"I love you"
Three words he had been meaning to utter in front of her; three words that lingered inside his mouth every time she was close. He hadn't even realized it before those three words had already passed his mouth. He dug inside his jacket pockets even deeper. It was chilly but, his face felt warm.
There's more to this
He wanted to say more but, he knew that she wasn't listening. So many times this has happened, so many times when he said things too late. He stood silent there for a moment, looking at her as she walked away, oblivious of the three words he just said.
She was off to see her boyfriend. How ironic.
That was it with him. He waited too long. He had a lot of opportunities, a lot of chances, missed; ignored, even. He brushed off his feelings so quickly and got trapped when he couldn't pass it off anymore.
He thought his feelings would take care of themselves. He thought his feelings would somehow magically transpire into actions.
And that she would see.
He didn't try because he knew it was bound to happen. He went so far ahead of himself.
Stupid.
Absolutely stupid.
When he actually did exert an effort to show how he felt, it was too late. All too late.
Someone else had realized how incredibly special and wonderful she was, and that someone did not waste any time at all.
Lucky bastard.
He wanted to say something. There were so many times when he really was going to but, then he would see her smile; smile because of him. He didn't want to take that away from her. It would be narrow, it would be selfish.
His words were always left unsaid.
I wish it was me