Everybody Knows The Sound Of Rejection.
It was early afternoon. I was just finished my fourth class of the day and unwillingly dragged my feet to French. I hated this class so much. It's not the language that frustrated me, or even the teacher, it was the person I was permitted to sit beside. Jacob Black. Jake is one of those stuck up kids who think's he's better than everyone in the whole town, let alone school. Okay, so maybe I'm exaggerating just a little, but I can't help it, just looking at him makes me want to hit something, and I'm not usually a violent person. He brings out the worst in me. He wasn't always my sworn enemy, in fact, we used to be best friends, until that day. I remember it well.
It was during the summer, on one of those rare sunny days. We were both hanging out in my back garden, listening to music and watching the clouds float effortlessly through the sky. It was nice, just the two of us. The way best friends should be. Everything was perfect, until he uttered a simple sentence, ruining everything we had.
"Bella" he said nervously, he was looking at his shoes. "I really like you, do you think we could be more than friends?"
In that moment, our friendship had crumbled like ancient walls in the countryside. Don't get me wrong, Jake was handsome and I would totally tap that but we were best friends and that's all I felt for him.
I looked at his hopeful face, but I couldn't tell him what he wanted to hear. I didn't want to hurt him like this. I wanted to try to love him, but I knew I couldn't. If we did become more than friends and it was awkward, our friendship would never be the same. To me, his friendship was everything and I needed it like I needed air to breath. He was my sun on a cloudy day. He shone through the darkest storm clouds and made even my worst day seem brighter.
"I love you.." I told him sadly, his face brightened greatly which made it even harder for me to mumble the rest of my sentence.
"but only as a friend" I finished softly. His face had dropped completely. I hurt him, which hurt me.
"We can still be friends though, right?" I asked hopeful. Of course we would stay friends, nothing had happened, so nothing could be awkward right? Wrong!
"No, I don't think we can Bella" he huffed angrily. He stood up and started to walk away.
"No, Jake! Wait! Come back!" I Called after him recklessly. He didn't turn around. He ignored me.
Tears rolled silently down my face, which soon turned into loud sobs which wracked through my body. I rejected his love, but he rejected my friendship. As much as it pained me, I could not forgive him. He knew that friendship was everything.