Lost Soul of a Survivor

By: Airashii

Disclaimer: I do not own Star Wars. I do however own this story and the Original Charaters within it. Please read and review.

Chapter One: The Past Shows the Beginning

My tale begins with my origin. I don't remember if I had a family at one point of my adolescence. The only memories I can recall are sometimes blurred or lost cause of time. You will listen to my story if you wish to know the reason of my existence and the reasons I fight against the Empire.

Now I will begin to tell my tale.

I remember life at the Jedi temple very well. I was the best human female of our group the others were a bit absentminded that clouded there judgment. Our master ,Yoda, Had explained that there was something going on in the force. He told us to use our feelings and use them to sense the disturbance. I remember quite vividly one of our afternoon sessions as we younglings were about to leave our lesson that Master Yoda asked me to stay. I watched him with abit of confusion as I sat down on the ground. I was a lot more taller the master Yoda at the age of 14.

"Padme sense the disturbance you must. For great help in the future you will be." He said as he sat down in front of me. I blinked my eyes several times before I closed them. 'I sense great pain.. Anger and fear.. Master .. We younglings are in great danger.. The sith are plotting something that we cannot stop until its late..' I whispered franticly as I watched images of death and destruction. ' Lady Padme is in grave danger… Master we Cannot let her die.. I can't… She doesn't deserve the pain she will get in only the matter of months.' I added as several warm tears ran down my face.

Oh how I adored lady Padme Amidalla. She was the perfect example of joy and light the republic had to show. She found me on Tatooine afew years ago it seems she was waiting for the return of master Anakin. He seemed to have vanished to rescue his mother. I was fixing an old crop duster for Owen Lars. He promised me shelter and food till I fixed all his equipment. I was only happy to find a home.. Even if it was for a little while. It was abit strange when I saw master Skywalker for the first time. He startled me abit as I felt him. He grinned and patted my head. "Another force sensitive.. Hello young one.. What is your name?" He asked calmly the day he arrived.

I looked at him embarrassed as I wiped my face clean of the freshly left droid oil . "Padme.. Padme Star." I said proudly. I never really thought of a name till then. No one really asked but I've seen the holos in town to know what name I wanted. Padme after the woman I idolized. Star for the mystery and the light it shined on our planet. After that meeting it seemed Anakin left in search of his mother.

Padme smiled at me when I cleaned up the mess I had made in the small tool shed. That woman promised me a better life which she completed in. After her and master Skywalker left I asked the Owens' if I could stay until the lady sent a transport for me. They allowed me to stay abit grateful as if they wanted someone to fill a void left by the deceased Shimi.

The clone wars began the day before a transport was sent for me. I arrived at Corasuant welcomed by Padme with open arms. It seemed she had just returned from Naboo. I smiled brightly as I ran towards her my arms open as I hugged her tightly. How I wanted her to be my family. She looked saddened as she led me to what would be my home for the next three years. I watched confused as the great doors of the Jedi temple opened up to me. A small green creature greeted me and took my hand from Padme's. "Yoda I am. Padme.. Say farewell For Youngling is to learn. Learn she must for great things I sense in her I do." He said to both me and Padme. Padme seemed to understand and asked if she were allowed to visit. Yoda nodded as he began to lead me to my room.

"Jedi you will be. For great things I sense in you.. Future is not clouded as greatly as others. Good things I see." He added as he left me to settle in my chamber. It was a wonderful room with a nice soft bed to sleep in. it had a beautiful view of the senate building. I noticed the closet had clothing as well. My eyes sparkled as I lifted the youngling robes, light blue if I remember correctly. I changed quickly and left to roam around the building. I stumbled onto a training class. I watched intently as I saw master Windu teaching a young Padawan some form of saber.

I then left there and went to where master Yoda told me to meet him. That began my lessons. And Now I sit here describing what I saw. The pain caused tears that nearly burned down my cheeks. My friend my only true family would soon be lost to me. Master Yoda gave me afew moments to recover. "Sadness is a way to the dark side.. Avoid it you must." He warned as he stood up and left.

After that it felt like time blurred. I remember leaving the temple a few hours before the attack on it had occurred. I was on my way to visit Padme. She had left her home with out a good bye. I remember sitting on her balcony of her apartment waiting intently on her return. Her Jampor snippet was on the dresser. I tilted my head to look at it. She never left it behind it always hung from her neck on a silver chain. That image unnerved me. I went over and picked it up and placed it into my robe.

I remember falling asleep on her soft bed. It smelled of jasmine and some type of spice… A Nabooian spice maybe. It seemed I missed many things While I slept I had dreams or rather seen images as I slept death…Pain destruction…All those things i had felt I'd had seen once before with Master Yoda..

I awoke the next day to being shaken. Dorme had stains of tears on her normally cheery face. I wasn't on the Padme's bed or in the Apartment.. Or On Corasuant for that matter. I was on a Ship… I could sense the great pain everyone felt as I walked towards the familiar force auras. Master Obi Wan looked at me then kneeled down. His face seemed more lined then I last remembered. "Padme.. I am sorry…"He said sadly as he hugged me. I was confused when he said it. Master Yoda had been busy talking to Bail Organa and they both looked over at me. 'What are you hiding from me? Where's Padme…I want to see Padme..' I said softly I could feel my eyes water as I knew I felt her earlier. It seemed like she left. "Padme is in the force now.. We did all we could.. We knew how close you two were." Obi Wan told me as he turned me back to face him.

My heart felt as if it shattered. I wept with the others as I screamed that it wasn't true. That they were telling me lies.. I ran from them. I ran to where I felt Padme Leave me. She was on the table when I entered the medical room. I climbed onto the table and sat next to her. 'Padme wake up.. Padme.. Don't leave me…' I said softly as if I could coax her to return to life. I held her hand to my cheek. 'Please Padme…' I said softly as I rested my head on her chest. I cried my eyes out I couldn't bare the thought of losing the only person who treated me so kindly.

Master Obi Wan lifted me from the table and carried me off into the hall and sat me down. He seemed as upset as I was. "She had twins… Both are healthy and look just like her…and Anakin.." He said softly as he stroked my hair. I would have told him that his attempts were in vain. I believe He saw Padme comfort me on more then one occasion in this fashion.

I looked at him tears still streaming down my face. 'A boy and a girl.. I can feel them.. Both strong… Tell me what did she name them… What were her last words.. How did she leave me?' I said in between sobs. He told me the responses to all my questions. "And She seemed to have died from a broken heart.. Luke will go with the Owens' and Leia will go with Bail." He said as he noticed me shift in my spot.

'Master Where will I go?' I asked as I pulled myself to my feet. 'Home is lost.. I have no family.. Where will I go?' I repeated. He looked at me calmly as if waiting for me to relax once again. "You will go to Naboo… You will continue your training… even if it isn't as proper like it once was." He said softly.

The day after our talk was Lady Padme's funeral. We arrived on Naboo on a rainy day her preparations were done on the ship. Obi Wan had left and so had Bail. Master Yoda had went into exile as I remained in company of Dorme. I visited with Padme the entire night before. Still trying to get her to return. I met her children they were sweet and wonderful. I told them farewell…and promised to find them once they were older.

I was alone that day when I got off the ship. Many of the others went to get dressed for the ceremony. Padme's Sister Sola came for me and took me for a fitting. I felt weird when they dressed me in what looked like something Padme wore once. They did my hair and painted my face as they got me ready to follow after her. I was the most closest to her So I was to be by her side and push her case into the lake.

I was silent during the entire thing I felt as if I'd join her if I said something soon. Then when the ceremony drew closer to an end… I felt my courage return. 'my friend My family.. You will live on inside my heart… I will live your Life for you now. I promise you I'll be strong.' I said loudly as I pushed her case into the calm serine lake. The others watched me as I began to walk away. My eyes stung from the tears forming once again.

And So ended my first chapter of many I have lived . I went With Sola to meet Mr. And Mrs. Neberrie whom took me in as a replacement of there daughter. My mentor my Family My Friend. I knew I'd never be able to fill the spot of there perfect child.

I knew that this would be another of the many families I'd lose in the nearing future. I could feel it in my heart as I sat down with them ate with them and laughed with them.

My heart would just have to learn to deal with the pain I would face.

(End of Chapter One)