I didn't think I would be able to do this, but surprising even myself I seem to have managed to continue "Bound by Love." I will say that I wouldn't have even done this much had it done have been for my friend's encouraging me to do so. I'm not exactly sure where I'm going with this, but I'm certianly going to try to keep it going for whoever wants to read it. So here goes:
The ever so dreaded summary: Not in my wildest of imaginings, would I have ever considered such astonishingly treacherous events presenting themselves at my feet as they now were. For in every word spoken, sentence uttered, movement made, penalties seemed to follow suit. I was letting them down. I was forfeiting the lives of the people I loved all because of the one person I had deemed trustworthy. All my memories were now cast over with a tainted shadow as I feared for my life and soon after, the lives of my family. Was there ever an end to the deceit that we would face? It didn't seem so and worst of all; I was facing it alone this time.
**Rose still harbors her sense of distrust when it comes to Bella and protecting Edward's heart. When she starts to believe that romance is blooming between Bella and Trevor, you can bet she said as much to the rest of the Cullen's. With Bella and Edward's chance at eternity together constantly in jeopordy and the return of the Volturi for Bella, their only hope is survival and even that seems limited. Of course when Bella finds herself in the middle of a love triangle between Edward and one unsuspecting guard, she is taken captive and can find no way back to her home. Fighting all odds Bella urges herself to keep living, even if it means caving in on the people around her. But will Bella and Edward be able to survive all of this and still love eachother just as fully, or will someone else have stolen Bella's heart in Edward's wake?** -Summary (Continued)
As for the Prolouge...Well, tell me what you think:
I was alone; completely and utterly alone. I hadn't imagined spending anymore time away from Edward than I already had in the past. That amount of separation had been far more than I needed to know that I couldn't stand being away from him. So why then, was he not with me now? Why wasn't he here when I needed him the most? Why wasn't he fighting for my life when my life depended on it?
I had convinced myself that I already knew the answer. He had finally come to terms with my fragility and my draw to all things dangerous. He had finally resigned himself to a life that didn't require him being anyone's permanent protector. I wanted to be okay with this. I wanted to make myself believe that he deserved that much, but I couldn't. It hurt too much to think that he might have given up on me when I was so desperately clinging to all that I had left of him.
But damn it! This was Edward; my Edward! I had wasted several moments of my time with him working to convince myself that he would be better without me, that it was wrong for him to love me and if he hadn't left me then when I had given him the opening, he sure as hell wouldn't leave me now. It was this second thought that hurt me the most. It should have been reassuring to believe that he would fight for me, but at the same time, it upset to know that he might not ever make it to me without first risking his own life…or without them killing me.
I needed most desperately for Alice to see me. In the very center of danger, the heart of the Volturi, it was hard for me to let down my shield long enough for fear that someone would seize this as their opportunity to break me. Even if I were willing, I knew that it would be a challenge to get it down. The only thing that bothered me, while in my quarters, was that there was always the possibility that the Cullen's didn't know where I was and that was all too likely. It wouldn't surprise me if they concluded that I was in Italy, but it was my exact location they would have difficulty with finding.
It was this one moment of silence, this temporary time in which the Volturi left me to the quiet of my thoughts, that would be my only opportunity at letting Alice in and even then, I wasn't sure that I could. I knew with every fiber in my being that this would be the first and only chance at doing so and I told myself that I couldn't pass it up if I ever wanted to make it back home.
I placed my hands firmly on the stony ground beneath me, leaning my head back, urging my shield down. I could feel it, the elastic fighting with me to stay up and I willed it back. I didn't know how long it would stay down or even if it could stay down. After only a few momentary seconds I had already felt fatigued, something I had thought I would become immune to once I was changed.
I wasn't sure if I was in the hearing ranges of any of the guard, but I prayed fervently that I was not. I closed my eyes, concentrating on Edward's beautiful face when the sun shone on it in our meadow. Diamonds glistening and reflecting on the ground around his feet…Yes, I was doing the right thing, I just had to let Alice in and I would be able to see him again.
"Please Alice," I breathed, though barely audible to even my own ears, "There are flames. They plan on killing me before you can ever get to me. I'm in Italy, somewhere in Volterra Castle. I'm beneath everything, somewhere that the fire won't harm any of the guard or the wives. Please, the lamb needs her lion." I sobbed brokenly. I half expected Edward to barge through the door right then and demand to know what was wrong as he would on any other day, but this wasn't any other day and he wasn't going to burst through the metal entrance. I covered my face with my hands, trying to regain my composure but it was too late and I jumped as my shield snapped back into place, where it undoubtedly belonged.
That's not where this story really begins, it'll pick up exactly where "Bound by Love" left off, but I thought that you deserved a thorough insight to the story because I won't upload the actual story until I am certain that it will be read. Please consider leaving a review, or even considering this story's review page as a guest book and just stop in to say "hi!" Either way, it would mean the world to me.
Thanks,
Jenny
