Okok, I just jumped back and forth between two fandoms. What can I do about it? Jeez...I just know I have to keep writing or risk going insame with the idea stuck in my head.
Right...the same drill as always. I own YYH /got bashed in the head by a book/ ouch..then again, maybe not.
Angst as always. /shakes head/ I jusy have no talent for fluff. Hiei x Kurama as usual. What can I do? They plague me dayy after day, night after night.
WARNING : As with all my works, this contains SHOUNEN AI. I have warned you.
Innocence
and Denial
I
watched as his usually hard crimson eyes softened
around
her. With her presence, his tough demeanor
seems
to crack just a little, and so does my heart.
I
knew, without a doubt that I had lost something. He
had
stolen it even without meaning to. Or maybe he did
it
on purpose, that I do not know. In truth, I do not
even
want to know. Denial is like that, I guess.
But
even so, I cannot seem to muster any anger or
resentment
towards him for being this happy. How could
I?
For him to attain even the slightest bliss, he had
gone
through so much in life, bloodshed and tears. How
could
my own pain and tears matter when compared to
his?
Yet,
I wanted so much to be the one to have brought
the
smile on his lips, the softness in his eyes, and
more
so the contented aura that is now present around
him.
I want to…so much…
"Kurama?
Is there anything wrong?" His voice, even
his
voice had lost a little of its hard edge. Why, why
couldn't
it have been me to heal him?
"Kurama!"
There is a slight intonation of concern,
where
it would never have been years back. But still,
hard
edge or no, I love the way he pronounces my name,
with
a deep baritone. Too bad there will never be
love.
Hands
shook my shoulder slightly, and I took note that
they
are warm and calloused from wielding a sword. How
I
yearned to hold them within my own…
Why
is he so concerned? Come to think of it, why am I
not
answering his calls as I always had? Why is he
knelt
down in front of me, showing such concern? I do
not
want that, but why? Why is it that I would prefer
him
to be stoic and cold than to have someone else
other
than me to have broken his barrier? Why am I so
selfish?
No...it
is not because I love him, nor is it because
of
the plain and blatant fact that he loves another.
That
is not the reason why I am embracing him now,
despite
his innocence in this matter. That is not why
my
voice is choked up and there is a lump in my throat
that
keeps threatening to overwhelm me.
"It's nothing, Hiei."
And
I do not know whether to love or loathe his voice
when
he replied, "Then why are you crying, Kurama?"
He is innocent, unknowing.
"I'm not crying, I'm just happy for you, Hiei."
There
are no tears running down my face, at least none
that
I can feel.
/cries/ Ah...the love that never had a chance to blossom... /cries in Hiei's cloak/
/WHAP/ ouch, Hiei's mean...just like Yuki...ahhh! Hot!
/runs away/
Give a reivew to save my skin! But don't encourage him! Owwwwwwwwww!
- You guessed it. The author is mad today. Exam stress runs high. /shakes head/ -