iLost my mind
Sam's POV
Freddie and I are standing out in the Ridgeway parking lot the night of the lock-in talking to each other face to face.
"look, I know its scary for you to put your feelings out there because you never know if the person that you like is going to like you back…everyone feels that way, but you never know what might happen if you don't-"
I was so caught up in the moment, I didn't even pay attention to a word Freddie had said to me. At that moment my emotions took over my body, and absentmindedly I grabbed his shoulders, leaned in, and kissed him.
About 12 seconds later (yes I counted) I pulled away, at that point I realized what I had done. Freddie seemed to be confused, which made me only feel worse. OH MY GOD, why did I do that! I thought to myself. I slowly back away from him.
"I-" Freddie said, still with a puzzled look on his face.
"sorry" I replied.
"its cool."
There was an awkward silence. Freddie blurted out my name and tries to grab my arm, but I just ran from him. I could here him calling me, but I didn't turn back, I just kept going. It started raining.
When I was far enough from the school I sat down on a park bench and mumbled to myself, this couldn't be right, and that I was supposed to hate him, for the first time in my life I really began to wonder if I was as crazy as everyone else thought of me to be.
After a while I see a women walking to her car, she looked a lot like my mom. I normally wouldn't do this, but I'm desperate I called out to her.
"Mom!"
She turns around and looks at me.
"Samantha?" she yelled.
She starts walking towards me and then sits down next to me.
"what are you doing here," I ask.
"well you weren't home so I couldn't send you to get me a smoothie, so I had to go and get one for myself, but more importantly, what are you doing here crying on a Saturday night, I thought you were supposed to be at the school?" she replied.
I told her what happened between Freddie and I, for once I think she was concerned. I also told her that I might be in love with him, at that point I think she thought I really was crazy, she took me to her car, drove me to troubled waters mental hospital, and checked me in.
Its the next day and Freddie is banging on Carly`s apartment door. When she opens the door he barges in.
"Have you seen or herd from Sam." he asked.
"No, I thought she was with you!" Carly exclaimed.
Freddie starts pacing around the room. "well she was…then she wasn't."
"I'm going to call her mom." Carly said.
She grabbed her phone and started dialing my moms number. She tells her that she checked me into the mental hospital, Carly and Freddie have Spencer drive them there to me.
The three of them arrive at the mental hospital and they spot Sam's mom.
"Hi Mrs. Pucket, do you mind if we see Sam." Carly asks
"Yah, she's on the 4th floor in room 93"
Freddie looks at Carly and nods his head. She goes up to my room and knocks on my door.
"Just a second," I said. I got up off my bed and opened up the door.
"hey, are you all right." Carly asks.
"yah I'm fine now." I lied.
There was yet again another awkward silence.
"I saw you and Freddie last night in the parking lot." she tells me.
"You did!" I was shocked to here her say that.
"Yah, when were you going to tell me that you liked Freddie?"
"I don't know, the first time we kissed I kind of liked him but it wasn't until recently did I realized I had feelings for him. Carly…I think I love him," I told her.
Carly smiles and then starts screaming "Sam loves Freddie!" I jumped behind her and covered her mouth.
"shhh! would you stop yelling!" I exclaimed.
"You love him!" she asked me.
"I-," I paused for a second to hear the knock on my door. I answered it, its Freddie."
He looks at me, and then looks at Carly. "Carly, do you mind if Sam and I have a minute a lone."
"no problem," Carly says, she walks out and shuts the door.
I walked back to sit on my bed, he follows me and stands at my side.
"Can we talk about the kiss?," he asks.
"Why, all were going to do is argue, besides even if I did like you, you would reject me anyway, your in love with Carly," I said.
I tried to fight back the tears, but it was just to hard, a tear rolled down my cheek, Whenever I thought about Carly and Freddie, the two of them being together, I start to cry, because I desperately what to be with Freddie.
Freddie sat down next to me. "Sam, look at me," Freddie says. I face him and continue crying as he spoke.
"I did like Carly, but after we had gone out for those few days, I realized that we could never be more than just friends. When Carly and I kissed before, I never really felt anything, but our first kiss, it had something more, it was special, and that's when I realized that I had feelings for you." Freddie took a second to wipe away the tears from eyes and then spoke again. "last night you took me by surprise, not only was I shocked from when you kissed me, but also confused considering all of the years that we have spent hating each other, I really didn't know what to think."
I knew at that moment I had to tell Freddie how I really felt, the truth.
"our first kiss, there were sparks, that's when I first started having feelings for you too, but instead of just telling you how I felt, I hid those feelings with anger when I shouldn't have, and last night those feelings took over my body, I lost myself and kissed you. I'm sorry…again."
We both laughed, and then our eyes meet, we kissed yet again.
When we pulled away I smiled at him and he smiles back. I feel like the luckiest person in the world!
"So I guess I will see you later then," I said, we both stood up and started walking toward the door.
"yah, I guess so, text me when you get out of here ok?" he asked
"alright I will." I said
"bye," we replied simultaneously.
I shut the door behind me and slid my back on the door and screamed at the top of my lungs "YES!"
Finally after all of these years, Freddie is mine, but little did I know, Freddie was still standing outside me door, he smiled and laughed to himself.
I know that there is more to the episode then what I have now, I promise I will continue this.