Rokutagrl: Hey, my first oneshot! I hope everyone enjoys -.-. It's a fluffy shounen-ai between Sho and Judai! Because I thik there aren't enough at all! And also because it's just so kawaii .; and perhaps the most hinted at couple in the series on both sides! (I mean, they hint at Asuka liking Judai, but they never have anything about Judai liking Asuka except one comment when they first met and that was a joke…). But I do like Asuka, she's awesome for an anime female!
Reffie: ….-.-U moving on. Rokutagrl does not own nor does she have any affiliation with Yu-Gi-Oh GX… If she did it would all just be shounen-ai and fluff -.-;
Rokutagl: T.T Is that so bad?
Judai – Jaden
Sho- Syrus
Hayato- Chumley
Bastion- Daichi
(Judai's POV)
Sometimes I think, that if it weren't for you, my life at this academy would have been over before it even started…
When I truly look back on it, there's no way I could have gotten this far. Without you, I couldn't even begin to muster up the courage. I know I tell you to think higher of yourself; I'm always telling you you're capable of so much more and telling you to believe in yourself. In reality, I need the same confidence. But when I hear you cheering me on every battle or even the words of praise I'll receive afterwards… Well, I think that's what I get up for in the morning. For the first time in my life I have a reason to go to school and do what I can. Even if I do sleep through most of my academics…
He's the one who pushes me to do my best. Sometimes, I think I might be showing off a bit so that he'll actually see me. Well, I know he sees me, but if I can be the best – maybe he'll see more to me.
No, he's not that shallow. Actually, he's not shallow at all. But I do love to impress him. When I do, his face lights up and his grey eyes sparkle like he's watching his favorite band in concert. Actually, it's that exact face he gets when his favorite bands on the radio and he's trying to sing along, poorly, with all the words. I like that face… He's always real loud and I feel like I'm the only one around when he does that. Just him and I. I like the sound of that very much.
Of course, don't get me wrong; I care deeply for my other friends, too. I guess I'm just that sort of person who gets along with just about everyone. I know I can be oddly happy or over confident when the situation may or may not call for it.
Maybe I get up in the morning just to see what he'll do. When he pouts, he's the cutest thing in the world (to me at least). When he's angry, which is hardly ever, I can't help but smile. It's kind of entertaining. When he's goofy he makes the oddest faces relating to the conversation like he's actually been paying attention the whole time. Not like I do any better. Even when he's upset, I can't help but think how adorable he is. It unnerves me, still, how low his self-confidence actually is though. I've never met anyone who doubts every step they take. I suppose with a brother like Ryou that stage is inevitable…
But I know I love Sho the most when he's happy. Not the overly emotional Sho that cries whenever he's won a match, or when I give up a promotion to stay with him… and Hayato, but when he's just relaxed, with no worries and a large grin on his face. Yeah, that's the Sho I love the best. When he laughs or smiles brightly, I can't get enough! Too cute… I'd go to any extremes just to get him to smile like that. Maybe that's why Asuka always tells me how much of a moron I act like. It's all my master plan to get him to notice me.
Bummer, huh? I must sound so pathetic to everyone. Crushing over some four-eyed, short, slifer slacker! …So what, he's absolutely adorable even if the rest of the academy or any of the girls don't agree with me. Besides, no one knows him like I do. He's told me himself! I'm his best friend and nothing will change that!
…That sounds even more pathetic… I can't stay Sho's friend forever! I know one day, I'm going to have to tell him. That, or he'll realize it on his own after twelve years or something like that… Poor, cute, adorable, little Sho; he's not too perceptive about that sort of stuff. Or anything. But that just adds to his charm. So innocent.
But one day, I know it's gonna slip. When I get too close to him my heart beat just speeds up. When we touch, I get this weird tingly feeling like my whole body, or just that one spot has fallen asleep. Except it's not so annoying when Sho's the one to do it. And he's very touchy feely. If he does find out someday, I hope he never stops touching me.
Life without one of Sho's light touches or accosted hugs is no life at all, for me at least.
So I've fallen head over heels for my roommate, my best friend, and my duel partner. I suppose it's just nice to have Sho in my life at all, but sometimes it's stifling!
In the middle of the night when I can't sleep and I'm heading back to my bed, I stop and watch him for a moment. When he's sleeping and not having a nightmare he can be rather peaceful. He's away from all the expectations, away from his brother's scowling gaze, but he's also far away from me.
When Sho sleeps he murmurs. I can never make out what it is exactly. He just curls up further into a ball and exhales. He can be so angelic, especially with that wild blue hair sticking out every which way and gently tickling his cheeks.
I always get this goofy grin. I can feel it. It starts out as a small smile and then emerges as a full out grin. Asuka thinks I'm being perverted – not all the time, mind you! – and Daichi always agrees. They don't get along, but I think they have some sort of telepathy… I never did even tell them I liked Sho, but I think they know. After all Daichi's in Ra Yellow and Asuka's in the highest dorm. Oh, well, if they do know, they seem all right with it. Maybe everyone's wrong about Asuka liking me.
'Let's be friends forever, Judai!' I remember those words exactly, because even though I smiled and promised him, and even though it's better than nothing, I don't want to stay just friends forever. How terrible would that be? Having him near me all the time, doing all those little things that are just absolutely Sho.
But how great would it be if he felt the same way? I know it's a farfetched idea, but I also know there's always a chance of some kind. That would be so wonderful. To be able to touch his cheek when he sleeps without him waking up and asking why I did it. Or to be able to tell him how cute he is when he's pouting like this.
Uh-oh, Sho's not too happy with me. We've just finished off an awesome battle- I had thrown a match and then Sho had asked for a rematch when he realized what I had done. It was worth it to see him laugh and smile so brightly. Now he was trying his best, thinking he could tutor me on today's lessons when he, too, had been asleep. He's pouting with a small little glare telling me how rude it is to stare off into space while he's talking. I just can't help myself, though. He's got really pouty lips and sometimes I just want to –
"Are you even listening Judai!" He yells at me like some strict teacher. Like I said, an angry Sho is an entertaining Sho and I intend to use this opportune time, like any duelist.
"What'd you say, Sho?" I ask and watch his eyes squint a little bit. I can't let this go too long. Sometimes Sho can be a little bit like a girl and if he gets real mad he might not talk to me for a half an hour. That's too much punishment. I'm just glad he doesn't yell…
"I'm just kidding!" I put up my hands in defense as if it can save me from Sho's wrath. He eyes me slightly before being satisfied and goes back to lecturing.
Anything to make you happy, Sho.
Rokutagrl: Hey, I corrected the whole Judai pat of it. I'm going to put Hayato's part in a second chapter since it would seem less random there… So please be nice and review! Leave a nice one, too! Critism is welcomed, but flamming's just cruel! This was my first oneshot…which isn't anymore -.-U. Oh, by the way! Thanks SilvorMoon for telling me Bastion's name in Japanese! I was meaning to find it last night on Absolute anime but unfortunately got too lazy! (I was typing during the episode of Yu-Gi-Oh GX and taping it – running back and forth between commercials so I could watch it commercial free today…) So thanks! Also, if anyone knows how to work the banners such as '' or anything please tell me, I haven't written on in a while T.T;.
