Prologue

Dreaming comes so easily
Cause it's all that I've known

True love is a fairytale
I'm damaged so how would I know


I never planned on becoming this person. Sometimes, I think that it is just a dream I will wake up from. But this is one nightmare I will never wake up from. I will never regain what I have lost, and I have lost so, so much.

Sometimes things happen and we never want to forget them. But for me, I wish I could forget everything that has happened. At times I find myself thinking of trying to go back to how things were. But deep down I know that that is impossible, no mater how much I wish it otherwise. Too much has changed for things to be near what they used to be.

I tried to escape my ghosts, but I ended up running into another one that completely shook me to my core, changing me forever. Stripped of everything, I am forced to live as this person I never wanted to become. Stripped of sanity, purity, love, sanctuary, of everything I used to hold dear. As I sit here I can see the criticism in your gaze. Just know that I never wanted to be this person. I was forced to become this girl. I didn't have a choice.

I never have…


I will never feel anything else
I will never be anything
I will break away
I want to find something I've wanted all along