Disclaimer: This goes for all chapters of the fic if I continue it..I do not own Ginny or Draco or Harry potter or any other of JK Rowling's characters. I only own the plot and any fictional characters I decide to throw in.
Malfoy had done it agian ,Ginny thought as she took the jagged piece of mirror and made smooth lines of blood appear across her arm mixing with the tears that now freely fell from her red blotched face. She sighed at the release, smiled even, letting all of her frustration, her anger, and her depression seep out of her skin in a crimson form.
This was her addiction.
He had done this to her at least once a week calling her a blood traitor..calling her filth. She knew she was trash, she knew she was poor, she knew she was ugly with her hideous freckles and her fiery red hair that seemed so bland this time of the week. She would never be pretty enough, smart enough, or rich enough. She was Weasley all the way through and he made her hate that. He made her despise her family name and sometimes even her own flesh and blood, the only men who had ever cared for her besides her father... her brothers.
Ginny slowly sobbed watching the thick blood dry and crust around the cuts on her arm. There were several this time he had hurt her tremendously. Usually it was only once or twice but this time she could barely tell the new scars from the old ones, there were so many and they were deep this time. If anyone had looked at them close enough they may have mistaken them for spelling out his name, his last name, the thing that got him everything and allowed him to treat the poor girl the way he did. Spelling out M-A-L-F-O-Y was not something she did purposly it was something that her subconcance had done and that she still did not realise. It was here that she sat in the third floor in the girls bathroom wishing he would fall off the edge of the earth, wishing that someone would notice her fake smiles and really see the pain that she kept so well hidden from her friends and her family. But no one was there when he said and did the things that made her wince and cringe. No one was there, not really, sure they mouthed things back in retort but Ginevra just gave him the cold shoulder or stared at him trying not to let the tears brim her eyes until he was out of sight. Even when he meant no harm and just passed her speaking to his friends or sent a smirk her way she cringed. Ginny was glad that no one ever followed her after his traditional abuse of her ego because if they would they would see her broken... returning to the same stall, in the same bathroom, on the same floor inflicting his words upon herself, making sure that the physical pain, the euphoria, masked the emotional pain that had torn her to pieces everyday.
He was her addiction.
His gaze captured her, those stoney heartless eyes. Ginny shuddered. She once wondered how he could be so emotionless, so unforgiving. She understood part of him now though...for now when she looked into the mirror and saw those same stoney eyes, yes his are grey and her's are a murky brown, but they were still emotionless, numb, and unforgiving as ever. She felt as though she was becoming him...she knew that she was becoming him. Ginny often wondered what or who had broken Draco down to this soul-less creature? What had made him so heartless? So cruel? Is this how Lucius treated him? she pondered, prehaps his own mother was cold to him.
Ginny had never been depressed or broken, not until he came into her life, always slipping in and out at the worst times. Ginny wanted to plea to him, to beg him, to show him what he did to her. The damage that he had, as she looked at hit, forced her to inflict upon her temple, her body, her very soul. Her entire being had been broken like glass of milk dropped onto a hard wood floor, completely shattered its contents gone. This is what Ginny wanted him to see, a helpless girl fighting with her emotions and stuggleing to get through each day. She wanted him to see what was once a bright young woman broken into a million tiny pieces, to see exactly what he had done and that is exactly what she planned on doing.
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