ok, this is my first ever bey blade fanfic, so ....erm....yeah....

kai and rei are together, but rei's painful past is preventing them from going any further. kai must find out what's wrong and save rei from himself before he looses him.

based off of tlc's song, damaged.

warnings: YAOI (boy x boy) kai x rei. mentions of rape.

disclaimer: i do NOT own beyblade, or anything associated with it, such as characters, etc. once again, I DO NOT OWN. i also don't own tlc's song, damaged. that belongs to them and whoever else. not me. disclaimer stands for the entire fic.

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DAMAGED

Kai's strong hands ran up and down Rei's back, causing him to shiver, before pulling him flush against his broad chest. Rei gasped, his gem-like amber eyes widening and staring up into Kai's hard crimson ones, which flashed with passion. Kai bent his head, crushing his lips to Rei's soft, inviting ones and leaning his body back so that it rested against the brick wall of the ice cream parlor, his firm hold around Rei bringing the smaller boy with him.

Rei closed his eyes and yielded to Kai, placing both hands on either side of his chest and feeling the hard muscles beneath the black muscle top. His back arched so he brushed more against his koi, and Kai responded by thrusting his tongue into his mouth. Rei gasped, his lips parting further and Kai's tongue going in deeper.

Rei's supple body was humming with heat and love for Kai, bending to his power. Rei felt himself almost purring, until Kai's eager tongue went a little too far back into his throat, causing him to choke.

Rei's body suddenly tensed as painful memories flashed through his mind. Tears of shame, hurt, and guilt trickled down his cheeks, dropping onto Kai's hand. Kai immediately stopped and hugged Rei to him, stroking his back. "Rei?"

Rei still had his eyes closed, tears pouring out of them. He lowered his head, unable to meet Kai's gaze. The painful memories were fresh and vivid in his mind, causing his heart to pound with terror. He buried his face in Kai's chest, starting to shake and sob a little. 'You're with Kai, you're safe, he won't hurt you; he's not like-' Rei's train of thought was broken by Kai's gentle hand tilting his head upwards.

Kai gently kissed his remaining tears away. "Rei, what's wrong?"

Staring into the sincere, frighteningly deep ruby eyes, Rei shivered and felt his love's arms tighten about him protectively. Kai was so gentle and loving with him, always there for him. And he'd been keeping a secret from him. Kai had every right to know; he deserved to know.........but if he knew, then he'd leave Rei for good. Rei knew he'd never survive if Kai left him. He was already ruining things enough with these little 'episodes' of his. Sometimes, when he and Kai would be making out, and things got intense between them, the memories Rei wanted to bury would awaken, tormenting him and ripping at his soul, and killing the passion between them. All because of what-

Rei shuddered, and concern flashed in the normally cold eyes. Rei licked his lips, which were swollen from Kai's kisses. His koi deserved to know; it wasn't fair of him to keep his secret, not when things were this serious between them. It wasn't fair for Kai to be with someone who'd been.....who was......someone like him.

More tears flowed, swifter than before, and his amber eyes filled with guilt and sorrow. Rei knew he was going to ruin the only good thing in his life, but Kai deserved to know; Rei couldn't keep him in the dark anymore. Not when he meant so much to him.

"K-Kai.....I......I....." Kai just held him, kissing his forhead in a pacifying gesture, and staring intently at him, not saying much. Then again, Kai never did. Feeling the intense emotions emenating from Kai, love and concern, Rei broke down. He couldn't tell his sordid secret......he couldn't tell Kai, couldn't destroy their blossoming love. He needed Kai, loved him too much to ever let him go.

"I'm so sorry." He sobbed, hugging Kai briefly before turning out of the older boy's startled arms and running down the street.

Kai just stared after him in shock, a look of concern and confusion on his face. He was used to Rei's episodes, but the raven haired boy had never run from him before. Every time they got close, either emotionally or physically, Rei would become upset and scared. But he'd never run away before; he'd let Kai hold him and calm him down. They'd also been growing more emotionally attatched to each other, and Kai could come to only one conclusion. Rei was frightened. Of what, he didn't know.

Turning, Kai clenched his fists tightly and walked in the opposite direction, lost in his own thoughts.

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