Rating: M
Warning: Incest, Yaoi, Slight Pedophilia In Later Chapters, Rape, Blood, and A Few Other Lovely Things
Words of Advice: If you don't like it, don't read it and save us all the trouble of your horrible attitude later.
We has humans feel the need to love and be loved, when we lack that, we slowly go insane and sometimes, it causes our demise. The horrible truth is: the same can be said if we have too much love and/or are loved too much. In love, we find jealousy and hate if one is loved more than ourselves or should someone else find interest in what we love. We must be constantly reassured that the love one feels for us is true and unwavering while we do not always feel the same need to reassure other's of our love for them.
Love in either form creates monsters like I, people who will torture their love until they either develop Stockholm Syndrome or until they're so afraid that they won't leave.
Horrible isn't it?
Now say we add two souls to a body instead of just one… The second is jealous of the love the other shows toward someone else, it begins to hate, it wishes for the other's affection to never be shown towards that person, for that person to just disappear completely.
I almost lost him because of our cursed fates.
I say all of this, but I have to wonder if I'm not just looking for something to blame for my own misdeeds. Maybe I'm just out to justify what I did to him back then, to hide the truth about my wretched self.
It's been years since all of that happened… Since I finally gained control over what he's slowly losing to. My second self lays dormant… until I stay around him too long. Seeing the fear and disgust in his eyes as he looks at me, it makes brings joy to the darkness inside of me, that horrible laughter echoing in my head, showing just how pleased it is with what its done… What I've done.
Oh, what I wouldn't do to get him to forgive and love me again. I want to see the affection he once showed glow brightly in those lovely golden eyes of his.
A/N: I wanted to post a short, first person POV from Sherrill as the first chapter to give you a tiny bit of insight before we take a lovely little dive into the past. Later chapters are much longer and where the horror will begin.