Ahsoka's Pov.
I sat in the med bay, desperately trying to finish my status report before our next battle, we had been in the Teth system for weeks now but nothing was being accomplished here but death. I had been tired all week, not having much rest as the war played on. I also had conflicting feelings, they had been bugging me since just recently as I stared across the room. I had been feeling attatched to someone I could never be with, mind have feeling for them. It wasn't the jedi way but knowing that didn't stop me from thinking about him. I had grown attatched to him on the battle field, saving eachother countless of times. I didn't know if these feelings were even there but why had I felt like this in the first place ?
I had felt like this before but nothing had become of it. I never liked this feeling, it distracted me momentarily but always caught me off guard. I just wished I'd be able to focus on my job instead of staring at the beautiful face across the room. I had looked into those eyes a million times, seeing different emotions every time, he seemed harsh but he had a soft spot... he had to.
I looked up from my report and he noticed me, he gave me a small smile and I quickly looked back at my report, this was perfect. I hadn't even made it 75% of the way. I sighed heavily and began checking off certain things, like rations, and supplies. I was not sure when I would be able to get these conflicting thoughts out of my head, just as the door opened and Anakin walked through it. I froze, I was not in the mood for a lecture. I wasn't entirely sure how to explain to him I had been checking out someone I was madly inlove with, with out sounding stupid.
"You finish that report yet ?" He asked scooping it out of my hands. I crossed my arms at this and stared up at my Master. "Well, sorta" I breathed
"You're barely half way, Snips... what have you been doing ?" He asked crossing his arms.
"I thought, you'd like to complete the other half, it's only fair considering I did the last one" I replied.
"Fine, but we're needed in the landing bay for a scheduled meeting" He stated. I followed him out as we entered the ships corridors. I walked along side him as we passed crew members.
"Whats happening now ?" I asked
"The Seperatists have taken a great amount of the city and slaughtered 2,000 citizens in the last few hours" He stated.
"Where's the troops that were watching the city ?" I asked
"They've been murdered as well, were hoping the council will send reinforcements sometime later in the day." He replied. I nodded as we entered the landing bay. We were greeted by the 501st legion troopers and I watched as Anakin gave a quick brief to his fellow troopers. Not that I paid much attention to it, as I found myself stuck in thought for the 3 time of the day.
"Ahsoka ?" I looked up and noticed Anakin staring at me. I wasn't even paying attention, I should've known better than to just stare blankly at open space.
"What ?" I asked confusingly.
"Uh, dissmissed" He stated, not looking at his men as they dispersed. Anakin walked closer to me and put a hand on my shoulder. I stared at it and then back up at him.
"you feeling okay, Snips ?" He asked concerned.
"Perfect, why ?" I lied.
"you've been acting a bit different lately, is there something wrong ? did I do something ?" He asked.
"No Skyguy, it's not you... I'm just growing tired of this war is all" I stated.
"are you sure ?" He asked
"Yes, Master" I stated.
"Alright, I'll need you to contact Rex and tell him to prepare for battle"Anakin ordered. I nodded just as I was about to leave when Fives walked over to me. "Hey, Commander" He stated.
"Whats up, Fives ?" I asked turning to him.
"I got to board right away but we seemed to have left a crate of medical supplies in the med bay" He said scratching the back of his head. I smiled, knowing where this was going.
"Don't worry, I'll handle it" I replied and Fives saluted me.
"Thank you, Sir" He said and I walked out of the landing bay, I put my comlink to my mouth and chanelled Rex via comlink. "Rex, Come in" I breathed.
"Yes, Commander" He stared, moments later.
"The General wants you to head towards the landing bay, we're preparing for the next battle and leave immediately" I ordered.
"Yes, Sir... I'll be there" He replied, the line going dead as I walked through another corridor. I entered the front desk of the med bay and asked about the supplies, stating I was here for pick up. I signed a holo pad and was taken to the back of the storage room. I picked up the crate, which wasn't exactly easy but managable. I walked out of the storage and towards the med bay's back exit. I was about to open the door when it open from the other side. The door hit the crate in my hands, sending me falling to the ground. I groaned at the impact and looked up to see Captain Rex standing in the door way.
"Are you alright, Sir ?" He asked. I put my hand to my punding head and turned to him.
"Fine" I replied as he extended a hand for me. I took it as he pulled me to my feet. I gave a small smile as he walked passed me. I rolled my eyes and picked up the crate and left the room. I began walking back towards the landing bay when footsteps came walking beside me. I turned my head slightly to notice Rex falling into step with me.
"Sorry about that back there, Commander... I'm just not on my game today" He stated.
"Noted" I replied jokingly. Rex walked up infront of me and scooped the crate out of my arms.
"No so heavy" He mumbled. I crossed my arms at the gesture.
"you didn't have to-" He cut me off before I could even get one sentence in.
"Anything for you, Commander" He replied. I suddenly felt my heart race, butterflies errupting in my chest which was odd. I had not wanted to feel like this again... I closed my eyes as we continued walking in silence, because I was to love struck to speak or Rex had enjoyed the silence. I breathed in and out, thoughts scattered in my head as I tried to focus on the mission then what ever else my mind was set on, but to no avail, there was no escaping the way I felt.
"Commander?" Rex asked and I snapped back to reality. I turned to him, with an expression as blank as my status report, which didn't look so good.
"Yeah ?" I asked as we entered another corridor.
"are you feeling okay ? you seem not yourself" Rex asked.
"So I heard" I stated. He looked at me with a rais eyebrow and I sighed. How was I suppose to tell my captain I couldn't stop thinking about him ? This had been growing more and more insane by the second and how on earth was I supposed to say. "Rex, I'm inlove with you" Without sounding stupid ?
"What ?..." I heard Rex asked and I froze.
I had stopped dead in my tracks, to stuck in thought to realize I had just been thinking out loud. I felt deeply embarrased as Rex stared at me questioningly as I tried to think of an excuse to tell him I didn't mean to say what I just had, but there was no way I could cover up what I'd just did. I knew I was completely insane for even thinking those words. I was a jedi, like many before me... how could I have been as stupid enough to say something utterly ridiculous ?
I'd known eventually the words would come but I had not anticipated so soon and the best I was able to do in this time was to face my actions and hope for the best... Here goes nothing...
"I'm in love with you" I breathed and with that Rex dropped the crate and starred at me, with an undescribable expression as he took in the words, heavy silence took up the air as no one spoke a word... This was just perfect, I got the silent treatment, which meant he didn't feel the same way. I'd suddenly felt sadness grow inside me as we stood, not far from one another and facing eachother completely, eyes meeting briefly but thoughts and emotions scatted in the air...
What had I done ?
(A/N) New story, requested from one of my fantastic reviewers from Unholy Confessions. This is my first story with this kind of feelings so do not judge me. I worked hard on this and more chapters will be up soon, This is basicaly a taste of what the story is and please leave me a review if you enjoyed this chapter and want me to update soon. I would like to dedicate this chapter to the love of my life, not that he could see it but I'm feeling praticular happy. 3 R&R!