The last rays of the day warmed Charlie's face as she looked out upon the vast ocean in front of her; yesterday was three months since Joey had left. The thought of standing on the jetty watching her disappear into the distance broke her heart all over again.
The past months had been rough on the brunette and it showed, Her skin had lost the healthy glow that it often possessed, her once long silky hair now looked drab and flat in the loose band she had roughly tied it into earlier that day, her clothes seemed to hang from her body loosely looking as if two sizes to big for her frame and her once sparkling eyes now seemed lost on her face, surrounded by dark rings that she had given up trying to cover.
Joey had said she would be back in three months and yet she hadn't returned, Charlie felt abandoned even though she only had herself to blame, she still asked herself repeatedly why she had done it, yet the only answers she conjured up seemed like cheap excuses and that night had cheapened their relationship enough.
She hated herself for what she had done, and truthfully she wouldn't blame Joey if she never returned to her. She had betrayed her and betrayed their relationship and Charlie for one could never forgive herself for her indiscretion with Hugo.
A lone tear slowly rolled a salty trail across her cheek as she blinked back anymore offending tears. She glanced out across the ocean again, now covered in a velvet black blanket covered in tiny diamonds gaining their brightness. Waking up from their daytime slumber to start their night time work. She looked up to the stars and glanced around in a particular section of the mass sky until she found what she had been looking for.
Closing her eyes momentarily to allow the image of Joey to return to her, she looked up at that star one more time. The day Joey had left she had tried to sleep but when she failed she decided to take a late night stroll along the beach, she had sat for hours mulling her thoughts over and watching the stars twinkle, finding a peace in the knowledge that the same stars that shone over her, were shining over Joey. That night she had picked a star and each night she whispered the words "I love you" to it, knowing that the star would carry her words to Joey, wherever she was.
She lowered her head to her folded arms that rested on her knees as she gave in to the tears that constantly threatened to flow. Her body shivered with her sobs as she cried for all she was worth. She had spent so long wanting to find that special someone, her missing piece, her soul mate and now all she could do was hate herself for letting her go. Slowly but surely her sobs began to lessen. She looked up at the waves and the moon lit up the tear stains on her cheeks. Drying off her eyes she stood slowly and with one last glance to their star she walked slowly back to the house, fearing that her love would never return, that she had thrown away her only chance at happiness and now she had to live with the consequences of her actions.