I'll walk my own path, to hell with what they say!
走自己的路,让它见鬼去吧!
Zǒu zìjǐ de lù, ràng tā jiànguǐ qù ba!
Summary:
After reviving Leaf during the rescue of Princess Alice, Grisia loses not only his sight but his memories too. 'So I'll walk my own path, to hell with what they say! 走自己的路,让它见鬼去吧!' [OOC!L-level(so-really-really-fudging)Smart!Grisia] [Divergent during Volume three/author has only read to Volume three] [Presumes Grisia was 14 in the Sun Knight trials] [Polls/Votes for genderbender!Grisia and pairings]
Notes/Poll:
Some polls for stuff in the bottom notes, didn't put them here cuz it was so long :(
Prologue
"Sun…"
My mind was completely numb. It felt like someone had stuffed a huge pillow into the confines of my head, filling it out with nothing but the pleasant soft buzz of contentedness. Ah, is this the bliss of ignorance I wonder?
I could see nothing other then darkness but that did not mean I couldn't feel the tickle of thin grass blades at my back or the cool gentle breeze brush over me, nor did it mean that I couldn't hear the quiet tweet of birds and wildlife or the hushed whisper of voices.
Something was wrong though, I could feel it... However in such a relaxed state I could not begin to even muster up the strength to attempt to pull myself from the sweet siren call of sleep, let alone try to figure out what this feeling of unease could be coming from.
Plus, ignoring my feelings was simple, coming so easily to me in the times I decided to do so.
"Sun…"
Although, there was that one vaguely irritating voice that penetrated the blanket of drowsiness I wrapped myself within. Can he not see that I am trying to sleep here? What a rude person, not letting even sleep and unconsciousness deter him from his...
... His what exactly? I am not entirely sure what he is trying to accomplish -is he perhaps trying to call to the sun with a strange prayer?
Without any accompanying information I'd estimate that it is a 23.2% possibility with an error margin of 6%.
Wait... How do I not have any accompanying information? I know myself, I am not the type of person that could sleep comfortably in an unknown area with unknown people. I need the assurance of cold hard facts -facts that tell me where I am, who is with me and the possible situations and outcomes of allying myself with them.
And yet here I find myself unable to recall any facts about my own circumstances at this current moment and I cannot blame drowsiness as my mind in now fully awake even if I may not look it.
I suddenly realise with a jolt that I cannot recall any memories after the age of fourteen either.
Not good...
There are no good implications to that fact.
"Sun."
All I know is that, judging by the number of different voices I can hear, there is a group of three standing approximately a metre and a half away, comprised of two males and one female while the one calling to the sun is currently kneeling over me. Its unfortunate that I cannot hear the whispers of the group as it could have given me some insight into this situation. The one closest to me (male I deduce from the timbre of his voice, seemingly excessively anxious and worried, aged around twenty-one, twenty-two) fails to give me any useful information other than the fact that he will stop calling out uselessly to the sun.
I know without a doubt that for a person like me, the possibility of finding myself in a situation where I have so little information is 0.02%.
Or at least, the chance of me willingly doing such a thing is 0.02%.
Finding myself in these circumstances unwillingly on the other hand, well that was an entirely different matter...
(A 10.34% chance to be specific -low but still a significance bit higher then 0.02%.)
If they had indeed taken me against my will, then the best course of action would be to continue pretending to be asleep. They would underestimate me in this state and sooner or latter they could possibly slip up and offer some much needed information.
However, things didn't add up in my hypothesis.
If they had kidnapped me, why had they not bound me? I could feel no ropes or chains on my person nor could I feel the restrictions of magical bindings. Where they cocky enough to think that they would not need too? No that was too unlikely (2.31% chance) -no un-captured team of slave traders or human traffickers would be so stupid.
But then if it wasn't that, then what was it?
I wanted to scowl.
The situation didn't make sense. It was illogical.
There's nothing in this world that I hate more then that, that and ignorance.
Slowly I open my eyes and I find... Nothing.
I see nothing but darkness.
"Sun?"
Even blinking does not dispel the unending blackness. It is beyond unnerving and I try desperately to halt the workings of my brain despite its futility. I can tell from the awful feeling of my heart plummeting into the depths of my gut that I already instinctively know why this darkness clouds my vision.
I could see no shadows, no shapes, no outlines, nothing that could indicate the comfort of night. The pure darkness did not abate in the slightest -not a temporary blackout then.
How was I suppose to know where I was? Or who was with me? How could I trust my own psychoanalyses if I couldn't even see the people I was analysing?
Damnit...
"Sun…" I hear the voice again, trembling with something I identify as guilt.
Strange, he seems to be addressing me with that word, sun, I thought as I sat up.
In the back of my mind I noted the sun-prayer hypothesis' possibility drop from 23.2% to 12.5%.
There was no need to turn my head towards the voice so I didn't. If I could not see the man, then how could I gather information? By touch?
"Your eyes-"
"Who are you?" I interrupted.
Notes/Poll:
So I got a few questions I wanna ask you guys,
1. Should I do a genderbender on Grisia?
I usually love genderbenders (because, sue me, I love those shocker moments) but I don't know if I should do it with this story. I feel like I'd be making Grisia too OOC (I mean he's already enough OOC as it is) and giving his character too many twists or shock factor elements (again in the current plan that I have, Grisia has a fuuuuudge ton too many of these, its like I just mashed up a bunch of character clichés together).
2. a) Should I do a pairing?
Again, I love pairings -sometimes I will even be so picky that I will choose not to read something if it doesn't have a pairing. Buuuut in the plan I've got going I feel like there's so much happening that a pairing will only distract from the story or it will focus on the story too much that the pairing will seem like one of those rushed yeah-I-had-no-feelings-what-so-ever-before-but-hey-I-suddenly-out-of-nowhere-love-you-now-lets-bang:) things and I hate those. I'm not sure if I can balance between romance and story (I can barely do story on its own as it is, you know :/ ). But then again I also feel like telling myself, "you know you're just gonna do a pairing in then end, whether you should or ya shouldn't, so just fudging do it".
b) If I do a pairing, what should it be?
Originally I wanted to do a freaking [Mike\Grisia] pairing cuz man, there's none of that stuff anywhere :( Nil, nah-da, nothing! It makes me so sad because I really wanna see that. But at the same time, I think it'd take a lot of skill (which I got none) to pull that off properly or in a way that doesn't seem like that no-feelings-suddenly-lets-bang thing as mentioned before.
And because I'm so indecisive, poll time :D (in the reviews, I doubt people would be bothered to go to the polls on th profile), and any and all dudes (yes I'm one of those filthy guy on guy shippers ;p ) (p.s, if I do a fem!Grisia I wouldn't mind doing a fem on fem or fem!Grisia on dude pairing -IDK why I'm like this) are in the running (apart from people that would be non-age appropriate unless you have some really genius way to make it not... you know).
