Yuki:
Why am I so scared to just be myself? I keep telling myself that everyone
would reject and hate me if I showed my true personality. I HATE THIS
STUIPD CURSE! Because of it I can't get close to anyone except the other
Sohmas and Tohru.Tohru. she's the only person that I'm able to be myself
around. I can laugh around her and she knows who I truly am. Around her I
don't have to smile and act nice all the time. I can tell her when I'm
upset but even she would probably reject me if she knew how I felt about
Haru. Why do I push him away when I want him and love him so much?! Why
do I care so much about what others think? That bakka neko! So what if
he's not a member of the Zodiac, at least he can be himself and people
accept him, he doesn't have to wear a mask and he can be with the person he
loves Kyo and Miss Honda, who would've thought that damn cat and Tohru
would end up together?! Actually, I knew it all along. I suppose it's
just my jealousy talking. Kyo has it all. he fits in with normal people
and can be with the person he loves. That's all that I've ever really
wanted. I'm such a coward. I want to tell Haru how much I love, need, and
want him. So why don't I? It's time that I stopped acting like a child
and told him how much I long for his touch, But Akito. What would the
bastard do if he found out? I can't stand to think about what he'd do to
me. And to Haru! I've already hurt him enough bu tselfishly rejecting him
because of my idiotic fear of being rejected as well. One day, my beloved
Haru, I'll tell you how I truly feel and then we can be together. One day
soon my darling.
