Sollux wiped the sticky yellow substance out of the corner of his mouth. What had happened? He looked up, finding himself at Aradia's hive. And her, lying in front of him.
"No...ii..." he whispered. He knew she couldn't hear him. The Gemini went to his knees beside her, yellow tears pooling in his dual-colored eyes. He slipped his glasses off, setting them aside as he cradled the Aries, stroking her hair. "What have ii done?"
Sollux let the tears flow freely.

A few months later...
Sollux wandered toward Aradia's hive again, his hands stuffed in his pockets as he shuffled along. He found himself coming down more and more lately. Talking to her calmed him down after losing his temper, and he had been losing his temper a lot. Somehow, going back to where it all happened made him feel better, let him let all his sadness and frustration out. He sat down in the grass, the same spot where he'd knelt beside her those few months ago.
"hey, aa," he said, looking out at the sky. His fingers ran through the grass. "there'2 2omethiing ii...never got two say. ii...ii mii22 you. ii ju2t want two see your 2miile agaiin, feel your hand in miine...ii should have been able two control my2elf, but...ii couldnt. iill never be able two forgive my2elf, never 2top beiing sorry for that day, and iill never 2top wanting two 2ee you again. ii ju2t wii2h ii hadnt been 2uch a coward about thii2...ii wa2 too 2cared two tell you. ii wii2h you could 2tiill hear me, becau2e...ii loved you. LOVE you."
Aradia fought back tears. She reached out to the boy, but she couldn't touch him. She fell back a bit, floating right in front of him.
"but i CAN hear y0u, s0llux," she choked on a sob, "im right here..."