Disclaimer= I do not own Code Geass.


Just look at me now

Drenched with sweat

Knees tucked to my chest

Staring at a floor on the Ashford grounds

I'm quite fine really

Ever since Charles used his Geass on me

I've been taking refrain to quell my misery

When you saw me during that first turn

I was behaving myself like the rest of the men

Had I not been on that "grief-be-gone"

I would have been on that floor

Treated like a monkey

Fighting my brother to the oblivion

Withdrawal kicked in

When my eye went Geass again

I went back to old Lelouch, same Zero

The Black Knights called for me

Telling me I was their hero

Those were some good feelings

They were short-lived

Things started spiraling once more

I sat down to inject refrain near my elbow

Just above the tip

She came and took it away

She said it wasn't worth it

How could I believe her

When I was feeling worthless?

There was no time for rehab

no time for that cleansing bliss

I thought that my refrain dependency would be gone

With one simple kiss

She pulled away from my lips

Slapped me across my face for it

I knew from there what I wanted to do

That refrain, I discarded all of it

I knew what I need to do for "rehab"

Bring peace to the world

And make sure she lived

As my eyes were closing

I silently asked her

Were my efforts worth it?

I hope she said yes...


A/N= Lelouch was referring to Kallen whenever the words "she" or "her" were used.