A/N: Been a while since I've been here. But alas, I ship this couple way too much to not write anything. The title's derived from Ed Sheeran's All of the Stars, mainly because it's on of my favorite lyrics ever and it just suits this fic way too perfectly.
If you follow my other JeanSasha fanfic, Your Life in Someone Else's Eyes, I'll be putting another AN at the end of this fic regarding it. And it's all good news, don't you worry. If you don't follow YLISEE, mind taking a look?
I own nothing but this story. Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan belongs to Hajime Isayama and All of the Stars to Ed Sheeran.
It was yet another night at the villa they were staying for the time being. It was Jean and Sasha's shift this time and for the most part they had spend their time in complete,uneventful silence.
It was broken however when Sasha spoke.
"Say Jean?"
He turned to her with a yawn. "Yeah?"
"Do you believe in reincarnation?"
"Reincar-what?"
"You know, rebirth? Afterlife? All that crap you heard from those gypsies and crazy people along the streets when we were undercover?"
Jean pursed his lips before answering. "Well having a life other than this shit storm we're insounds a lot better. So yeah, I guess I do."
She smiled but it didn't reach her eyes.
"Yeah I figured you'd say something like that…" shelet out a sigh and leaned against the wall behind them. "Imagine this then, when we all have died…do you think we'd meet again in the next life?"
Jean narrowed his eyes at her in confusion. "Just what are you getting at Potato Girl?"
"I love all of you guys." she said quietly. "I love all of you so much and if I were to die soon I'd rather stay dead than live a new life without meeting any of you."
"Wait just a second Sasha. You're not gonna die soon alright?" he let out a sigh 'cause dammit he's not good at comforting people. "This will all be over soon and the only time you'll be dying is when you're at least eighty-five and lying in bed surrounded by your cats. Alright?"
She only nodded in reply. Somehow that signaled their conversation to end. The rest of their shift had been in silence after that. By the time Connie and Mikasa had arrived for a swap they walked back to the lodging, side by side.
It wasn't until when they were at the entrance when Sasha suddenly stopped.
"Hey Jean?"
"What now?"
She quickly pecked his cheek. "Thank you."
Without another word she had opened the door and fled to her room.
Levi had appeared from the kitchen. "Welcome back. It's high time you get some sleep."
Suddenly the Captain's eyes narrowed.
"What are you smiling for Kirstein?"
"Nothing sir."
He doesn't remember how it happened. It had all been a blur to him, except for someone knocking him out of the way from a Titan's grasp and a blood-curdling scream.
It wasn't supposed to happen but it did and now here he was, kneeling Sasha's barely conscious form, tears blurring his vision and hand grasping hers.
"Sasha? Goddamit please say something." he whispered. He snapped his eyes closed and pressed his ear against her chest to at least hear a heartbeat.
"Sasha, for the love of god please tell me you're still alive."
If he hadn't been completely focused on her he wouldn't have heard her whisper.
"Jean?"
His head snapped up and his eyes met her face.
"Sasha, oh thank god-"
She squeezed his hand. "Jean…don't…I don't have much longer. This is where I'm done-"
"Sasha no don't say that-"
"No." she strained to say. "Just promise you'll find me in the next life Jean."
Her grip on his hand hand begun to waver.
"No don't you dare die on me-"
"I love you." She whispered more like an afterthought than anything else.
Her hand had already fallen out of his grasp and another Titan had already appeared before he was able to reply.
Jean stood in front of the makeshift grave they had built and placed on the villa they stayed at. It was nothing more than two planks of wood tied together to form a cross with a separate plank that bore her name nailed across the center of it. He placed the bouquet of lilies on the ground in front of it with a grimace.
Without another word he left, walking back to might as well be the last expedition outside the walls.
They were finally gone. It was finally over. The Titans have been completely eradicated and now humanity can live in peace. They had emerged victorious, despite all the casualties in the final battle.
Jean had ended up being one of them.
He doesn't remember how he died. He can feel a dull ache were he possibly might've been struck by a Titan but other than that he can't feel a thing.
Now as he stands in this room filled with blinding light he can't help but stare at the sight before him.
"Sasha?"
She smiles back. Her hair's out of its usual ponytail and she's wearing a white dress that makes her look sort of immaculate and holy but somehow Jean hadn't processed that thought yet because holy shit she's here and I found her.
"I can't say I'm not glad to see you, Jean."
He walked over closer to her. "I'm guessing I'm dead, huh?"
She nodded. "Sadly, yes."
"Is all that stuff about reincarnation true? Will I be reborn into a new life?"
She nodded again. "Marco's already a little bit ahead on that. Along with Mina and the others."
"What about you?"
She shakes her head this time. "Something's been holding me back. Most likely you."
The memory of her last words flashed through his mind. He smirked. "I distinctly remember you telling me you loved me?"
She flushed a few shades of red and looked away before nodding. "I didn't think you would've actually heard that."
"We all did." he dropped the smirk and replaced it with a softer look in his eyes. "Do you still?"
She met his gaze and smiled softly. "I probably always will."
He garners in a breath. "I know it's really late but…"
She held up a hand to stop him. "I know Jean. But now you need to go to your new life." a blinding white light flashed and she started to vanish in it. "I hope I meet you then."
"Wait Sasha-"
Jean woke up with a start.
Weird dream, he thought as he sat up. He grabbed his phone from his nightstand and peered at the screen.
7:45
First day of school and I'm gonna be late. Great.
He can definitely blame this on his best friend Marco for not reminding him the night before to set his alarm clock. The idiot was way too preoccupied with his girlfriend Mina to remember.
In a panic induced blur Jean managed to get dressed and grab a piece of toast from the kitchen before zipping through the door, bag half open and slung over his shoulder.
Though to be honest, he wasn't sure if you can blame his state of rush for how he bumped head first into a girl in the empty hallway.
After stumbling on his feet to get up he offered her a hand. "Sorry." he mumbled under his breath.
"Its alright." she said as she took his hand with a smile.
"Umm can I ask a favor?" she asked after she dusted herself off.
"Hm?"
"I was hoping maybe you could help me get to first period? I'm kinda new around here." she handed him her schedule.
"Sure." he said as he took it into his hands.
Guess we have the same first period, he thought.
Jean's eyes drifted toward the name that was printed at the very top.
Sasha Braus
For whatever reason he found himself smiling.
"I've never seen anyone look so happy at a schedule before." she teased. "Find anything interesting?"
He shook his head but that did nothing to shake the smile off his face. Jean looked up and met her quizzical smile. "Nothing in particular. We have the same subjects for first up to fourth period along with sixth and seventh. I can accompany you to them if you want." he said as he handed the schedule back over to her.
She smiled brighter than what he thought humanly possible. "That'd be great."
As he started their pace towards Professor Smith's classroom, Jean held his hand out for her.
"I'm Jean by the way."
She shook it with another smile. "I'm Sasha. But I'm guessing you already knew that."
He only smiled back in reply.
You're damn right I do.
A/N: And there you have it. The opening chapter. Hope you liked it.
Now if you scrolled all the way down here for the news on YLISEE, with or without actually reading the story, I'm just here to tell all of you lovelies that I'm not giving up on my story. Never considered it once and I never will. School had just been hectic for the past few months, and if you add that to the practices for one performance or another, squeezing in time to write was getting harder and harder. You can say that I went on a bit of a hiatus. But don't worry, I'm already in the middle of my summer break and I have most of the next chapter done, along with key scenes for the chapter after it. I can't really give a specific date on when I'll be able to post the finished thing, but let me know if you want me to post a sneak peak on my tumblr. I've been contemplating it but I needed a sign I guess. Follow me on hearmyvoiceoftreason . tumblr . com (no spaces of course)or you can search for my blog title The Voice of Treason.
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