I have dealt with a lot of shit in my life, even though I am young. I have been picked, teased, betrayed by people I thought were my friends, I suffer from depression that is getting worse even today and it got so bad at one point that I almost took my life... But now in hindsight, I'm glad I didn't. I have friends whom I can trust, an awesome hobby and a passion to better myself. This song lifts me up, I wish I could sing this to everyone who had hurt me. But i think Cynder can do it for me ^^
It's all about steam, it's all about dreams, it's all about making the best out of everything.
I risked everything for you! I did everything for you! I confronted the one who had held me for so many years and for what? I did my best, I did all I could to make things right, but because you will never forgive me, things will never be the way they should!
You'll know when your fine, cause you talk like a mime, and you'll fall on your face, you get back and you're doing fine.
They all say the same thing, they're like a broken record! Just stop it!
"A considerate clown, a preachy preachy machine," is one of the sweetest things you would say about me, but I don't have the time for your distorted esteem, so why are you toying with my MIND!
I can't stand this anymore, the things they murmur behind my back, they think I can't hear them! This goes out to everyone!
I don't wanna' here you s-s-s-s-s-say it! I don't wanna hear you s-s-s-s-s-s-say it! I don't wanna' hear you s-s-s-s-s-s-say it! Now your messin' with my PRIDE! Whoo!
It is maddening! No matter where I go it's the same! I saved you all and this is how you treat me!
Look, you think you're smarter than me. Well everyone knows; you will never be smarter than me, that's how it goes.
I should never have helped you! If I wasn't around you would all be dead! You think you're better than me? Prove it!
I gained forty pounds because of you, was there an "S" on my chest? Well I confess, you were too much stress, I'd have a heart attack at best.
I have secluded myself from my friends. Hunter, Sparx, the Guardians, and even the one I love... All because of you. All because of the world. I am getting weak, the scars on my wrists haven't healed yet, when they ask I deny everything. All because of them...
So now I breathe it out, I breathe it out, and I spit it out, on the crowd, cause' the lift me up, they lift me up, they lift me up, when I'm feeling down.
I agreed to go with him today. He saw what I have done to myself, he took me into Warfang, they were there... Staring... One came to me, offered me some aid. I had bled across the streets.
What am I spitting out? Spitting out, something we never talk about, It's called my... MIND!
I denied him and continued walking, away from them, away from my love, into the woods where I could think...
I don't wanna' here you s-s-s-s-s-say it! I don't wanna hear you s-s-s-s-s-s-say it! I don't wanna' hear you s-s-s-s-s-s-say it! Now your messin' with my PRIDE!
It has been a week, maybe longer... I had time to think, I called the Guardians for a meeting, I asked them... Tell everyone!
I'm sick of standing in your line, so now you'll have to take it, take this to heart; I WILL NEVER LET YOU FUCK ME OVER! Stop talking down to me your war is old, your game is over! So here's my coldest shoulder!
I don't wanna' here you s-s-s-s-s-say it! I don't wanna hear you s-s-s-s-s-s-say it! I don't wanna' hear you s-s-s-s-s-s-say it! Now your messin' with my PRIDE! My pride... Something we don't talk about...Something we don't talk about...
No more... My scars have healed, I am out in the open again, I have confessed my love for him. And never again shall I hear them Say It!