*Spencer is rushed off to the er and Mary refuses to leave her side, *Contains triggers
Mary: My biological daughter Spencer had just been shot, she was rushed off to the er, ems complained I wasn't legally her mom but I refused to leave her
When the doctor came out and told me she had scar marks from being whipped and burned with cigarettes and had head trauma my heart broke
I know Charlotte had abused them but the doctor said this was older than that, I couldn't believe she had been adopted by people that abused her, no wonder she couldn't concentrate and was in recovery from drugs, she had ptsd like me.
When she got out of surgery the doctors let me see her, I sat on the edge of her bed as she came too
She turned and looked over at me freaked out shaking
"I'm not going to hurt you" I say reaching over and squeezing her hand reassuringly
"Please don't beat me, I'll be good" She buried her head in her pillow.
I couldn't control my instincts I pulled her tight into my arms and held her so close
"The doctors told me what they did to you, I'm so sorry I didn't know, I was abused too and I would never do anything bad to you, I didn't want to give you up but they made me I was a ward of the sanitarium, I always loved you and wanted you" I say breaking down in tears
"They never wanted me, Dad would sexually abuse me when I was little and kept exposing himself my whole life, they both whipped me a lot, mom beat me and bashed my head in constantly, they always took Melissa's side and said they hated me, I just wanted to be safe and loved I didn't understand. I had to bring myself up I was no bodys child" She cries into my chest shaking like a leaf.
"Oh Spencer, baby, I understand I went through the same things with my parents.. Hey your safe deep breaths calm down" I say softly trying to soothe her she was having a panic attack
"Who's my father?" She cries
"I'm sorry Spencer, Jessica, My twin she sold me out for sex a few times, Your dad demanded she find someone to pimp out or he was going to tell Kenneth he and Jessica were having an affair, He was hard up for money, it was mostly to your dads brother, He's yours and Charlottes father, Cody Hastings, So your dad is actually your Uncle" I say gently trying not to freak her out, She and Charlotte were the product of rape but I pray she won't understand that, I'm not going to hide anything from her.
"This is so sick and twisted.. I'm the product of rape" She cries pushing me away, damn it!
"Hey, Listen to me just because I was forced into having sex doesn't mean I didn't want you, sweetheart when I found out I was pregnant I tried to escape from Radley I was going to run off and start over in a different country with you, I wanted you more than anything" I say crying lying there next to her, was she rejecting me? I start shaking
"DON'T LIE to me, you never wanted me thats why you gave me up! No one ever wanted me!" She cries rocking herself like a little kid
"That's not true, I tried to escape 3 times and they caught me, sent me back, the second you were born they ripped you away from me, I cried so hard and then you reached out your little hands and I tried to grab you back and screamed they couldn't take another baby away from me, I loved you so much but they were hell bent on taking you, so they restrained me and drugged me, they sent you to cps I know, Peter found out quickly through Jessica and adopted you, he didn't want anyone figuring out what he'd done, Please believe me, I wouldn't be here if I didn't want you sweetheart" I cry I don't know what to say to help her understand and heal.
"You really want me?" She looks at me broken
"Of course I do, your my daughter Spencer, I love you more than anything, I just hope you want me" I cry looking into her eyes, she gives me puppy dog eyes, I reach out my arms
"Come here" I cry wrapping my arms around her she clings to me sobbing into my shoulder
"I have a mom that wants me" She cries softly
"Yes baby you do" I say stroking her hair.
"I love you too" She whispers, my heart melts and yet it breaks at the same time I never expected to hear those words come out of her mouth I burst into hysterics
"Did I do something wrong?" She asks looking at me fearfully
"No not at all, Oh Spencer, I just, no one ever said they loved me before" I sob out
I kiss her forehead gently, she's a good person I can tell that, she remained soft depsite what they did to break her and make her hard, shes my only tenderness in this world
"I'm sorry, I know what that's like" She says causing my heart to hurt even more.
"Don't cry mom, it's gonna be okay" She says squeezing me
"I'm going to protect you I promise, I don't understand how anyone could be so sick as to intentionally hurt you.. No one deserves that" I say holding her tightly cradling her head against my shoulder
"I don't want to go back to Veronica's, please don't let them take me back there" She cries
"No my baby, no one is going to take you anywhere you don't want to go" I say softly trying to calm her down.
"But I have no where to go" She shakes
"Hey, you can always stay at the lost woods with me" I offer, no way I'm letting her go back there not after what she told me
"Thanks mom your the best" She slurs out somethings not right, I press the emergency button her monitor starts to beep all of a sudden she goes limp against me and her eyes close, I press the button again damn it I can't lose her, no, no!
"Please wake up Spencer, please don't leave me " I cry shaking her gently.
The doctors rush in they say she lost too much blood and needs a transfusion, I call Alison and tell her whats going on she rushes over and agree to donate blood, Spencer and I are O-
I know all about this A.D, thats why I had been in that house and had been reading all about cyber stalking and bullying I was trying to get ahead of A.D and protect those girls
I have a bad feeling that A.D is Peter, I think he's working with Cody and I don't trust him not to switch the bag of blood out and kill her, I already knew that Archer killed Charlotte, Initially I thought he was A.D and went along with his plan to protect the girls but he wasn't, just a crazy schemist.
Ali sat in the chair next to me and tried to comfort me, telling me it was going to be okay, She held my hand and didn't let go of it
Spencer was pretty much in a coma, the doctors had her on oxygen, they said there was a possibility she was braindead they were going to run more tests if she didn't wake up in 6 hours
But she woke up in 2 hours thank god, I rushed to her side
"Mommy, Ali?" She says groggly and confused.
"Thank god, Please don't ever scare me like that again!" I cry hugging her full force
"What happened? I'm sorry it's all my fault I was bad, I deserve the whip so why are you hugging me? I don't deserve a mom like you" She looks down trembling
"Hey, you didn't do anything wrong, your not bad, I would never hurt you I'd rather die okay?and no one deserves to get abused. I'm hugging you because I love you.. I'm not upset with you at all just angry at Jenna for shooting you.. Blood loss, they weren't sure you were going to make it, there was a possiblity you were braindead, oh sweetheart I don't know what I'd of done, Your my world" I say softly trying not to freak her out even worse.
"Mary donated blood to you" Alison says sitting at the end of the bed
"You didn't have to do that mom" She says emotionally
"I wasn't taking any chances, A.D could of tampered with the blood transfusion you were given I wasn't taking that chance" I say looking deep into her eyes
'Thank you" She says snuggling into me.
"You really do love me" I whisper tearing up
"Of course" She whispers back
All of a sudden Veronica comes barging in the room I pull spencer closer into a protective hold
"What are you doing here Mary? She's my daughter get away from her" Veronica sneered
I saw Alison get infront of us and fold her arms.
"Mrs. Hastings I think it would be best if you left, Spencer doesn't want to see you, We all know what you and Peter did to her and your sick, Please get out or I'm going to call security" Ali says
Spencer was shaking against me
"I'm right here, not going anywhere, Deep breaths moms got you, I'm not letting go, your safe" I whisper into her ear I feel her cling to me she buries her head in my chest
"Like hell I'm leaving over Spencers dead body, She deserves a good beating and she's in a cozy hospital" Veronica yells angrly
"GET OUT! I'm an adult and I'm going to take this to court and get the adoption reversed somehow" She yells back at Veronica.
"Oh really now, come on Spence why would Mary or anyone want you? your worthless remember? You both are, I'm sure Mary wishes she never had you" Veronica sneers
"No your wrong, I do want her I always did, she's a sweet kind loving person and your the idiot for not seeing how amazing she is and what you had, If you had brought her up with love and support instead of abusing her maybe she wouldn't of gotten addicted to stimulants and other drugs like I did, her and I aren't worthless, were the percent that actually has a heart and feels unlike you robotic cruel people" I say emotionally
"Oh screw you Mary, Come on Spencer your coming home right this instant I'll get a doctor to come to the house and take care of you, I can't have you sitting around here they might notice something" She sneers
"They already saw my scars and I'm not leaving my mom, you don't even want me and she does, she actually loves me, you took me away from MY MOM and I belonged with HER NOT YOU" Spencer says upset crying.
"Mam I think you need to leave or I'm going to escort you out that wouldn't look good for a senator would it now" A security guard stepped in
"FINE but this isn't over" Veronica yells angrily I feel Spencer grip me even tighter as she walks out the door
"Shh, she's gone sweetheart, and thank you for calling security Alison, god only knows what she's capable of" I say cradeling her head, I kiss her hair tenderly
She closes her eyes leaning her head against time smiling sadly tears falling off her face.
"Your so affectionate, I never got that growing up, I needed it so much" She says gently
"I love you sweetheart, you can get all the affection you want from me" I say smothering her with motherly kisses
She hugs me so tightly "I love you too, Thank you.. Just for wanting me" She says
"Mmm, my baby girl" I moan softly she's just so sweet.
"My mommy" She says softly kissing my cheek so gently
"I never really got any affection either and wasn't allowed to give any, I had to repress that part of myself for so long" I say a tear runs down my face
"Me too.. I hope that wasn't innapropriate" She says fearfully
"No, not at all, it meant the world to me" I say rocking her slightly.
Ali joins in and hugs spencer too
"I'm so glad your okay, my cousin, I love you" Ali says emotionally
"I love you too Ali, I always felt a deep connection with you" She says
"Me too Spence" Ali says.
The doctor comes in, He says spencer can go home in a few days if she keeps recovering at this rate
She kept holding onto me like a little kid, I didn't mind at all, I was actually kind of enjoying it, that was the only physcial contact I had in the longest time
I stayed by her side the whole time accept to shower and use the bathroom, I had a security detail outside her door, they said Jenna was missing and I didn't want anyone hurting her
We spent the next few days telling eachother all about our pasts and ourselves, it turned out we had been through so much of the same things and she had so much of my personality, down to the love of caffeine, but they refused to let her have any in her condition.
We had been through a lot of the same trauma, sexual, physical and emotional, my parents always considered me the black sheep too, Jessica went through some abuse from them but not like I did with getting whipped and beat everyday
Jessica was kind of close with me up until we were about 4, she walked in on our dad molesting me and got jelous that she wasn't getting attention, for some reason he wasn't interested in her
After that she kept being cruel to me and tried to kill me once, tried to hurt me a lot, I ran away from home for a few weeks once but the cops found me and dragged me back
I never understood how anyone could be as cold and crazy as Jessica was, once she left me chained up in the basement for a whole 2 days, and the electroshock therapy was just completely traumatic and it was torture I almost died from it once from a heart conditon.
After that radley refused to give it to me anymore because they didn't want a death on their hands.. I had it a total of 5 times, I still had nightmares about that place and that I was being electrocuted and convulsing sometimes
Teddy, the baby she killed she openly told me that she shook him to make him stop crying, I never understood why I didn't get a fair trial and was just whisked off to radley like that
I'm grateful that place is shut down, I know Spencer was in there too, she told me everything and it really broke my heart, I promised myself I'd help her heal and keep her safe
She shouldn't of had to have understood what I went through no one deserves that, I was on adderall the second time I got admitted to radley, we both did our share of that.
There's just so much we have to give to eachother, we get each other on a level no one else ever could
I didn't think it was possible to love something so much but I love her to infinity times infinity with all my heart, she's all I have other than Alison
It will probably always sting that my own twin hated me so much but I'm not going to let what Jessica and what the rest of my family did to me stop me from being the mom spencer needs
I'm her's and I wouldn't have it any other way, I can't explain this feeling other than that it's like she's my other half in a non romantic way.
When the doctors let me take her home 3 days later I was so relieved, Alison offered to let us stay there but it's too close to Peter and Veronica so Spencer and I agree to go back to the Lost Woods for now
I was suprised Peter or Veronica didn't show up trying to take her away from me
We were about halfway there when the car spiraled out of control I called 911 on my bluetooth, I knew I wouldn't get through in time but we were in the middle of the woods and it was my only hope that they'd trace our location I'm not sure why the car went out of control
I tried to sheild Spencer with my body, she was the last thing I thought about before it all went blank I saw a white light