Giving in

I laid there in my bed for almost an hour, just staring at the ceiling. I don't think the ramifications of what I had agreed to had sunk in until now. What was I thinking? I was getting married in less than six hours! All so that Edward would be the one to turn me. Oh yeah, there was that one little fact that he wouldn't "sleep" with me till we were married. He knows how much I want to be with him in that way, but marriage, isin't that a little extreem. I was in the middle of trying to figure out why I would be having doubts about marrying the man (well vampire) I want to spend eternity with when my door flew open.

" What are you doing in bed still silly? Don't tell me you forgot what today is "

Alice was approaching me so fast I couldn't stop her, next thing I knew my bedspread was being ripped off of me and I was involunterily on my feet.

"Alice! what the heck!"

"You need to get up. Everyone is waiting for you at my house. We're already running late I thought you'd be over to my house by now like you said last night. Oh well I'm here now. Let's go we have to get you ready."

She talked so fast I had to listen really hard just to understand her. After Alice threw some clothes at me we were bounding down the stairs and out the door. Right before I was able to close the door behind us I heard Charlie.

"Bells?"

"Yeah dad, I'm just on my way out. Did you need something before I leave?"

I wasen't sure if I was ready for another lecture of how I was too young for this and that if I wanted to back out my dad would support me one-hundred percent.

"I just wanted to say goodbye. The next time I see you I'll be walking you down the aisle. And then you wont be my little girl anymore. You'll be someones wife."

"Dad, Edward, I'll be Edward's wife. You're going to have to start liking him and fast. You only have a few hours till he becomes your son in law."

"I know that Bells. I know deep down that he loves you. I just think it's going to take some more time for me to forgive him for what he did to you."

Even the thought of those months without Edward made me feel nausiated.That and the fact that I was getting married in a few hours probably didn't help either.

"Anyway Bells, I love you and I wanted to make sure that you knew that before you were gone. Oh, and if you want to back out..."

"Dad!"

"Sorry, sorry I know, I'm done. I wont give you anymore trouble. You're a smart girl, and I trust your decision."

I leaned in to hug him and tell him that I would see him soon, when he put his hand on my face and wiped a tear away.

"I'm ok dad. I'm just sad that you don't see the man that Edward is. I love you and I'll see you soon."

Was that it? Was that the only reason I was crying? I pushed thouse thoughts out of my head, then realized that Alice was still there. Her arms were folded and she was tapping her foot with impatience.

"Ok, ok let's get out of here."

Alice glided elegently over to her new yellow porche, and I followed, trying to act as chipper as possible so that she wouldn't see through my charade.

I gripped the handle above me till my knuckles turned white. She was driving so fast that I think that I was actually in fear for my life.

"Alice, are you trying to kill me on my wedding day?"

She turned her head so far that she wasen't even looking at the road anymore, then gave me a sly smile.

"Oh come on Bella, You know that I'm not going to try to kill you. Especially not today. Relax ok. Let me handle things. You just concentrate on Edward."

The thought of his beautiful smile and bronze hair made my hart race and my face feel warm. I just had to remember this. Of course marrying him is going to be perfect.

When I finally stopped thinking of the events that were to come and looked out the window I realized we were slowing down. We were there already.

Inside I was maulled by Esme, Carlisle, Jasper and Emmett with congratulatory hugs. I didn't do well with all the attention on me so I changed the subject.

"So, we going to do this or what?" I said turning to Alice.

The rest of the morning was all hairspray and curling irons. I had so much makeup on my face that my skin felt suffocated, compliments of Rosalie. Although we had our differences I felt like she was really trying to make me feel special. I appreciated it emmencely, even if all her makeup made me feel sticky.

Alice wouldn't let me look in the mirror till everything was done, so I didn't see myself for four hours. After all the time it took for me to talk to Charlie and drive here in Alice's death trap of a car, that only left one hour till the wedding.

What is Edward doing right now? Where is Edward? I feel like I haven't seen him in days. I miss him. I want to make all of this chaos disapper by looking into his honey colored eyes. Please let me be in his arms soon.

My thoughts were overcome with Edward's face. And I felt as though everything was fine. There was nothing to be afraid of or worried about. With Edward by my side nothing could go wrong, everything would be perfect.

"Bella!"

I was rudely jarred back into consciousness.

"Bella are you ready to get the dress on? We have to get to the reception center, there's less than forty-five minutes till the ceremony"

"Are you saying I can see myself now?"

"After you have put your dress on."

When Rosalie and Alice had finally finished lacing up the corset, that I swear had a couple hundred holes to lace through, I slipped the dress over my head and starred at it. Wondering what this beautiful dress could possibly look like on plain old me. On Rosalie or Alice it would be beautiful, but me?

Thoughts of Edward seeing me in this dress made me worry. Would he think I was pretty enough? Would he think I was overdoing it?

I was just about to tell Alice that maybe we should find another dress when she put her hand over my mouth, knowing what I was going to say.

"Your beautiful. Edward is going to love it and you know it. Why would you even consider anything else?"

I knew what she was saying was true. Edward would love me no matter what I wore. When this all started he said I could marry him in jeans or my old grey sweat pants if I so wanted.

"I know Alice. Can I see myself now?"

"K ready? Now!"

I gasped so loud that I felt like everyone in the house could hear it. The person I saw in the mirror was not me. She was a thousand times better. It reminded me of when Alice and Rosalie dressed me up for prom, except this much more extravagent. It was perfect!

I turned to hug Alice and Rosalie.

"This is great you guys. Better than great, it's perfect. Edward's going to love it."

I tried to tell them how much this meant to me but I just accomplished a few blubbers and smeared the mascara Rosalie had so carefully applied.

We got to the reception center and I stood in the dressing room peeking out the door every few minutes. Where was Edward? The doubt was starting to rear it's ugly head again. How could I do this, I'm only eighteen? I'm not a wife. What if the same thing happens to us that happened to Charlie and Renae?

I watched the center slowly fill up with my friends and family but I never saw Edward. I closed the door for the seventh time and went back to pacing while I waited for Alice to tell me that it was time.

I decided to give it one more peek. I opened the door slowly, then shut it before I could actually look. Something startled me. I turned around slowly and there he was, my soon to be husband.

"What are you doing, we're about to start! You're not supposed to see me. Where have you been? I was really worried. I thought you weren't..."

Before I could finish accusing him his cold lips were on mine, moving so gently. I could hardly think, or breathe for that matter. I put my arms around his neck and held him close to me. As he traced his tounge around my lips, he lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his cold, marble body. Which wasn't easy in this long, flowing wedding dress.

As he held me there, his lips never leaving mine, all the doubt and worry vanished. Being there in his arms I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I wanted to be tied together with him in every way, even in marriage.

He finally pulled his face away from mine without putting me down. I was gasping, trying to calm my racing heart. He smiled his glorious smile at me.

"I hope that never stops. It's the best music I've ever heard."

Still trying to breathe at a normal pace, I opened my mouth to speak

"Wh.. wh...what?"

"Your heart, I love the sound it makes."

"Edward, it will always beat for you. Even when you can't hear it anymore. Just the sight of you will always make my head spin."

"Now don't we have a wedding to get to Mr. Cullen? Why did you come anyway?"

"I couldn't go another second without seeing you. It feels like it's been an eternity, not a couple days."

I threw my arms around his neck and planted one more kiss on his sweet lips.

"I hear someone coming, you have to go."

"I know it's just Alice."

"Just Alice! She'll kill both of us if she sees you in here."

"I was never even here."

He grabbed my face and kissed me.

"I love you."

Then he was gone and I couldn't breathe again.

"Bella it's time. You ready for this?"

"More than you know."

Charlie was standing there waiting for me and I wrapped my arm around his. Then I heard the music.

I concentrated on my feet and not tripping. Then I looked up and saw Edward. He was so increadible. I couldn't imagine anything more beautiful. And he was about to be mine, forever.

During the cermony I lost track of what was going on. I was too busy staring at Edward. I couldn't help it. My heart was racing and he gave me the half smile that I love.

It was finally time for the preacher to pronounce us man and wife.

"You may kiss your bride."

Edward put his finger under my chin and lifted my face to his. I couldn't stop looking into his eyes.

Then it happened. His lips felt so soft, which was odd, they never felt like this. This was by far one of the best kisses we had ever shared. I don't know how long we were kissing, I almost forgot where we were I was so wrapped up in the moment. Then someone coughed. Our faces reluctantly separated from one another. But Edward kept holding my face.

"Do you know how beautiful you are? I love you so much my Bella."

"I love you Edward."

The next few hours were a blur of congratulations. Edward and I were so wrapped up in each other that I was hardly aware of who I was talking to.

When we sat down at our own beautifully decorated table, thank you Alice, Edward pulled me onto his lap instead of letting me sit in my own chair. I didn't fight him one bit.

"Are you happy Mrs. Cullen."

I loved it! I loved that I shared his name now.

"Ecstatic! So tell me, I kept my side of the bargian, I gave in to your demands. Can I count on you to do the same?"

"There is no way that I could refuse you when you look that way."

I couldn't believe that I actually had the guts to ask him that question. And his answer suprised me so much that I blushed bright red. I could feel my face getting hot.

"You are ridiculously beautiful Isabella Marie Cullen. And I definitely plan on keeping you blushing for the rest of our evening."

"Stop it geez. I can't handle much more."

The party died down and we said goodbye to everyone. I gave Charlie a big hug and told him i'd see him in the morning. With all that had been going on I almost forgot to say goodbye to Renae.

"Love you mom I'll come see you in the morning before our flight leaves k."

"I still can't believe you did it. I'm happy for you honey. And Bell don't worry you guys are meant to be I can see that now. You'll be nothing like your father and me."

"Thanks mom."

I gave her a hug, promising her again that I would see her before we left.

When Edward and I got to the hotel he gave the bell hop a large wad of money and picked me up right there in the lobby.

"Edward I'm sure you know that I can walk."

"Oh no Im not letting you go. You're mine now."

He wouldn't even put me down when we were in the elevator. He just kept sliding his finger up and down my jawline. When we got to our room he opened the door slowly, with one hand since his other was occupied with me, and gently laid me on the bed.

My heart was going crazy with anticipation and I felt extremely hot.

He made his way over to the bed and gently laid his body on top of mine. I thought he would have wanted to talk about some rules or something but he just started kissing me harder.