The Guise of Perfection is One She Should've Seen Through
(*)
She was ohsosick of it
Because it nevereverever stopped
(And she thought that
God must not exist
Because otherwise, he would've
a n s w e r e d
her prayers, right?)
And e v e r y w h e r e she went
She always heard,
"Hi, Reagan!"
And the words,
"I'm
M a d i s o n "
Were ohsoused that
She has them
m e m o r i z e d
now.
(*)
But he-
Him in all his p e r f e c t i o n s –
He could tell them apart
(And that was all it took
To make her
L o v e
Him)
(*)
And when she got so
Sicktiredfrustrated
With e v e r y t h i n g
He always listened
(And her mind was full of
elationhappinessjoy
And her heart was full of
KurtKurtKurt
And all was well)
(*)
And she thought everything was
Perfectperfectperfect
And that he was
Perfectperfectperfect
And she may have been a Tomas, but she
w a s n ' t s t u p i d
And she should've wondered
Why he showed up
ohso s u d d e n l y
And she should've s e e n t h r o u g h
His disguise
Because perfect
Doesn't e x i s t
(And everyone knows that)
(*)
He always told her he
Wasn't a C a h i l l
(She thought he was ohsolucky)
And she
B e l i e v e d h i m
So why did she find
A letter
With the Janus crest on it
At his house?
Just like
E v e r y t i m e
She believed
(*)
But she c o u l d n ' t ignore it anymore
When it was her name on the paper
And curiosity o v e r w h e l m e d her
So she read it-
E v e r y t h i n g –
And found out that
The whole time
He was just a
S p y
(And her heart
S h a t t e r e d )
(*)
She couldn't c o n f r o n t him about it
(So much for Tomas bravery)
But she did
S a b o t a g e
Everything he'd worked for
And she left with her head held high
(*)
She n e v e r told anyone the whole story
(They'd never believe Madison Holt anyways)
And p r e t e n d e d
She had lost interest in him
(Nevereverever)
But
D
E
E
P
D
O
W
N
She couldn't help but think that
He must've felt s o m e t h i n g for her
Because he a l w a y s knew who she was
(And no other guy ever did.)
T h e n a g a i n,
It could've just been
Part of his
P e r f e c t i o n
(But perfection is a
Li e)
(*)
She never found out if it was real or not.
(*)
The explanation of this one: In a very random, unexpected place (waaaaaaay after the 39 Clues hunt ended), Kurt and Madison met. They began dating; he was the only one who could tell her apart from Reagan. Madison fell for him hard and fast; she thought he was perfect. But it turned out that he was a Janus spy, and that the whole time they dated, he was spying on her (since she was a Tomas). She sabotaged everything he had done, and left him. But she still loved him, and couldn't help but wonder if he actually felt the same for her, since he was the only person who could tell her and Reagan apart.
So, was it real? Here's a hint: it's in the text.
Anyways, what do you think? Personally, I don't think this is as good as my other free verses; but I still think it's okay. The idea of pairing Kurt with Madison is from Miranda Cahill of Conte (though I don't think she was actually serious about it; haha). Please, please, PLEASE review and tell me what you think!
Thanks much!
-Joelle8
