First of all I want to let you know, that english isn't my native language, so please excuse any spelling or gramatical mistakes.
"Can I stay," Esposito wanted to know, looking at her pleadingly.
"No, Javier get up and go, you know the rules, you have consented to them," said Lanie him with repellent voice.
"I'm already gone," the investigators said softly, dressed and stopped again at the door, before he left her apartment.
"Good-bye Lanie," he said and Lanie heard sadness in his voice, before he closed the door behind him.
Lanie was confused, normally after sex, he left without a word. This prompted the medical examiner to go to the window and look down to the street where he just stepped out of her bulding.
Javier went to his car, opened the passenger door and took an envelope out of the glove compartment.
He stared at it for a moment before returning to Lanies building and to her mailbox.
He could not prevent a single tear ran down his cheek, as the tossed in the letter, but deep in his heart he knew that there was no other way. Then he walked quickly to his car, grabbed his cell phone and made a quick call before he drove away.
Lanie had seen an envelope in his hands, so she dressed quickly and ran to her mailbox. She took the letter and went back to her apartment. She sat down on the couch and stared at the envelope for a while until she had the courage to open it.
Dear Lanie,
I'm sorry that I have to write and can't look into your eyes, but there is no other way. First, I wouldn't have the courage to do it while looking into your beautiful brown eyes, please believe me, that I have tried more than once. Secondly, there's the fact that I don't remeber the last time you allowed me to really look into your eyes.
I cann't do this anymore. I can't pretend that it would be okay for me you throwing me out of your appartment in the middle of the night . I can't pretend that it would be okay for me that we don't talk, and that we see each other only for sex. I can't pretend that it would be okay for me that, for reasons I still do not know, you don't want me to be a real part in your life anymore.
I know I agreed to your rules, but I can't do this anymore. I agreed to your rules, because I've missed you so much that I thought it is better to be at least close to you this way. But the truth is that everytime I'm back in the dark loneliness of your staircase, I feel like you would drift a little further away from me.
I still love you with all my heart and that's why I ask you to accept my decision. I can't do this no longer, because I still hope for more than you are willing to give.
Please excuse if I disappointed you.
Javier
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