Blew It

I just finished watching Emer Island Players and I had to write this. Aang was stupid and messed that up. I decided to write a story about how he was feeling.

Disclaimer: I don't own Avatar but if I did I wouldn't make Aang act so stupid.

Thoughts in flashbacks.

Thoughts

Why'd I do it?

Why'd I have to blow it? The small chance I actually had is now thrown out the window!

"Ahh!" I shouted and slammed my fist into the sand. It stung but strangely the pain soothed me. The cool waves of the ocean lapped at my bare feet, helping cool me down. I wanted so bad to go back to three hours ago.

Flashback

I was standing outside watching the moon. I thought having a woman playing me was bad but this was too much. Now I was really wondering what had happened in the Crystal Catacombs of Old Ba Sing Se. I shook my head, I was being silly. That couldn't have happened...right?

"Aang?" I heard Katara approach me. "Aang are you alright?"

"No I'm not, I hate this play." I said while throwing my hat to the ground.

"I know it's upsetting but it sounds like you're overreacting." Katara said walking to stand beside me.

I turned to her. "Overreacting?!" I yelled, "If I hadn't blocked my chakra I'd probably be in the Avatar State right now!" It was true. I was so angry at the play, especially the part where the Zuko and Katara actors hugged like they were the ones in love. We stood in silence for a few minutes before I finally broke it.

"Katara did you really mean what you said in there?" I had to know.

Katara looked at me confused, "In where? What are you talking about?"

I turned to stare at her. "Onstage, when you said I was just like a," I hesitated. I didn't want to say it. "brother to you and you didn't have feelings for me." Realization was slowly making it's way onto her face.

"I didn't say that an actor said that." She sounded like she was trying to avoid the question. "No..."

I looked at my shoes sadly. It can't be true. "But it's true isn't it? We kissed at the invasion and I thought we were gonna be together. But we're not."

"Aang..." She trailed off for a moment looking away from me, "I don't know."

"Why don't you know?" I knew I was starting to sound desperate and I hoped she didn't detect it.

"I'm confused. Aang we're in the middle of a war and we have other things to worry about. This isn't the right time." I looked up but she still wouldn't meet my gaze.

"Then when is the right time?!" I exclaimed sadly. She looked at me for a brief moment then turned away again.

"Aang," Katara said almost sadly. "I'm sorry but right now I'm just a little confused." She closed her eyes and tugged on her hair lightly.

I don't know what made me do it but I leaned up and kissed her. Katara stood there for a moment before jerking away from me with a hand on her lips, surprised.

"I just said I was confused!" She repeated angrily. I could see she wasn't lying either, in her eyes there was confusion, hurt, anger and...sadness?

There was an uneasy silence for a moment. She wouldn't look me in the eye anymore but her face looked disappointed.

"I'm going inside." Katara said before turning and running back into the the theatre as if trying to escape the unseen emotions that were hanging in the air.

Flashback End

I didn't even notice the tears until they started to drip from my chin into the tide. I didn't try to stop them. It hurt to cry and it hurt even more now that I knew Katara wasn't going to come to comfort me.

"I'm such and idot." I whimpered and clutched a handful of sand. I wanted so badly to take back the kiss in hopes something better would happen but a part of me was glad to have pressed my lips to her soft ones again.

I touched my lips as I thought of this. They started tingling at the thought of her lips against mine. Her taste still lingered on them. I loved it. She tasted like chocolate and strawberries along with salt like the ocean. I smiled a watery smile and laughed pathetically. Yes that was it.

"I'm pathetic and for that I'm sorry." I chuckled to myself, tears still falling.

I sat on the sand, quietly laughing but my laughter sounded like choked sobs.

"That's right." I turned to the moon shining brightly above me. "I'm pathetically and hopelessly in love with you, Katara."

Yes well this was meant to be a one chapter thing but I had the sudden urge to make it at least three chapters. I'm trying to get them up before Sozin's Comet comes later today so I gotta hurry!

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