Toris POV
Our lips parted. That tingling… warm sensation melted away and I became cold. We now looked into each others eyes forehead to forehead. Heavy breathing broke the silence. It was so intense… it took away both our breaths. We sat on becks couch in his RV. I came to visit him after school. He didn't seem to happy today. I thought I could make him feel better. Well I succeeded. We just sat there facing each other, my legs criss crossed, and one of becks legs bent and rested on his couch. Becks right hand holding my upper arm in a soft grip. The other rested on mine. "beck, this is wrong" I whispered. My eyes now looking down but I felt his still focused on me. "I know…but why does it feel so right" he answered back. My heart raced and I felt a slight burst of happiness knowing he enjoyed it as well. "jade" I said ignoring his question… really I just didn't have an answer to it, my mind is going crazy I cant focus on one thought. "she loves you." "I love her too but the same way anymore… not since you" beck hesitate to say the last part. I could tell he didn't think that sentence through. "really…" is all I can say. I try to hide my smile. "really" he says in a hush tone as he leans in once more. Our lips touch… it feels so perfect. Becks soft lips, the electricity running through out my body. Its almost overwhelming. His hand on the back of my neck and mine running threw his soft thick hair. I feel my eyes watering. no this can't happen… its to much! It wont work! I feel so light headed and confused and I don't know what to do… I just… just. Pulled away "BECK IM MOVING!" I yelled tears running down my face. I hate to cry in front of the man I love but it's all to much. "to florida. that's like halfway across the country" my voice was more quiet… almost a whisper. I don't know why… maybe I just didn't want him to hear. Suddenly I can feel him tense. His eye widen with shock, confusion written all over his face. "wha… what" beck stuttered. "my dad got some kind of knew job offer that pays a lot. I don't have much details" im looking at my fingers as they fiddle around some string I pulled of my shirt. "when… when are you leaving" his voice trembled. "a month from this day" the words are so painful to say… my eyes become a wet blurry mess again but beck catches the first tear before it falls to its death by wiping my eyes. I can see now and I notice his eyes have become glossy. is he going to cry? Over me? " we can make this month memorable. Spent every minute together" he half smiles at me but clearly hes still upset. "that would be great but it's just that. Spending time together will just make it harder to say goodbye" he grabs my hand "then we wont say goodbye… but simply see you later" that sounds good to me. It gives me a feeling of hope so I smile back. Beck kisses me and its different this time. He kissed me like he missed me already, like we haven't seen each other in forever, a real passionate kiss, a kiss that will lead somewhere. I already know what he wants. What would make both of us feel better.
