Disclaimer: As you of course know, I don't own Escaflowne but I wouldn't
mind having Van-sama though! Please review. If I get good ones, I might
star to post up the continuation of this! Also, to make this sure, I hate
Hitomi!!! Van-sama is mine and all of his wonderfulness!!! Hahahaha!!
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Tears in a Wastebasket
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The rain feels funny sometimes. I wish it could clean me from the hurt you're giving me. Sometimes I wish that I had never gone to Gaea in the first place. Thinking of Gaea gives me so many memories of faith and believing in you. Maybe that's why I fell in love with you, someone who could take care of me and watch out for me. But I went back home and left a life of happiness and security beside you to a lonely existence of hurt and being abandoned.
But maybe, that's how you felt too. Without a care in the world, I forgot about Gaea little by little until I completely forgot about it, and you too. Forgot how I used to love you without thought and how you showed me affection. Gaea became a dream of insanity to me. All of my friends thought I was crazy, falling mad from my dedications of tarot cards and over obsessions to that velvet white feather.
I listened to my friends and threw away the cards, my memory of Gaea, of Allen, Merle, Millerna, Dryden, Moleman, Naria, Eriya, Folken, Dornkirk, Prince Chid, Eries, Duke of Freid, Gaddes, and you. My love. You. I thought I actually was crazy throwing away the token of your love to me, so we couldn't forget our love for each other. For three days I sat at my desk, looking into the trash at that precious jewel, fighting between my life here and you.
One afternoon I ran up the stairs to retrieve the feather from the filth, to apologize for my lack of faith in our love for each other. I bounded into my room and clutched the trashcan and looked in. All that was in there were tears and my broken heart. I sobbed holding onto that can as if I would die if I were to part from it. I lost you. I'm sorry Van. You were the only one who I cared about in the world. I shouldn't have left. I should have stayed in your arms forever.
I refused to go to school after that day. Yukari would visit me to make sure I was okay. After a week of her nagging on giving up on my thoughts of you, I kicked her out of my room. I never answered calls, hardly ate anything, I separated myself from the world. I could never go back to happiness. My mother became worried about me and tried to make me feel better but every time she did, I remembered that feather and sunk even lower.
There was hardly a time I didn't pass out from hunger. I could never go back to Gaea. My tarot cards were thrown away, my pendant was with you, even the feather was gone to me. Soon, I moved to a new school, United Nations High. It was in Tokyo so I was far away from home, the track, and my meddlesome friends. Refreshing into a new life. I stand here in the rain, looking out into the sky. I may catch a cold but I don't care, I miss you. A column of blue light comes down in front of me. "I missed you Hitomi."
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Tears in a Wastebasket
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The rain feels funny sometimes. I wish it could clean me from the hurt you're giving me. Sometimes I wish that I had never gone to Gaea in the first place. Thinking of Gaea gives me so many memories of faith and believing in you. Maybe that's why I fell in love with you, someone who could take care of me and watch out for me. But I went back home and left a life of happiness and security beside you to a lonely existence of hurt and being abandoned.
But maybe, that's how you felt too. Without a care in the world, I forgot about Gaea little by little until I completely forgot about it, and you too. Forgot how I used to love you without thought and how you showed me affection. Gaea became a dream of insanity to me. All of my friends thought I was crazy, falling mad from my dedications of tarot cards and over obsessions to that velvet white feather.
I listened to my friends and threw away the cards, my memory of Gaea, of Allen, Merle, Millerna, Dryden, Moleman, Naria, Eriya, Folken, Dornkirk, Prince Chid, Eries, Duke of Freid, Gaddes, and you. My love. You. I thought I actually was crazy throwing away the token of your love to me, so we couldn't forget our love for each other. For three days I sat at my desk, looking into the trash at that precious jewel, fighting between my life here and you.
One afternoon I ran up the stairs to retrieve the feather from the filth, to apologize for my lack of faith in our love for each other. I bounded into my room and clutched the trashcan and looked in. All that was in there were tears and my broken heart. I sobbed holding onto that can as if I would die if I were to part from it. I lost you. I'm sorry Van. You were the only one who I cared about in the world. I shouldn't have left. I should have stayed in your arms forever.
I refused to go to school after that day. Yukari would visit me to make sure I was okay. After a week of her nagging on giving up on my thoughts of you, I kicked her out of my room. I never answered calls, hardly ate anything, I separated myself from the world. I could never go back to happiness. My mother became worried about me and tried to make me feel better but every time she did, I remembered that feather and sunk even lower.
There was hardly a time I didn't pass out from hunger. I could never go back to Gaea. My tarot cards were thrown away, my pendant was with you, even the feather was gone to me. Soon, I moved to a new school, United Nations High. It was in Tokyo so I was far away from home, the track, and my meddlesome friends. Refreshing into a new life. I stand here in the rain, looking out into the sky. I may catch a cold but I don't care, I miss you. A column of blue light comes down in front of me. "I missed you Hitomi."