.

"Why did you say that to me?" Sue Ellen asked

"What?"

"Please don't go, JR you wanted me out of your life so many times"

"I don't know…all I do know is that when I watched you walk away from me, I knew you were walking out of my life for good , and it would be an ocean and a continent that separated us. I felt sick…I…I still do…as though part of me has been ripped out"

Sue Ellen remained quiet, the truth was she felt the same; the thought of being that far away from both JR and John Ross was unbearable. Her son was the most important person in her life and here she was abandoning him to live with a man she didn't really love just so that she could escape the pain of seeing the man she loved with his new wife. Then it hit her, the man she truly loved…JR….the man who had hurt her beyond belief but she still loved him and knew she always would; she could forgive him anything.

"Where do we go from here?" she asked

JR sighed "I don't know..we need to talk this through and find out what we really mean to each other and what we really want"

"We can't keep tearing each other apart; it's no good for us and it's no good for our son or the rest of the family for that matter. Also there's Cally to consider"

"I'll handle that"

She faced him "Do you love her"

Inside his head he was screaming 'No I love you' but he couldn't say it not yet. "No"

"Why did you marry her?"

"We were finished and I thought by marrying her I could forget you; pretend you meant nothing to me, and it worked until today; watching you walk out of this theatre and out of my life I finally owned up to the lie that I've been living. Without you I'm only half complete…part of me will die if I don't have you in my life…I…….." JR closed his eyes not trusting his feelings; opening them again he said "I love you"

Sue Ellen was stunned; she looked into JR's eyes and saw deep into his soul. He was telling the truth; he was experiencing the same sense of loss that she was. She reached out and stroked his face; JR put his hand over hers.

"JR ….I don't want to hurt Cally"

"Neither do I…but isn't pretending I'm in love with her and staying in the marriage going to hurt her even more in the end"

Sue Ellen knew he was right but did they really have a future.

"What are you going to do now?" he asked

"Go home…at least I haven't sold it yet" she laughed "I can't stay here all night"

"The movie…would you really have released it?"

"Is this what this is about…the movie?"

"No I just wanted to know if you hate me that much to humiliate me"

"JR…I don't hate you…you make me angry but I don't hate you; as for the movie I think it would hurt too many people including John Ross, I don't want him to know the circumstances surrounding his birth"

"I was thinking about that earlier. There has only ever been one time that I have felt this lonely or empty and that was the night of his birth. You were in a coma and I held you hand and cried praying that you would live; I didn't want to lose you, I still don't want to lose you"

Sue Ellen sighed "JR…there's a bond between us that cannot be broken for some reason; we're connected in a way that is beyond our control. Maybe what we have is something so special that noone can ever understand it; I don't think we do. I don't know what is going to happen now; but somehow we have to find a way to be happy either apart or together"

"Do you think we can be together?"

"For some reason we can't be apart; there is a force stronger than both of us which is pulling us back together all the time"

"I don't want to carry on like this" JR said "I want us to work through this and come out better and stronger than before. I think I realized tonight that life without you would be empty. Let me drive you home and we can talk, even if it takes all night…let's put this right before it destroys both of us"

Sue Ellen smiled "Okay"

They walked out of the cinema; both apprehensive not knowing whether tonight they would find a way to end their relationship for good or whether they could find a way to understand what they meant to each other and build a future for them and their son. They both knew that whatever happened somebody would end up hurt but they couldn't go on like they had been. They were both aware that their love was something that couldn't be discarded; they we also aware that they needed each other; the idea of losing each other today had been so painful that it had brought them to this point.