I don't what this is I just felt like writing. This is Arizona's POV of her break up with Callie except they didn't get back together. Sad I know but hey its life.

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Arizona's POV

It has been three months since I lost the love of my life. Three months since I was able to touch her, kiss her, hold her and be there for her. When we broke up I told her that we would see each other at work and be friends.

I learned really fast that I can't just be Callie's friend. I can't talk to her about her dating life without feeling jealous. I hate being jealous but that is me and my insecurities. I was jealous of Mark even though he would never do that too us. He knew how happy we were together. I hate saying were when talking about Calliope the only reason that we broke up was because I didn't trust her. We spent so much time together and I couldn't trust her after everything we have been through. All she wanted was to get our relationship to the next level.

The next level of any relationship has always scared me. I want to make that step someday but it has be with the right person and at the right time. I was focused on my career and being a surgeon makes it very difficult to focus on more than that. Love is not the first thing on my mind. It is my patients and there survival.

Mark wants me to go and talk to Callie about us and make an agreement about our future together. Is there a solution to this problem? Yes there is I have to get past my fears and follow my heart. My heart is with her and will always be. She has never heard me say that I will always love her but I will. After a while in a relationship once it gets comfortable the feeling that you will always love your girlfriend/boyfriend creeps up. I figured that out one when we were in bed just watching Beauty and the Beast.

Flashback

We were just cuddling in bed loving the feel of our bodies against each other. She always loved holding me.

I'm looking at the television when Calliope says "Would you still love me if I was a beast?"

I turn around look at her with a smile on my face and say "I will love you more. You are miraculous." I can't help but kiss her on the cheek.

She just says to me "Good because I feel the same way." Now she just looks at me and asks "How come you didn't help me out when I had chicken pox a couple of months ago until the very end?"

I just hold her and say "Because I wanted everything to stay sexy and whenever the comfortable part of relationships comes for me at least I get scared and I try to get out the situation and move into sexy time. It is all about me being scared."

She just looks at me and kisses my forehead and moves down to my ear and whispers "Don't be scared I'm going to protect your heart and mine as well."

No one has ever told me that before. I didn't know what to do so I just pulled her into a passionate kiss. There was so much passion and desire in that one kiss. I'm sure she didn't know why I was kissing her so passionately but I knew and wouldn't tell her.

Now that we are near breathless she breaks the kiss and says "Where did that come from?"

I just tickle her sides and say "Can't I kiss my girlfriend like that just because I want too."

She just looks at me and says "Yeah you can. I love spontaneous Arizona."

I just look and her say "I love you too bad-ass ortho surgeon Calliope." Always

End Flashback.

I am about to go into for a surgery with Callie and her new girlfriend. Callie has a girlfriend and I am dumb for letting her go. I don't know what to do.

Too bad she hasn't spoken too me since we broke up. It has been a long three months without her. Now I am usually just hanging at the hospital or Joe's with Mark. I am pathetic without her. I never thought she would find someone so fast. Mark never tells me the name of the person she is seeing. He is doing this because he knows I am jealous. Jealous Arizona is never a good thing.

I need to clear my head and drink down a beer and try not to think about her again. Everyday without her is one day closer to me getting guts to talk to her. It will probably

be another three months before that happens.

I sit and I wonder who is Callie's girlfriend that no one wants to tell me about?

I just felt like writing. I don't know I had a bad break up last month with someone who was very special too me and they will never know what I pictured for our future. That was kinda inspiration.