Chapter 1

I was just sitting there, watching the rain hit the window. The soft patter against my window and the hum of it against the roof. The rain is an amazing thing, if you've had a bad day it can be just the thing to distract you and wash away all the troubles. That was the logic that was confirmed yet again by the effect it had on me now.

Have you ever just had one of those days when things just don't go right, nothing inperticular but things just arent great. That was how my day had been, the cool window against my cheek seemed to help me forget. Forget what you may ask, honestly I don't know. This is just my little escape from reality. Im trying in vain to concentrate, to not get mad. To try and be the child I once was, it seems things are easier when I am treated like the child im not. I am 14 and very misunderstood.

We have been fighting again, and everytime my blood boils in my body. I fight the urge, I fight the trembling in my body for fear that I will hurt somebody. Shes my mother and I love her, but she drives me to no end. To be specific , I was fighting the urge to burst into a wolf. Now lets not take this the wrong way, I think being a wolf is the coolest thing ever. But sadly im the only one who knows.

Northern california, the place I call home. Just me and my mom live here, with my dog. Who coincidentally is part wolf. A wolf hybrid, from chaparral k9 in ohio. It was worth it. He is the most stunning black, with peircing eyes. I named him Fell. Hes my baby, hes 90% Wolf, or so said the breeder. When I am a wolf myself, he comes running with me. Its odd though because im not just a wolf, im a huge wolf. My head is about 10 feet in the air. My fur like fells, is black, with slight graying on my legs.

When I was little mom used to talk about how her and dad met at a beach in la push and she was with him ever since. She always said that the stories were important but I don't really pay that much attention. But she would never say anything about where she came from or where I came from. Or who we are. I just know I am a 14 yr. old girl who looks about the age of 20. And can turn into a giant black wolf.

Running in my wolf form again, after midnight the only time its safe. The only time mom wont be wondering where I am because shes asleep. Sometimes I think I hear voices in my head. But its bearly audible. Maybe im just hearing things. I don't know. I shook my head and ran faster, I left fell at home incase mom woke up. T

he wind passes over me and thorugh my fur leaving me cool and refreshed. Just then it hit me, a faint smell. Like a wrecking ball, faint yet oh so strong. A week old maybe, it was sickening, sickly sweet. I wanted to run away, yet there was a nagging force telling me to chase it, natural instict. Against my will, and my nose's I followed the scent. Tracking north, the stench was never alieviating of my nose. It made me want to wipe my face in the dirt in attempt to erase the stench. Following this smell was so liberating, yet so disgusting.

I was suddenly struck from the side, a blur of gray. I rolled on the ground and was up the next second, launching towards whatever it was that me. A wolf, not just any wolf. A wolf like me. Bigger even, gray. Beautiful. I had him under me in a second, with his back to the ground. A huge growl erupted from him, but a second later he was silent. He stopped struggling. He gave me a look that made me question whether he was an enemy or a friend. I stopped growling but I held myself high and above him. He just lay there, and cocked his head to the side.

Holy crap, i..uh.. hm.

What the heck was that?!

You can hear my thoughts?

Uh, I don't know. Why are you in my head?

Are you from la push?

What the…. Yeah I am, why?

Who knows you're a wolf?

You, and im confused. Who are you?

Oh uh. Yeah im Paul.

Ok…… why are you in my head?

Well first off, whats you name?

Well, I go by Khaz.

Is that your real name?

Is Paul yours?

Yeah, now would you quit answering my questions with questions?

Yeah, and no khaz isnt my real name. My real name is alex. But I hate it, call me khaz.

Okay, sure thing. Would you mind coming with me?

Where am i?

We're on the border of washington. Im from la push. Have you ever heard the legends?

Uh, no. Is that a bad thing?

No, but it may have helped.

Now, will you follow me?

Should I trust you?

Yeah, more than you'll ever know.

Why can we hear each others thoughts?

Because we are both quileute wolves. There are others to. But if you just stay with me then youll be ok, I promise, Sams the alpha by the way.

Alpha?

Yeah, theres a few of us, sam being the alpha. Me, apparently you, quil, embry, jake, jared, brady, collin, seth and leah.

Cool?

Yeah, very. I'll let sam tell you about the legends. Im guessing since you don't know the legends then you don't know about imprinting.

Ok sure, no I havent heard of it.

Ill tell you about that, trust me its really important. More to me and you than anyone else.

How so?

Uh, just let me explain it first.

Ok, shoot.

When a wolf imprints he finds his soul mate, his other half. At the moment he sees her, its like the whole world is shifted and she is the center of your universe. There is a pull, a force that drawls he to him. For they are truly ment to be together. You cant break the imprint. Though if the imprint means for him to be your friend, brother, confidant, or lover. He will always be there.

So why is this so important?

Ill tell you tomorrow. Just come with me.

So I followed him, I would follow him anywhere. It was like a rope was pulling me with him. We ran, for about 10 minutes. Then my oh so graceful self tripped. I slid in the dirt and rolled to a stop. I heard a lot of laughing.

Oh my god, I cant believe you fell.

Well thank you captain obvious. What an ass.

Sorry, really I just didn't see that coming. Sorry

Fine.

He came over and looked down at me and I looked the other way, still laying on the ground in a huff. He moved his head closer and breathed across my face. I growled lightly in annoyance. he laughed, well I guess it was a laugh.

Are you going to get up?

Why does it matter?

Cause we got to go, come on.

Make me.

Gladly.

He licked my cheek. I growled at him. He laughed again. I was almost expecting him to just leave me. But oh no, he didn't forget. He grabbed me by my neck hide and hauled me to my feet. I snapped at him, and jumped on his back. To my surprise he just started walking we me sprawled out across his back.

Well arent you just the perfect gentlemen

I like to think so. But the other guys will completely disagree.

When will I meet them?

When we get there.

Ugh fine.

Where did you come from?

Nothern california

How old are you.

How old are you?

17. now please?

Don't judge me

I wont

Im 14.

That's cool, but just a heads up, you wont age. At all. Until you stop phasing. But I don't think youll stop phasing anytime soon

And whys that?

Youll see.

You really want to know?

Well duh!

If I tell you, promise you wil still come with me?

Yes, just tell me already.

I imprinted on you.

Wait wha…..what?

I imprinted on you.

Seriously?

Yes, take a look at my thoughts, not just my words.

I did. And what I saw was me. Everything about me. All he was thinking about. Me. Seriously?

Yeah, really.

Wow

So what do you think?

Well, I think its cool.

He hesitated but kept on walking.

Really?

Yeah, really.

So what does that mean for us?

It means ill be whatever you want me to be, even though I have my preferences.

And what would that be?

I think you can guess.

Hmmm, please elaborate.

He stopped and flipped me off his back, it didn't hurt but I wasn't expecting it. He stood over top of me, brought his face close to mine. My heart beat quickened and he noticed, I know because his wolfy smile got bigger. He brushed his nose passed mine and licked my cheek, and the top of my head. I just starred into his eyes. So full of love. I love him to.

Im glad to hear that

Damn wolf thoughts

But its not a bad thing

No, but im still new to this so don't expect much.

Your wish.

Can I get up now?

Maybe I like you down there.

Somebody is egotistical.

So ive heard.

I tried to crawl out from under him, but he lowered his wolf body onto mine holding me still under his weight. Cheater. He smirked at this. I growled and nipped at his ear. He laughed and put more weight onto me. His whole body pressed against mine in all areas. A growl of pleasure rippled through his body. And pressure building on my lower areas.

Someones a little excited tonight.

Do you blame me?

Not really,

Your three years older than me and you think about sex

Technically if we are wolves its breeding.

Well baby maybe some other time, but considering ive only known you for an hour or so I think it's a safe bet to say you wont be getting lucky tonight.

Whos to say I wont get close?

You think your hot stuff huh?

Well I know you think so.

That's besides the point.

Ooh, so you admit it.

Whatever.I havent even seen you in human.

Would you like to?

How about you show me in your thoughts?

He showed me mental images of himself. He was gorgeous.

Thanks.

Shut up

What do you look like?

Hold on

I showed my self sitting in my room, looking out the window. My dark brown hair and brown eyes boring into the window pane.

Wow

Nice vocabulary

Uhhh.

My point exactly. Can I please get up now?

Umm.

We won't ever get to wherever your taking me unless you let me up.

And with that, I wiggled out from under him. He got to his feet and we began walking again. We talked for a while. About random things. Favorite colors, favorite foods, music. Yatta yatta.

We stopped at the tree line. Right next to the yard of a small house.

You wait here, ill be back. This is sams house. Let me go get him.

He went around the house and disappeared. I heard talking but I couldn't make out what they were saying. I saw who paul had pictured as sam come out the door. Followed by another boy and Paul. Paul. Wow, he was even more stunning in person.

"come on Khaz, its ok" I reluctantly stepped out. Paul walked up to me and put his hand on my head. Like he owned me, in a way he did. But still. I couldn't help the growl that escaped me. The unknown boy laughed. "way to find em paul." I couldn't help but react. I stepped forward snarling. The boy flinched the slightest bit. Just as I was about to take another step forward paul put his hand on my neck. I stopped and glared at him. Growled a bit then stalked off and flopped down by a rock.

"you know something sam, her coat is as dark as yours, shes pretty big to. Kinda reminds me of an alpha." Paul, what the heck is that supposed to mean. Sam nodded and headed into the woods. Paul followed him, but that boy just stood there. Like he was waiting for me to lunge at him. It was very well possible but I decided not to.

Hello, im Sam Uley. The leader of the pack. You must be Khaz.

Yeah, nice to meet you Sam.

You must have had a long day. You are welcome to come in if you want. But I figured we should go over the legends first. Paul said you haven't heard them before so I bet you were extremely confused when you first phased,

Sam went on to show me the memory of one of the bonfires. A person the was referred to as billy black was telling the stories of the spirit warriors, and the third wife.

At least now things make sense now. The whole wolf thing at least has reason now, and he explained the smell that I had smelt as a leech that they tracked last week. He also said that we could skip the imprinting talk, because Paul ever so smoothly explained that one. He also said that was welcome to the pack, and we could go over details tomorrow.

" your welcome to stay in the house if you want" sam said

I shook my head no. I would rather stay in the woods. He shrugged and went towards the house. As soon as he disappeared paul came to me, in human that is.

"your welcome at my house, I can sleep on the couch"

It was such a tempting over, I guess I can oblige.

I nodded my head. "would you like to run. Or we could take my truck." I answered him by turning and trotting into the woods. He soon joined me.

Tomorrow is an easy day, I don't have to patrol and Emily is making brunch so we don't have to get up real early

I have to go home sometime, im not to worried about mom, I just want to get some stuff and my dog

You have a dog?

Yeah, and your gonna get a kick out of this, he's 90% wolf

Well, your both welcome at my house anytime.

Thanks

Its just beyond those trees.

Ok, thanks again.

Seriously don't mention it.

We came up to a small house, I assume its one bedroom , but it wasn't to bad. He left me to phase on my own, I had tied a pair of jeans and t shirt. I dressed quickly, paranoid I guess. I walked to the porch where paul was standing.

"fair warning, seeing how I am a teenage guy. The house is far from 'clean'." I laughed.

" no worries, you can't even see the floor in my room"

We walked in, he wasn't joking. It was crazy. "nice décor, who should I give the compliments to?"

He just kind of laughed nervously. He put his hand on my back and guided me down the hallway and into the bed room. "make yourself at home, ill be on the couch if you need me." Before he could leave I grabbed his hand. " you can stay if you want" he looked like a kid in a candy store, wow could that have been any stupider of a thought. "come on" was all he said as he pulled me into the bed next to him. He had his arms around my waist protectively. " hey paul" "hmm?" I laughed, it was cute. " you have any shorts I can use, jeans aren't the most comfortable thing to sleep in" he pulled me closer to him, " you could always just take your jeans off." I smacked him in the back of the head. " sorry, yeah I do. 1 sec." he got up and walked to a dresser in the corner, he pulled out a pair of basketball shorts and laid them on the end of the bed. " you can change in the bathroom, second door on the left" I grabbed the shorts, but instead of going to the bathroom, I just pulled my jeans down, and put the shorts on. Out of the corner of my eye I saw his expression , his mouth was slightly open and his eyes were wide. I crawled back into bad and laid down facing him. Of cource I wasn't cold, but I couldn't resist moving closer to him, he put his hands on my waist and pulled me closer.

We just lay there, gazing into each others eyes, as cliché as that sounds. I put my hand on his cheek and rubbed soothing circles. He moved his arms around me, holding me close to him. He started to say something but I put my hand on his mouth, shushing him. He smiled and kissed my forehead. "goodnight Paul see you in the morning."

And with that we fell asleep.


AN:

I really like this story, im almost done with chapter 2. i promise to update weekly, and if i cant i will give notice. please please review. it help me write. it inspires me, even if they are critisizing thats ok. im always looking to improve. Please give me any ideas you have. I do not own twlight, but i do own Khaz. She got that name from a book. its a real book called the sight by david clement davies. She nicknamed herself that after she phased. The rating may change. If anyone is interested in writing my romance chapters let me know, i may use you and post them. you will receive credit. thanks guys.